Light years away, but you're right here

My mum just walked in and gave me $30.
Which is very kind of her.
And manages to pay back the credit I blew in the holidays (yes, I'm looking at you)

Hums.

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Wes Carr = Awesome
I've been listening to his CD The Way The World Looks all afternoon.
And I love love LOVE the song Light Years (dodgy live version)

"Four hours you wake up
I wish thta I could be there
I lay awake while you're dreaming somewhere

So long
I wish I could hold on

You're light years
You're light yers
You're light years away
But you're right here"

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So!

Gah, I feel all crappy again.
These stupid mood swings are killing me.
You know, I've cried myself to sleep for the past week straight.
Isn't that just pathetic?

And and, I don't even have a (good) reason. I'm just... pissed off. :L
Le sigh.

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Why am I always so scared to tell people the truth?
When you ask me what's wrong, I shake my head, and hide my face.
You know something's different, but you don't know what.
And the people that do know what, aren't even important
What would you do if you knew?
Would you tell them to stop?
Tell them that every joke kills me?
Or would you laugh, like you do now?
Maybe you'd do neither
You'd hide your face with mine
But we'd have each other.
And it wouldn't be so lonely.

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I've really gotta go now.
Wish you were here,

95er

(1) Shoe Size: 6.5 (I KNOW I have small feet, leave me alone!)
(2) Straight/gay/bi?: I don't know :L
(3) Single? Nop
(4) Want to be: Happy (I dunno what I was supposed to write)
(5) Your birth day: November 19. (national toilet day)
(6) Age You Wish You Were: 15, 8 months and 11 days. Oh wow!
(7) Your height: 5'5"
(9) The color of your eyes: Brown
(10) The color of your hair: Brown
(11) Piercings? Ears
(12) Tattoos? No

D O Y O U . . .

(13) Smoke? No
(14) Do drugs? No (Children's panadol and Listerine!!)
(15) Read the newspaper? Occasionally (only for footy updates to gloat over how well we're doing)
(16) Pray? Never
(17) Talk to strangers? Everyday
(18) Take walks in the rain? Yes =)
(19) Drive? Nope
(20) Like to drive fast? See above

H A V E Y O U E V E R . .

(21) Hurt yourself? Yes
(22) Been out of the country? No
(23) Been in love? Yes
(24) Done drugs? No
(25) Gone skinny dipping? No
(26) Had a surgery? No
(27) Ran away from home? No
(28) Played strip poker? Yes
(29) Gotten beaten up? No
(30) Been picked on? Yes
(31) Been on stage? Yes
(32) Slept outdoors? Yes
(33) Had a best friend? Yes
(34) Pulled an all-nighter? Yes
(35) If yes, what is your record? All night?
(36) Talked on the phone all night? No
(37) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex? No
(38) Slept all day? No
(39) Killed someone? Not yet
(40) Made out with a stranger? No
(41) Had sex with a stranger? No
(42) Kissed the same sex? Lisa =D
(43) Done anything sexual with the same sex? Yes
(44) Been betrayed? Yes
(45) Broken the law? No
(46) Met a famous person? No
(47) Been on radio/TV ? Yes,
(48) Been in a mosh-pit? Yes
(49) Had a nervous breakdown? Yes
(50) Been criticized about your sexual performance? No
(51) Had a dream that kept coming back? No
(52) Shoe brand? Isn't this 'have you ever'?
(53) What are you normally wearing to school/work? Uniform
(54) Wear hats? No
(55) Judge other people by their clothing? No
(56) Wear make-up? Only at work
(57) Favorite places to shop? Coles
(58) Favorite article of clothing? My jeans (that smell like you =))
(59) Are you trendy? No

B E L I E F S

(60) Believe in life on other planets?: No
(61) Miracles?: Yes
(62) Astrology? No
(63) Magic?: *resists urge to sing* no
(64) God?: Not sure
(65) Satan?: No
(67) Ghosts?: No
(68) Luck?: Yes
(69) Love at first sight?: No
(70) Yin and Yang?: Hmm?
(71) Witches?: No
(72) Easter bunny?: No
(73) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: Yes
(74) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: Only if you're there ;)
(75) Do you wish on stars? Yes

L O V E and all that J A Z Z

(76) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: Yes
(77) Do you remember your first love?: Yes
(78) Still love him/her?: No
(79) Do you consider love a mistake? Never
(80) What do you find romantic: Many things
(81) Turn-on? Intelligence
(82) Turn-off? Uhm, not intelligent?
(83) Do you base your judgement on looks alone: No
(84) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: No, it's too scary
(85) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: No
(86) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking? I dunno
(87) What is best about the opposite sex? When they say something nice and it's totally unexpected (because they're in the process of being a total jackass) and then you smile all day.
(88) What's the last present someone gave you? My mum bought me choc chip cookie mix
(89) Are you in love? …yeah… i think i am

W H O W A S T H E L A S T P E R S O N . . .

(90) You laughed at? Probably Victor
(91) Make you cry? Mum/Dad
(92) Hold your hand? Someone at sport yesterday?
(93) Tell you a joke? AB?
(94) Tell you they loved you? Victor
(95) Call you?: Corinne's mum?

A mediocre Wednesday

Today is a Wednesday.

And Wednesdays, by definition, are good days.

But today has been one of those medicore Wednesdays.

When you can pinpoint the times you've had fun, and smiled

But by the time you get home from school, you're crying.

You're beautiful, but you don't know

Can't see what's there inside your soul

Always feeling like you're not good enough

You wish you could be someone else

Sometimes you just can't see yourself

But I can see just who you are

I wrote our initials in led pencil at the train station on my way to work.

They may wash off, but they may stay there forever.

And no one but us will ever know they're there.

I don't know what it is that you've done to me

But it's caused me to act in such a crazy way

Whatever it is that you do when you do what you're doing

It's a feeling that I want to stay

I get high off your smell

Whenever I'm near you, I'm ecsatically happy

And whenever I'm not, I'm sad

And the smell of you makes me hungry =D

(No Amy, you cannot eat my children)

I'd write a long love song with no meaning and hope that nobody would hear

A life of filter coffee and dreaming, dreaming

Never thought that anyone could change my view

But everything looks different when I'm looking around with you.

