~The Beautiful People I Sometimes Call Friends~

i wanna talk about my people
cuz they rock!!
and i love them very muchly.

so im gonna talk about my group (alpha order)

Amy.
song that reminds me of you: I'll always be right there - Michelle Branch
poem that reminds me of you:
If I could catch a rainbow
I would do it just for you
And share with you its beauty
On the days you’re feeling blue

If I could build a mountain
You could call your very own
A place to find serenity
A place to be alone
If I could take your troubles
I would toss them in the sea
But ALL these things, I’m finding, are impossible for me.

I cannot build a mountain
Or catch a rainbow fair
But let me be what I know best
A friend who’s always there

yeah, pretty much sums it up, but, in ebony words:
you are soo cool!! but when you get upset, i feel so bad, cuz i cant do anything, cuz ur issues are so BIG!! so i hugg you, and try to make you smile, cuz i feel so helpless, so i am TRYING, ok? ily (L)

Jenny
song that reminds me of you: Shine - Aly & AJ
poem that reminds me of you:
Inside jokes and many laughs
All of the good times together
I couldn't find another friend
That is any better

You're there for my good times
And definitely there for my bad
You're there when I'm happy as can be
And you're there when I'm sad

I'll always be here for you
My sister, my friend
Partner in crime
Until the very end

So, I have something to say
To this amazing friend of mine:
For you, I'll walk through hell
Break all the rules and cross every line

yeah, that pretty much sums it up, but in ebony words:
ur awesome, you're always always there. you're a little bit closed, but you're learning to open. you are such a beautiful person, and i dont want you to ever forget that, you're amazing.

Joannie
song that reminds me of you: You Raise Me Up - Savage Garden/Josh Groban
poem that reminds me of you:
You can make me smile no matter what
you have a gift, it's what you've got
i don't know how to live without you
i'm greatful for all you've got me through

you're so funny, polite and kind
i wish that i could press rewind
play back all the good times we've had
and maybe even some of the bad

i wouldn't swap you for all the world
i guess you are just that kinda girl
the bestest friend that i've ever had
and in order to ditch you i'd have to be mad

again, sums it up, but ebony likes her words:
you're amazing, you really are, you're always there for everyone in our group, not just me, it seems like you never have any problems, cuz you're always helping us deal with ours, thankyou so much for being there, all the time, no matter what

Judy
song that reminds me of you: Never Underestimate A Girl - Vanessa Hudgens
poem that reminds me of you:
I guess I just don’t “get” our friendship
It could be so true
But it seems there is just empty space
Between me and you

I think you are a beautiful person
Everyone tells me so
But whether we could be close friends
I guess we’ll never know

It’s so hard for me to be close to you
I hope you understand
I try and try to be your friend
But such friendship seems banned

But I’ll still try being close to you
I will always be here
And whenever you feel you need a friend
I just hope I’m near

still like my words:
you're cool, i know that! but not from experience, we just never seem to work. i dont get it, but im not giving up on you, you will learn to like me!! maybe.

Lisa
song that reminds me of you: A Place In This World - Taylor Swift
also: I Kissed A Girl - Katy Perry =)
poem that reminds me of you:

Your wings are so beautiful, so why do you hide
Such a wonderful piece of you deep inside?
I've seen them before I watched them spread wide
I watched as you soared swift as the tide

They used to bring smiles, when you let them go
Let the world envy them, let the whole world know
In your sadness you hid them away
Now my angel, has fallen astray

My wings are so tattered, not marvelled like you
I can not fix them, although I've tried to
Despite how weak, I'll take you high
Until you are better, I'll help you fly

Across every mountain over every sea
Though others desert you, you'll always have me
Your wings are so pretty I wish you could see
The beautiful angel you're meant to be.

its the last one, ill soon run out of words, until then:
i think you could be a beautiful angel, but your wings are sore. maybe from overuse, maybe because they've been hurt and torn, i dont know. i just know that the world deserves to see the beauty in you, and you deserve to show it. so be yourself, lisa, we will only love you more for it.

Unrequited Love ~ Story Of My Life

ohh, so many things to say, i started off using this blog with really really long blogs. it was quite weird actaully, they went on for forever. now, theve sorta shrunk a little, until a couple of days ago, when i flooded it again, and havent posted a blog that wasnt about you since.

i havent seen you that much in the past few days, although we had the first conversation where neither of us said anything remotely mean to the other. ah, such a beautiful change.

speaking of beautiful, you looked amazing yeterday. i know, it wasnt that different to normal, but i love that shirt :) you've only ever worn it once before that was the day i admitted to myself that yes, i actually liked you.

you almost didnt come yesterday, i think i was excited by that, because it meant that i could be myself. whenever you're there, i dont focus, i dont do anything properly, i dont pay attention, and i was glad that you werent there. but when you walked in, i definately wasnt disapointed :L

so, ive told heaps of people about you lately. never by name, just "this guy in yr 10, you won't know him", and people dont, because, you're not like the rest of your annoying grade. everyone knows them as being mean and stupid; neither of which you are, well, you're mean to me, but not anyone else.