Glad you took the time to say hello, hello

Now I don't ever wanna let you go

I'm always scared when I say something that could hurt you

Because I never want to hurt you

But I might

And it haunts me everyday, that I might hurt you

And never be able to live with myself again

I wanna be perfect, but I'm me

I wanna be flawless, but you see

Every little crack

Every chip, every dent

Every little mistake

I wanna be perfect

Just like you

Those days

I guess you could say it's been one of those days.
Well, it started as one of those days.
I don't actually remember the morning all that well, aside from Crancher and Hancock both telling me off for nearly falling asleep in class.
But I wasn't sleeping, I was thinking.
And I didn't really improve over recess, although my friends got me in a better mood.
But in drama, I was all thinky again.

-----

And I had a conversation in drama that made me realise how sick I am of hiding everything about myself from the world. Especially from my best friends.
You wanna know the real answer?
IT'S TOO LATE FOR ME!!! I am beyond help now. And I can't take it back, any of it. I don't get to make the decisions you do, other people made them for me.
Le sigh, I really am gonna tell someone one day.

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The day got better somewhere in periods 3 & 4. And the rest of it was a pretty blur.
(Yes, I described PE as a pretty blur)

And then I got home.
And it was all good, we had family friends over, and we were talking about random stuff, and everyone was all happy.
But, I dunno, there's something missing in my family. It feels like we're divided now. It's hard to be friends with everyone.

And, I need them. I really do. It's taken me a while to realise, but I rely on my family for so much. And they've gotten to the point where they don't really care anymore. And I need them to care. I really need them to care.

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Anyways, I'm gonna go and stop wasting time now.
I'll blog tomorrow, I guess.

Wish you were here,

Back to school.

This is it.
The end of the holidays.
No more.
(Yes, I've decided to write this at the last possible opportunity)

And I've spent my time well this holidays (unlike nina)

I did, not quite half of the homework I wanted to. (Well, I did two thirds if you don't include AG assignment [which, of course, I won't])
I spent ++ time with my family. Going to city, radom places for birthdays, and working heaps with Nikki/Mum.
I spent ++++ time on MSN. I'm just cool like that.
I slept enough. Well, not really, but almost.
I spent 3 days moping around being sad and lonely :L
I actually played with my Sims. For the first time in forever.

And I've nearly caught up to that day that I missed blogging. Well, if I blog this afternoon I will have.
So yeah, yay for holidays!


Humdizzles.
I should go to school... soon.
But the sooner I get up, the sooner I get to school, the sooner I have double P.E. And that is just not worth the risk.

Hmm, WOULD put lyrics here, but can't be bothered to write them out.
So I guess this is it then.
And then back to school.
Can't wait!!!

Happy Love Drugs.

Hello sunshines,
Today has been another happy day.
Yesterday was a very happy day too. I went a tiny bit high. (Tiny bit being huge)
Anyways, I'm just blogging because, well, I don't often blog when I'm feeling this happy. In fact, I don't often feel this happy.
But the thing is, it's not like I'm any different. And if you're just talking to me on MSN, I don't say anything differently than normal. I just... I'm just smiling.
And even though I'm having some very depressiveful conversations right now, I'm still smiling. And I'm still happy.

Nikki: "Are you taking drugs or something?"
Mum: "How would we even know?"

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Little rants:

1. I know your opinion of me will morph as I tell you more about myself. You always seem a little shocked when I tell you about the old me. I guess, everyone does.

2. I really hate it when you treat me like I don't understand anything. I don't want to talk to you anymore. =(

3. You're so silly sometimes, always underestimating me. And it annoys me. But I like it when you figure it out.

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SCHOOL TOMORROW!!!
=)=)=)=)
(and we will try not to think about the english/ag assignments until at least the weekend)

Procrastination Extraordinaire

There are many things seriously wrong with me.

:L Acceptance is the first step (Y)

1. I can't seem to spend money. Other than on food. I don't like buying stuff. Today I went shopping, and decided that I needed to spend money on myself. And it took me half an hour to find something. Admittedly, I spent most of that half hour keeping my sister away from shoe shops, but still. Eventually, I bought myself a honey jade necklace, that will bring me happiness and joy <33.

2. I am awfully ungrateful about a lot of things. I mean, I whinge and whinge about problems that I only have because I'm so lucky. And then people I'm whinging too, they are actually sympathetic, that's how awesome everyone I know is. And I'm still ungrateful about it.

3. This sounds retarded (unless you know me really well), but I have self esteem issues. I'm not gonna go into that, because no on will believe me anyways, but yeah.

4. I am addicted to my computer. More than I should be. I have a lot of websites that I visit religiously, every day, some multiple times. Things like smithteens, blogger, gmh, operation beautiful, postsecret. I'm just addicted.

5. I have a really tiny attention span. I've been writing this blog for 30 minutes now. I SHOULD be doing my speech. And I am. Between writing this and talking to people and reading memoirs, and listening to music.

OK, that's all I can be bothered to write. Because, well, I REALLY should be doing the English assignment. And I have done a lot. As in, more than two sentences. I just have paragraphs that merely say "something something propaganda something something" but it's a START.

Ciao, everybody. I shall write again eventually.

Wish you were here,

Mum's Birthday

Yesterday was my Mummys awesome birthday.
Yippee!
Except she was in a crappy mood for about half of the day.
So she played on her computer.
And I played on mine.
And Nikki played on hers.
And Dad just shook his head in disgust =D

Anyways, we had an awesomely awesome dinner at this chinese restaurant where the people actually know us. Not that we go there all that often.
I mean, when we came back from holidays and our fridge had broken and the whole house smelt like off food, where did we go? Exactly. But that is understandable. I mean, it smelt awful!

So yeah, yay for Mum's birthday!

Now I should get back to my english speech.
WHAT THE HELL IS LITERARY MERIT???
dgjhvtnhkf.
Ok, I'm really going now...

Future perfect

Hello.
My name is Ebony.
And I am amazingly cool.

I'm in one of my insanely weird moods again.
I think it's this song.
Or, you know, my day.
But more the song.
"I'm restless. You need some caffeine"

Humdizzle.

High like kings without any weed - Witty Ginger
Holding onto the best thing;
Hope - Galaxy
Only one condition:
Smile for me - Like.A.Kite
She's falling; nobody's gonna catch her - TicTac
I KNOW I'M NOT PRETTY ENOUGH - shhhhme
It was cheesy. Loved every second - Galaxy
I meant it. You are sexy. - shhhhme
You have to understand: I'm human - WittyGinger
I am always dreaming of you - invisiblesunset
No one does "loser" like me - bam
Yet another failed attempt to fly - crippled soul
You broke all those pinky promises - imissyoueternally
Watched you all day. Hunter. Prey. - Galaxy
Take my hand; We're leaving tonight - WittyGinger
My heart has seizures around him - Shades of Blue
Studying verb tenses, liked "future perfect" - she's our witch

Okay, I'm done now.
Hope you like memoirs =)

Difficult, so very difficult

You know, I really miss you.

When my world comes crashing down, al I have to do is talk to you, and everything fixes irself. You give me some perspective, things aren't so dramatic anymore. When I need to cool off, I talk to you, you make everything better. You're the reason I haven't murdered my mother yet. In fact, you're the reson we're best friends.

But I need you. I need you here, and I need you now. Not off in some place too far from civilisation. I need you where I can talk to you, before I fall apart. Because I am falling.

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...I just needed to vent that.

Anyways, hello and welcome to Wednesday.
The day of doing nothing.
And then working.
Thanks again work, for waking me up.

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I am soooo confused right now.
I feel like writing.
humdizzle.
Here, have some fabdigity lyrics:


I could've found a better way
You know I never should have stayed
I could accept the things that I believed were wrong
(You know you're wrong)
Now you're saying that it's late
It doesn't matter what I say

You are so beautiful
You are the kind of girl
That has the chemicals
That makes me fall in love
Beautiful
You are the kind of girl
That has the chemicals
That make me fall in love

So now I'm feeling like a slave
I'm locked away inside of this grave
And I'm hoping for a way I can be saved
(I can't be saved)
You know that there will come a day
When I'm gonna have to change
That you're just another one of my mistakes

You are so beautiful
You are the kind of girl
That has the chemicals
That make me fall in love
Beautiful
You are the kind of girl
That has the chemicals
That make me fall in love
Fall in love

You know I found a strong regret you lied about
You lied about

You know I found a strong regret you lied about,
You lied about
You lie to me, lie to me

You are so beautiful
You are the kind of girl
That has the chemicals
That makes me fall in love
Difficult
So very difficult
You are the kind of girl
That makes me fall in love
Fall in love

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Wish you were here,

But my soul is flying high above the ground

Welcome to Tuesday.
Two days since I last blogged, which is totally messing with my one blog for each day this month thing. But, you know....

Yesterday, was Monday.
Clearly.
I played games with family all day =)
Including: 500, taboo, pictionary, celebrity heads, rummy kib, 13, buzz
Twas a fun day.
"Yes, well, I've enjoyed it so far"
Anyways.

Today I went to the city (I really am lame, blogging about my days like this)
I trained to Parra, and caught a ferry to the city. Ate awesome food, walked around, etc, came home. Watched NCIS. Somewhere inamongst all of that, I managed to pull a muscle in my knee.

To put it simply, you have no idea how much pain I am in right now. Walking hurts. Thus, I opt to sit down. Clearly one of my better ideas.

And now I am sitting at my fabulous computer, very tired, listening to very fabulous music, and being bored. Clearly, however, too pathetic to go to bed yet. Because, well, its only 10:45, and I am much cooler than that. I have also somehow managed to master the art of sleeping in. Which probably has a lot to do with nothing better to do.

"How many years did you say it was since Woodstock?"
"40"
"And it's 40 years since the moon landing?"
"Yeah"
"So they didn't really land on the moon, everyone was just high and though they did?"
"Pretty much"

I'm feeling very sad because my blog is this short. And I have included two days of doing stuff in it. I'm also sad because no one comments on my blog anymore. Yes, FEEL GUILTY. =( I miss comments. Anyways, enough of the reasons why I'm feeling sad. I'm now happy! Because it is 11:10, which means I shouldn't miss 11:11 (again)

This isn't the song that I was going to put here, but I finally remembered what it was!!
Yay for Meatloaf!!


On a hot summer night.
Would you offer your throat to the wolf with the red roses?
Will he offer me his mouth? Yes
Will he offer me his teeth? Yes
Will he offer me his jaws? Yes
Will he offer me his hunger? Yes
Again. Will he offer me his hunger? Yes
And will he starve without me? Yes
And does he love me? Yes Yes

On a hot summer night
Would you offer your throat to the wolf with the red roses? Yes
I bet you say that to all the boys

It was a hot summer night and the beach was burning
There was a fog crawling over the sand
When I listen to your heart I hear the whole world turning
I see the shooting stars
Falling through your trembling hands

You were licking your lips and your lipstick shining
I was dying just to ask for a taste
We were lying together in a silver lining
By the light of the moon
You know there's not another moment
Not another moment
Not another moment to waste

You hold me so close that my knees grow weak
But my soul is flying high above the ground
I'm trying to speak but no matter what I do
I just can't seem to make any sound

And then you took the words right out of my mouth
It must have been while you were kissing me
You took the words right out of my mouth
And I swear it's true
I was just about to say I love you

And then you took the words right out of my mouth
It must have been while you were kissing me
You took the words right out of my mouth
And I swear it's true
I was just about to say I love you

Now my body is shaking like a wave on the water
And I guess that I'm beginning to grin
Oooh, we're finally alone and we can do what we want to
The night is young
And ain't no one gonna know where you
No one gonna know where you
No one's gonna know where you've been

You were licking your lips and your lipstick shining
I was dying just to ask for a taste
We were lying together in a silver lining
Byt the light of the moon
You know there's not another moment
Not another moment
Not another moment to waste

And then you took the words right of my mouth
It must have been while you were kissing me
You took the words right out of my mouth
And I swear it's true
I was just about to say I love you

And then you took the words right out of my mouth
It must have been while you were kissing me
You took the words right out of my mouth
And I swear it's true
I was just about to say I love you

You took the words right out of my mouth
It must have been while you were kissing me
You took the words right out of my mouth
It must have been while you were kissing me
You took the words right out of my mouth
It must have been while you were kissing me

(PS: I WISHED! I WISHED!! [Why is it that I always have a list?? {I just got to "oh, and this is a biggie" and then the clock changed =(}])

Sundayness.

Because I'm lame and lonely (in that order), I'm going to tell you about my day.

I washed my dog today. In my shower.
Yeah, I'm not even kidding.
I then had to wash my shower.
But, it's too cold to just hose him (which is what we normally do) (again, not even kidding)
So yeah, now hes clean, pretty smelling, and fluffy.

We only convinced him to get in the shower by telling him that all the girl doggies will love him now :L. Which is true.

Then I walked up to the shops with Dad, Nikki and Toffee (smelling all clean). And we bought a salad and some vegies. And that was our lunch. No kidding. I actually like healthy food. Really.

I backed up my computer onto my Mum's external harddrive. Which took 6 hours, 45 minutes, and 36 seconds (or so). And made everything else I've done all day on my computer go really slowly.

I kicked my sister's arse at SingStar. Because, well, I am awesome. (Ok, so she beat me once. But we sung about 30 songs. So that's still arse kicking). By the end of it, our voices were totally screwed. Really. I couldn't even talk (shock horror!!!)

I blogged. (I'm going back in time a bit now) It took over 2 hours. But I had breakfast inamongst that. And, well, let's face it, nothing else to do. (Oh yes, life is simply tragic).

And I read other peoples' blogs, and caught up on memoirs.
Speaking of which, today is couldabeenacomet's birthday!!!
(I'm sure I've told you guys enough about her)
She's 18. Woot!

And now I'm going to my grandmother's house for dinner. Because it is my mum's birthday on Friday, and this is our only available opportunity to see them.

So yes. Yay for Sundayness. And noo for not working, (because we all love time and a half). (speaking of sundayness, check out postsecret)

(Clearly, boredom has hit an all time high [although I have a speech and ag assingment to do {not that I can do it until CORINNE picks a topic}])

Wish you were here,

That's my favourite.

Alrighty, well, I'm a little bored, and, my page needs a little colour, and, I really have nothing else to do.

Kenya: I know you must think I'm a combative, neurotic, picky... And maybe I am. But the weird thing is, I've never had to be anthing but myself with you, right from the beginning. And with you I feel like I can do anything, say anything, try anything. And that's the life I want. I want an adventure with you. You don't understand, we're supposed to be together.
Brian: I'm never going to be you dream man, Kenya. I just... I won't be the fall-back guy.
Kenya: No, see, that's the thing. I don't have to wonder about that anymore. I know this is right. Hey when I was younger, my dream was to marry Rick James. You're the one I want Brian. I love you.
Brian: I love you Kenya. I've never stopped loving you.
-Something New

She's the girl you'll always remember for falling too easily. The one who never seemed to know what she was doing. The girl addicted to song lyrics and love quotes, who had a life decorated in words. But at the end of the day, she never really knew what she was doing either. She just knew what made her happy. And that was him.

"I'm the girl your mother will laugh with, your father will adore, your sister will gossip with, and your brother will be jealous of. At the end of the day, you'll let me go, and not for one second regret it. There were others before me, and there will be others once I'm gone. But to me, it will only ever be you."

Everything about us is so cliche. The way we fit perfectly together like a puzzle. The long, sleepy talks at night. The way we hold hands when we walk together. The way our lives have moulded together. It's like we've become a fairytale in my mind. Tomorrow morning, when we wake up, everything's going to be back to normal. And we'll resume our lives as we were, and forget everything that happened in this perfect little dream.

If there is ever a tomrrow when we are not together
there is something you must always remember;
you are braver than you believe,
stronger than you seem
and smarter than you think,
but most important of all;
even if we are apart,
I'll always be with you
-Pooh

Maybe I'll just sleep through the next few days, and make time fly.

I'll try, for everyone else, to still be "myself"

But I know I'm only me when I'm with you

The smart people are always going to call other people stupid, and beautiful people will always call other people ugly, and rich people will always all other people poor, but it really just boils down to the fact that we're all going to fucking die.

At first glance, your eyes are brown.

But when the light hits them, they change to amber.

And if you look really close around the iris,

the colour is pure honey.

But when you look into the sun,

they almost look green.

That's my favourite.

- Monster in Law

Ponderisms

My mum sends me a whole bunch of fabulous emails (so what if the only person to email me is my mum??!!!), and this is one that is awesome.


I
used to eat a lot of natural foods until I
learned that most people die of natural causes.


Gardening Rule: When weeding, the best
way to make sure you are removing a weed and not
a valuable plant is to pull on it. If it comes
out of the ground easily, it is a valuable
plant.


The easiest way to find something
lost around the house is to buy a
replacement.


Never take life seriously
Nobody gets out alive anyway.


There are
two kinds of pedestrians: the quick and the
dead.


Life is sexually
transmitted..


Health is merely the
slowest possible rate at which one can
die.


The only difference between a rut
and a grave is the depth.


Health nuts
are going to feel stupid someday, lying in
hospitals dying of nothing.


Have you
noticed since everyone has a camcorder these
days no one talks about seeing UFOs like they
used to?


Whenever I feel blue, I start
breathing again


All
of us could take a lesson from the weather. It
pays no attention to
criticism.


In the 60's, people took acid to make
the world weird. Now the world is weird
and people take Prozac to make it normal.


How
is it one careless match can start a forest
fire, but it takes a whole box to start a campfire?


Who was the first person to look at a
cow and say, 'I think I'll squeeze these dangly
things here, and drink whatever comes out?'


Who was the first person to say, 'See
that chicken there? I'm gonna eat the next thing
that comes outta its butt.'


Why is there
a light in the fridge and not in the freezer?


If Jimmy cracks corn and no one cares,
why is there a song about him?

If
quizzes are quizzical, what are tests?


Do
illiterate people get the full effect of
Alphabet Soup?


Did you ever notice that
when you blow in a dog's face, he gets mad at
you, but when you take him on a car ride, he
sticks his head out the window?


Why
doesn't glue stick to the inside of the bottle?

The base of all we know

I just feel like being me.

(It's all song lyrics :L)
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But I won't feel blue
Like I always do
Cuz somewhere in the crowd, there's you

So I'll be there when you arrive
The sight of you will prove to me I'm still alive
And when you take me in your arms
And hold me tight
I know it's gonna mean so much tonight

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In time you can tell, he's been down for a while
But my God, it's so beautiful, when the boy smiles
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

----

If I should call you up, invest a dime
You say you belong to me, and ease my mind
Imagine how the world would be, so very fine

----

Be so damn beautiful
Mean while, I'll hide my head
Here in this paper bag
Cuz if I can't see you
Then you can't see me
And it'll be okay

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One of these days,
I'm gonna tell him I dream of him every night
One of these days,
I'm gonna show him I care, gonna teach him a lesson alright

What a crazy day

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Stolen from Anna's blog:

What's different out about us, is that we're friends
Well, maybe we're not just friends,
But the base of all we know is friendship
He may think I'm beautiful, but he'll sitll tease me
About how he has to look down to see me
And we may cuddle up and watch movies
But we'll still laugh and make jokes about every line
We may hold hands, but we also get into fake fights
That I know he lets me win every time
He gets mad when I don't think high of myself
And I get mad when he won't tell me what's wrong
We know more about each other than anyone
And maybe that's the thing that makes it so perfect
That he's not just a friend, or a lover
But he's the missing piece to my puzzle

Quizzes are for losers.

Hello sunshines.

And welcome to suicide.

Quiz style.

SUICIDE QUIZ.
Hi, whats your name?: Ebony
Would you date your best friend?: Of course :L
On a date, who should pay?: Whoever has more money i.e. me! =D
What's your IQ?: uhh, I dunno
A song ever made you cry?: mhmm
A movie?: most of them
Book?: yup, the first was Rainbow Fish
What was the last movie you watched?: The Hannah Montana movie!! :O:O
Who was the hero?: uhm, i wasn't really paying attention :/
What are you looking forward to?: tomorrow
What would you do if you were pregnant?: Jump up and down and scream and celebrate :L
What time is it?: 10:39am
How long are you williing to spend on a survey?: I'm guessing a while
Do you rock at Guitar Hero?: Only when I team up with someone :L
Who is your favorite Jonas Brother?: Nick
Did you like High school Musical?: I did indeed
Have you ever told someone (who isn't your family/friends) you Love them?: yes
Do you kiss your friends on the cheek?: sometimes
Lips?: only lisa :L
Ever been on a diet?: yup
Play an instrument?: I wish
Is the Clarinet sexy?: AAAHH! ZOE G!!!
Do you believe in God?: I don't think so
Karma?: yeah
Let's say Heaven/Hell exists. If you died now, where are you headed?: lets say they don't.
Does that scare you?: not at all
Are you okay?: I think… yeah, I'm ok
How long are you willing to wait for true love?: :L I stand on the 5^th amendment
What is the most you've ever eaten in one sitting?: not a whole lot

Do you pray a lot?: never
What's your bed made of?: dunno
Do you have any posters in your room?: no, I just have my wall of wisdom
Who is the sexiest superhero?: me!!
How many songs are on your iPod?: I don't' have an ipod
What's your ringtone?: accidentally in love
Do you know anyone who's "perfect?": define perfect
Would you date yourself?: lol, hell no! I am the most annoying bitch EVER
Are you prettier than all your friends?: hell no
Do you ever look in the mirror and think "God, i'm pretty!": no.
Have you ever walked by a shop window and checked yourself?: no.
Have you changed in the past year?: I guess… yeah
Which of your friends has changed the most?: amy
What grade are you in?: 10
What show can you absolutely NOT stand?: ghost whisperer. It gives me nightmares =(
Do you like surgical shows?: HOUSE
Can your entire life change in a second?: yeah
Ever been on a boat?: are we talking about a leaky boat?
Do you like nautical print?: not really
Do you think you could be a model?: no (that's right Mr Someone)
Would you ever wear mint green tights?: yep
Pink legwarmers?: EW! pink.
Mint tights & pink legwarmers?: no
Would you rather have no eyebrows or no eyelashes?: no eyebrows
What do you think of Zac Efron?: he has his moments
Do you know who Zacquisha is?: no
What's worse: Seeing your ex with someone else or being alone?: being alone, there's nothing wrong with seeing your ex with someone else, theyre your ex.
Do you have someone who loves you no matter what?: yupp
What age do you wanna get married?: dunno
Quick! Make a wish!: I always wish for the same thing =(
Ever done an all nighter?: yep
Ever had a cliche sleepover party with hair braiding, and gossip?: no
If you saw your first crush in the street, what would happen?: I see him on the street all the time
What's the weirdest day of the week?: monday
What's your ethnicity?: half white half spanish
What do you think of men in short shorts?: :L yes, entertaining
What's your middle name?: rae
Named after anyone?: no
Ever had a really unpleasant cab ride?: No
Ever laughed out loud at the TV?: yess
Ever laughed out loud at Seinfeld?: no.
You've done 100 questions! Congrats!: only?
Are you sick right now?: nop
What mouthwash do you use?: I don't either
What time is it?: time to get a watch.... 10:49
Isn't Christian Bale so sexy?: *googles Christian bale* gah! No.
Would you spray paint your phone number on the Jonas Brothers' tour bus?: no.
Girls have: issues
Does your town/city suck?: no
Where does your best friend live?: nsw
Do you have a job?: yupp
Ever worked double shift?: noo
Ever been arrested?: nop
Ever done something illegal?: maybe
Do you do your own laundry?: yeah, me and my sis
Do you read Gossip Magazines?: no
Hate anyone right now?: yes, you
What color is your undies?: blue

Can you sing?: not well
Like old music?: =D yes
Do you think your're beautiful?: yes

Would you ever go to Camp Rock?: yeah
East High?: no
Do you get paranoid late at night?: yes

Is there something you really want to say to someone right now?: yes
What was your most akward moment with a guy?: i dunno
How old do you look?: id say about 15 :L
In the shower, do you start the water then get in, or get in first?: start the water otherwise die of coldness

Do you play animal crossing?: no
Can you change a flat tire? no
What was the last thing you bought?: a bus ticket
Are you ticklish?: very.
Is tickling cute or annoying?: both
Do you take the bus?: occassionally
What would you do without Bzoink?: uhm, well, you see… <>
Can a girl and a guy be Just friends?: of course.
Have you ever started a rumor?: no
Have you ever been confronted?: yes
Have you ever confronted someone?: yes
Do you smoke?: no
Would you ever be a waitress at a 50s diner?: YESS!!
SOS by Rihanna or S.O.S by the Jonas Brothers?: SOS by ABBA
What was the best year of your life?: year 8?
Ever had a summer romance?: no
What's the nicest thing anyone's ever done for you?: sketch me <3
Do songs ever remind you of colors?: noo, unless its like "im blue da ba di" or "it was all yellow"
What's the longest survey you've ever done?: that one that was 15 pages in word :/
How old were you when you started wearing makeup?: 14
How many times have you seen Mean Girls?: uhmm, 2?
Where is the weirdest place you've ever fallen asleep?: no where
Barefoot or shoes?: barefoot
What do you do in the summer?: swim!
Are you bored?: obviously. I mean, seriously, im talking to ab
Do you have a facebook/myspace?: no, no
Where was your profile picture taken?: I don't have one
Do you like lipgloss?: yeah
What song do you ALWAYS sing along to?: anything by westlife/abba/john farnham/the monkees/the beatles/a few others
When was the last time you wore a dress?: my great uncles funeral? Or else school dress in term 1.
What was the last TV show you watched?: ncis
What was the last song you played over and over and over?: calling you
Ever been so in love that you just giggled randomly?: :L yes!
Are you pyschic?: I can be
Can you feel your hipbones?: yes
Ever had an emotionally destructive relationship?: no
Ever stayed in bed for an entire day?: no =(
When was the last time you slept somewhere other than your bed?: cap
Can you do this survey until the end?: I might
Are you a rambler?: yes
Are hip piercings pointless?: yes
Ever been to Australia?: once
Do you have freckles?: I used to, I dunno anymore
What's your favorite band?: in flames <>
Where do you wish you grew up?: right here.
Do you like farms?: sorta
Do you know anyone with the same name as you?: yup
Is your name common?: no
What is the best compliment you've ever gotten?: "Your smile makes me happy" =DD
Are you a morning person?: yeah
Or a night owl?: at times (if im high on caffeine)
How often do you moisturize?: uhm, never?
Anyone ever called you beautiful?: yes =DD
Are you bang bang scene?: uhh, maybe?
If you were a tree, what tree would you be?: a gum tree
What would be your last meal?: pancakes
What do you think of Vanessa Hudgens?: great voice! And shes pretty
And her photo scandal?: not a big deal
What are your chances of being with your crush?: very very high :L
Ever been to a funeral?: too many =(
Do you take a lot of pictures of yourself?: never.
Do you own anything chanel?: no
What does your wallet look like?: its full of cards
Are you rich?: yes
What do you think of Justin Timberlake?: meh
Does what goes around really come back around?: yeah
Or is that just a song?: no, its trur
What are you listening to?: breathe – anna nalick
What do you like about that song?: "but my god it's so beautiful when the boy smiles, wanna hold him, maybe I'll just sing about it"
Are your legs prickly right now?: …no
Whats your favorite kind of muffin?: I don't like muffins that much =O
When was the last time you cried?: Hannah Montana movie :/
Are you a happy person?: usually
What superpower do you want?: to be able to fly

What do you want to be when you grow up?: happy
Have you planned out your life?: sorta
Are you a good writer?:no, but im a good blogger :L
Are you an english-arts person or a math-science person?: math-science!!!
What's your favorite kind of accent?: yeah, sorta british I guess
Are you sick of this survey yet?: no! im that bored!
Whats your favorite piece of clothing?: jeans =D
Is Big Rob for real?: well, duh
Do you paint?: no
Isn't Lizzie McGuire the worst show ever?: no, its cool
Do you surf?: :L I did once =O
What are you going to do after you finish this survey?: get ready for work
Will you even finish this survey?: I don't think so :L
Do you make surveys?: I made one
Do you like the beach boys?: YES!! Fab fabbity

Would you rather meet Zac Efron or Chase Crawford?: what? No Tyson ritter?
Do you like your friends?: I love them
Pick five friends: uhm uhm, amy, jenny, lisa, joannie, victor (judy doesn't like me anyway =P)
Is number one your best friend?: yeah
Are they annoying?: no, that's me :L

Is number two good looking?: yeah, heaps
Do they like the Jonas Brothers?: nup
Are they good advice givers?: always
How old are they?: 15. lisa = 16
Is number three a blonde?: lisa? No.
Do they gossip a lot?: :L yeah
Ever wanted to kiss them?: cough.
Is number four mean?: jo? Never.
How did you meet?: school
What's their favorite storee?: I dunno
Does number five even exist?: Sometimes I have my doubts that he's real
Do they have a facebook?: lisa and amy do
Has it been an hour since you started yet?: nop
How long have you been single?: im not :L
Do you wish you were fourteen again?: no
Any mosquito bites?: its winter!
Ever seen a gynaecologist?: no :L
Would you date one?: no
Is it my business?: not really
What day is it?: Wednesday
Do you NEED anyone?: maybe
Are you top priority in someone besides your family's life?: I think… maybe?
Are you a cheerleader?: hell no
Have an AIM?: msn
Ever gotten revenge on someone?: yes, it was nice
Is there such thing as the perfect man?: dunno
Do you think Lindsay Lohan will ever make a comeback?: dunno
How about Britney Spears!: no!
Did you play in the streets?: lol, outside? Never!
Ever been so embarrased you just ran away and hid?: yes
Ever tried to read the bible?: yep
Are you excited for school?: YES
Are all your friends prettier than you?: well, yeah
Do you have any spots you miss while shaving?: :L ankles
Addicted to anything?: I have a list
Do you like Taylor Swift?: yeah
Isn't she just the prettiest?: no, ugly eyes :L
Ever yelled SHOTGUNNN: yes
Do you live in Seattle?: no
Do you want to?: twould be nice
Would you rather listen to heavy metal or bluegrass?: lol, heavy metal
What do you hide from your parents?: nothing anymore
What's your favorite lollipop flavour?: green apple or grape
Ever had green apple?: lol, yeah
Are you planning on going to bed soon?: no.

Goes to work.

Returns.

Is God a DJ?: well, life is a dancefloor.
Did you ever like Jesse McCartney?: waaaaay after the hype.
What age does one become an adult?: there is no age
What age does one become a teen?: 13
What age is legal in your country?: 16
Do you even know what that means?: it means…
If you were a parent, would you let your 6th grader on myspace?: yeah
Do you remember the 90s?: yup
Do you think American Apparell is just a bunch of shiny crap?: uhh, maybe?
Have you ever camped out for a band/show?: no
Would you go against all your morals/beliefs for a hundred grand?: nop
Do you have your phone nearby?: I have no idea where it is, but it has a flat battery and not much credit :L
Grab it.: no
Whats your wallpaper?: windang beach. I know, im pathetic
Phone?: nokia 6288
How many text messages do you have?: 198. im still pathetic
Who was the last person who texted you?: victor
What did the text say?: to call him if I got bored :L
How did you reply?: I didnt
When was the last time you saw them?: school
Would you drop 50 pounds right now?: no
Do you know your BMI?: I found out in health last year. But since then ive grown and lost weight =S
Have you ever been really awkward in Health Class?: yeah
Have you ever set something on fire?: a candle. Im so funny.
Have you ever written all over a chalkboard?: yeah
Then gotten in trouble?: no
Friends or Boyfriends?: both =)
Guys or girls?: guys are less bitchy. Iam currently talking to 5 guys and 0 girls on msn. :L
Are your friends jealous when you hang out with other people?: yes. But its my fault :L
How often do you get the hiccups?: every now and then
What's your reputation around school?: I honestly don't care
Do you like the name Harriet?: Harriet the Spy!
Ever seen gay guys PDA?: uhm, no
Gay girls?: yes, actually, at the station. Weird.
A straight couple?: yeah
When was the last time you saw your crush?: school
Do you want to be an actor?: I used to
Can you dance?: nop
Does this feel like a marathon?: no, I stopped halfway through and went to work :L
What soap do you use?: bath gel
Do you like the smell?: its ok
Ever been on Broadway?: no
Would you ever stuff 100 cinnamon hearts in your mouth?: no
For a thousand dollars?: no
To marry Joe Jonas?: no
Do you feel a little tired of this quiz yet?: not really
What is the worst movie ever?: I dunno
Do you think Bella will be better with Edward or Jacob?: LOL! Neither.
Or neither?: :L yeah
Do you roleplay?: uhh, sure
Are you a noob?: very much so
Have you ever added a robot on MSN?: yeah
Do you have a SideKick?: no
Ever had a nightmare?: yup. I saw your face.
Ever read a self help book?: YES! I'm so lame! I even quoted it to someone!!
Ever been on medication?: yes <>
Are you interesting?: I can be (no)
Do you own any friendship bracelets?: I gave one to someone, and she gave it back. I give up now!

Would you get your lover's name tattooed on yourself?: no
Would you ever get tattoed?: yes I want a heart on my hip
Do you have razor burn?: no
Dry hair?: no
How do you cure dry hair?: you wet it. (I'm soooo funny)
Do you straighten your hair?: I did on Tuesday.. I sometimes do. Once when I was home alone I did for the hell of it.
How often?: when im bored
What's your favorite candy?: I duno
Does anyone have a crush on you?: :L yeah
Wear a thong?: no
Spandex?: no
Tight pants?: maybe?
Can your crush make mustard yellow tight pants look good?: can anyone?
Ever taken photography pictures?: yeah
And then came out suckish? no
Exercise?: don't swear.
Are you sexy?: no
Pads or Tampons?: pads
Can you bake?: yup
Ever had Lemon Cheesecake?: yep
Do you use the computer at the library?: never.
Where will your life be in a year?: if only I knew…
Five years?: see above
Twenty five years?: see above
Five million years?: it won't be.
Do you keep up appearances?: no
What do you usually get for your birthday?: hugs.
If you could be someone else for a day, who would it be?:
What time is it?: 8:46
Do you think things through?: nop
What is your guilty pleasure?: chocolate
If you could choose to get a new Camera, iPod, or Phone, which one?: ipod
Do you believe in magic?: "in a young girl's heart?" yes, I do
What toothpaste do you use?: Colgate
Toothbrush?: dunno
Do you floss?: uh, yeah
If it cost 10 cents to do this survey, would you pay?: yeah
Ever online dated?: no
Would you pay money to find your true love online?: no
Is there such thing as an only love/true love/soulmate?: apparently I said there wasn't :L. but I dunno
Who do you think is yours?: amy.
Do you have any clothing that your mom does not approve of?: yeah, too many pairs of jeans apparently
How long did it take you to memorize your phone number?: after reading it the first time I knew it, very useful tool for stalkers
Have you ever believed in fairies?: "down in the dell, the fairies dance and sing" :')
Are you stressed or pissed off right now?: not anymore
What was the last phonecall you got?: from dad (me too amy!!)
Have you been doing this survey nonstop or have you taken breaks?: yeah, work
Are you planning anything?: your demise
What day is it today?: Wednesday. Still.
Are you artistic?: hell no
Do you make your own clothes?: nop
If you had to make your own clothes, would they be nice?: yeas
Oprah or Ellen?: ellen
Do you think The Hills is fake?: yes (ive seen it once!!! ==O)
Have any games on your phone?: nop
Which ones?: nop
Do you have the Sims?: yes

Be honest, did you ever kill any of your sims?: I deleted her, but she came back. And I accidentally starved some to death, but didn't save it. So brought them back
On purpose?: no!
When was the last time you sharpened your eyeliner?: I don't have one
Do you even wear eyeliner?: never
What makeup do you wear?: I wear mascara to work. And then get panda eyes every Monday morning :L
What order do you put it on?: well, with one item, its not hard to get it in order
Just concealer or just lipgloss?: concealer, for ugly days
Can you complete these lyrics: "In this crazy life, and through these crazy times . . .": it's you, it's you, you make me sing
Do your friends get along with each other?: well, mosyle :L
Do you have a "thing" you are in the group? Like: "The short one." etc?: the loud/annoying one
Do you listen to the radio?: no
Is there a song that you wish was about you?: yeah
What's your next meal?: breakfast

Aww, it's done =(

work.

Humdigity.
Woke rang me this morning, and asked me to work 1-5.
So I have to leave soon.
And then wen I finish, it is apparently too dark to go home by train.
So I have to wait for my mum to finish.
At 7.
I have to wait around for 2 hours.
And do nothing.
Absolutely nothing at all.

Le sigh.

I am taking hw to do.
But I can't be BOTHERED!!!

Ok, I will stop whinging now.
And go and get ready.
Ready for the worst boredom of my life.

I may just call my sister...
I have $22 to use by tomorrow or else I lose it.
Do you think a 2hr conversation would cost $22??
What about just texting back and forth?

Ok, I'm really stopping whinging now...
(I'm still whinging in my head)

Every minute of the day

I feel kinda crappy right now.
And I don't even have a reason.
Well, not a good one.


Here. Figure it out.

Black and white

I've made up my mind not to be cheesy and retarded today :L.

And there's something that I really really want to blog about, but, I'm so scared to.
What if, you don't understand?
Or what if you tell someone else who doesn't understand?
What if you blame me?
What if you don't?

And I was gonna put an absolute giveaway pic here (from postsecret this week), but it won't let me upload pix =( Which I will take as a sign that I shouldn't tell you.
Or that you have to look for it. OOOH!!
So if you go to postsecret and find the picture that you think I would have put here, tell me what number it is from the top, and I'll tell you if you got it right.

Hehe, how fun. And please actually do it, otherwise I will feel lame =(
And no one wants me to feel lame <>


"nikki is cool...nikkki is awesome...nikki can't spell ehr name"


I am one with the world tonight
I am proud to be this far from you
You say that you have no regrets
But I know that you do
you told me someone stole the eye
I know him too

I've come to the conclusion, yes I know
That between black and white
There is no room for two
The scale might be wide
But there's no need to be blind
Between black and white
There is no room for two

I leave all of the grey behind, I see clear
I know that I'll find
You claim that you are innocent
But tell me who aint
You think you're going to be saved
There's no such thing as a saint

I've come to the conclusion, yes I know
That between black and white
There is no room for two
The scale might be wide
But there's no need to be blind
Between black and white
There is no room for two

Just a girl

This is one of the best songs I've ever heard, in terms of being able to relate to it. Most girl will read it and be like "Yeah, that's me"
I heard it when I was listening to one of my old playlists, stuck between Another Now and This Is Me You're Talking To.
Anyways, great lyrics, have a read =)


I might be a little concerned with my hair
I might need comfort, more than my share
I might seem to follow fashion, but claim that I don't care
My heart is your best friend, when it rules my head

I might want to talk alot, but don't ask me why
And I'll get impatient if you don't reply
I might always search for something wrong I want you to deny
And if you love me just stay close, and hold me when i cry

Don't try to understand me, I'm just a girl
One of the greatest mysteries, you'll find in this world
I'm not hard to handle, I'm just a girl
I'm just a girl

I don't seek money, but I want your time
Cos I'd give my life for you, when you are mine
And it hurts me more than I can say when you pull away
But if you love me, you should tell me everyday

Don't try to understand me, I'm just a girl
One of the greatest mysteries, you'll find in this world
I'm not hard to handle, I'm just a girl

I'm just a girl (x4)

You might think I'm too demanding
But you're just not understanding, no

I might like to take advice, but go my own way
And it's when I hurt the most, I swear I'm okay
And it's always when you least expect, I say I want to stay
It might take just a single kiss to steal my heart away.

Don't try to understand me, I'm just a girl
One of the greatest mysteries, you'll find in this world
You think I'm an x file, I'm just a girl
I'm just a girl

Don't try to understand me, I'm just a girl
One of the greatest mysteries, you'll find in this world
I'm not hard to handle, I'm just a girl

I'm just a girl (x5)

Expectations

I can't be bothered to go picture hunting.
No, I really am a lazy shit.
So, well, have funlifulness.

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I don't mind if you're here or I'm there
I just need to see you love
To have you, to hold you,
To hug you, to love you

To tell you you look beautiful tonight
Because I know that you look beautiful tonight

-----

People ask me if I'm okay.
I don't know, am I okay?
I feel okay
But something tells me that I'm not

-----

I don't wanna act like
I know that you'll be mine forever
Though I hope it's forever

-----

You reached for my hand
And you picked up my heart

-----

When life offers you a dream
So far beyond your expectations

-----

There are two ways to live life
One is as if nothing is a miracle
The other is as if everything is a miracle

-----

Something tells me that I need you
But surely I haven't stooped so low
To be completely dependent on you

-----

I didn't want to belive it at first
I was scared that I would find out it was a lie
I'm not scared anymore
I don't have to be scared
I have you.

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"Gravity is not responsible for us falling in love"
Albert Einstein

Hatred.

Things I hate:

*When people don't read my blog

*Cats

*The colour pink

*Songs without lyrics (yes pink floyd, im looking at you)

*The concept of exercise

*Some teachers

*Feeling stupid

*Being cold

*Being tired

*Feeling sick

*Cheerleaders

*Shallow people (Mr Someone...)

*When people steal my mars bar in ag

*When both of my pairs of blue jeans are in the wash

*People who insult NCIS
*English staffroom.
*Teachers who give too much homework
*People who are purposely hard to get along with (<>)
*Not finding words in dictionary, or dictionary.com, or google define, or wikipedia (maybe they're not words)
*Not getting emails
*Inside jokes
*You. Just kidding =) a ha ha!
*People who discriminate
*Nights withought stars
*Days without clouds
*Double p.e.
*Skirts
*School uniform
*Seeing peoples ties under their collars
*When people are taller than me. I'm getting better though :L
*Forgetting things
*People who don't trust people they say they do
*Being judged
*Swine flu
*Being lonely in the rain
*When no one agrees with me
*Feeling alone

Counting down the days to you

16 days.

That's like, 2 weeks and an extra weekend of very long, very slow days.

Half of these pictures are how I'm feeling. And the other half make me crack up laughing. And then the other half just make me sad or curious of something. And yeah, my pictures have three halves. That's how awesome I am. =O

Cry peace

Cry hate

Cry faithlessness

Then just have a little have.

You lured me away from my home

Just to save you from being alone

You stole my heart

And that's what really hurts

I'd come for you

But only if you told me to

And I'd fight for you

I'd lie, it's true

Give my life for you

Counting down the days to go

It just aint living

And I hope you know

That if you say

Goodbye today

I'd ask you to be true

Cuz the hardest part of this is leaving you

When she's around, nothing else matters

Untouchable, she's got her own forcefield.

Sooner or later someone will get at her

But the nights were always warm with you

Holding you right by my side

But morning always comes too soon

Before I even close my eyes

I'll never be the same without you

If I have to say goodbye

I have no right to ask you

But if you can, won't you try to

Love me?

Some people say

That everything has got its place in time

Even the day must give way to the night

But I'm not buying

In your eyes

I see a love that burns eternally

And if you see how beautiful you are to me

You'll know I'm not lying

I'm not one for the crowd to see

It's just me

It's just

Just a little more, come on and satsify me

Just a little more, come on and terrify me

Just a little more an I'll be done with it

Oh I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you

Each one a line of two

"I'm fine baby how are you"

An I would send them but I know that it's just not enough

My words were cold and flat

And you deserve more than that

I was at a party and this fella said to me

"Something bad is happening I'm sure you do agree

People care for nothing no repect for human rights,

Evil times are coming, we are in for darker nights"

Sweetheart, bitterheart, noe I can't tell you apart

Cosy and cold, put the horse before the cart

Oh teenage hopes who have tears in their eyes

Too scared to own up to one little lie

You stole my pure intentions

You are the sickness in between

Let me in, I'll bury the pain

Come on, come on

Move a little closer

Come on, come on

I want to hear you whisper

Come on, come on

Settle down inside my love

I wish I could carry your smile and my heart

For times when my life feels so low

I feel it, you feel it

That this was meant to be

I know it, you know it

That you were made for me

We can't deny this any longer

Day by day it's getting stronger

I want it, you want it

It's what the people want to see

Please don't change, please don't break

The only thing that seems to work at all is you

Please don't change at all