and again, we're back on that, of course we are, i bring it up every blog, you hating me. me loving you. see how that doesnt work?? and i know, i know, its getting old, me telling you all the time how much i hate that you hate me, and how much it hurts me, and now im just sounding like a broken record, but it hurts so much. at the moment, my life is so beautiful, im so happy, i laugh EVERYDAY, multiple times... and then i think of you, and i cry, and my mums like, 'what's up?' and i have nothing to say, i shake my head, and smile, and forget about you, even if only for a while. and then, lying in bed at night, when i try to fall asleep, i crack.

you put me through this everyday, and i take it. everyday, i put up with it. i put up with you ignoring me half the time, and insulting me the rest, i put up with being hurt by being around you, just so i can be near you. but its getting so hard...

i just really need it to stop, for me to go back to how things used to be, when you made me happy, my early blogs, when being around you made me smile, not cringe. when seeing you at the end of the hallway made me laugh, then hide it, and turn away before you saw. now it hits me, really hard, your presence makes me stop breathing for a moment, the smile i normally have slides off my face, and i just watch until you walk away.

and you know what?? people HAVENT NOTICED, no one has, im being hurt constantly by you, but you can ask anyone, and theyll say im not acting any differently, because i shield all of this away from everyone else. until it starts to kill me, and then i write it all down, in an attempt to get it off my chest. and one or two people will read it, and sometimes they give up half way through, because its not exactly entertaining, its just real. its just me, and just you. its just of story of two people, of unrequited love.

and it just kills.

These Words - Natasha Bedingfield

I used to think it was crazy that I blogged practically every day. I thought that I was crazily obsessed with you, and most of my readers probably thought so too. But that’s not actually true.
I blog about you because it makes me feel free. It makes me feel like I can say whatever’s on my mind. I don’t have to watch what I say in case someone in particular reads it, because the people that read it don’t know you. Sure, some of them might recognise you when they see you cuz I pointed you out to them, but none of them know you.
So I get to say whatever’s on my mind. Without judgement. Because every girl has ‘that boy’, that they can say whatever they want about. And we all respect that we can say everything.
For me, you’re ‘that boy’. So I can say everything I feel. Especially since I haven’t yet used your name in a blog. I can just write and write and write. And everyone that knows me knows that I can talk on and on forever. That’s just what this is. Talking forever about something really close to my heart.
Someone once said about me “I’d never before met someone who could elaborate naturally on a subject without rehearsal, literally allowing the words to come from her heart”. And I guess that’s right. Everything from my heart lately is about you, as are all the words from my heart.So I’ll blog again soon, I just thought I’d share with you my revelation. (Big Word!)

Threw some chords together
The combination D-E-F
Its who I am, its what I do
And I was gonna lay it down for you

Try to focus my attention
But I feel so A-D-D
I need some help, some inspiration
(But it's not coming easily)

Whoah oh...
Trying to find the magic
Trying to write a classic
Don't you know, don't you know, don't you know?

Waste-bin full of paper
Clever rhymes, see you later

These words are my own
From my heart flow
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
There's no other way
To better say
I love you, I love you...

Read some Byron, Shelly and Keats
Recited it over a Hip-Hop beat
I'm having trouble saying what I mean
With dead poets and drum machines

I know I had some studio time booked
But I couldn't find a killer hook
Now you've gone & raised the bar right up
Nothing I write is ever good enough

These words are my own
From my heart flow
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
There's no other way
To better say
I love you, I love you...

I'm getting off my stage
The curtains pull away
No hyperbole to hide behind
My naked soul exposes

Whoah.. oh.. oh.. oh..
Whoah.. oh..

Trying to find the magic
Trying to write a classic
Waste-bin full of paper
Clever rhymes, see you later

These words are my own
From my heart flow
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you

That's all I got to say,
Can't think of a better way,
And that's all I've got to say,
I love you, is that okay?

Have You Ever - Westlife

that last blog, whoa,
it went on forever, and it was so...raw.

i mean like thinking all of that stuff, was a real eyeopener, writing it all down made me feel free, but pressing the little "publish post" button, that made me feel so... exposed.
its like, the entire world can now view my inner thoughts at leisure, just like mind reading, but more honest, and it hurts, a little more, everytime a piece of me is taken away, everytime someone reads it.

i knew it would hurt. it always hurts, to know that someone will only ever be your friend, nothing more, nothing less 'let's just be friends' apart from 'we need to talk' those are probably the most awful 4 words a girl can hear.
but i could survive all of that, its the whole not-even-wanting-to-be-my-friend thing that hurts, because you dont, you truly want nothing to do with me.
people always say 'the worst thing in the world is sitting right next to him, and knowing that he'll never be yours' but have those people ever had to look at him, a hundred metres away, knowing that he'd never, in a million years, want to sit right next to you?

but you still, care, you still try.
because, although you're 99% sure he'll never ever take a second glance at you, it's that 1% of you that holds on, that 1% of you that wins, and you spend everyday walking past him with your friends, not because you enjoy hearing him tease and torment you, not because you like the way he annoys you, and laughs at you. but because, for 10 seconds, you get to hear his voice.
his deep, soft, beautiful voice, that makes you feel weak and strong at the same time; vulnerable, yet, protected, safe. it makes you feel sky high, but at the same time, so low, it makes you start to smile, but still, feel like crying.
it's the voice that makes your breathing get heavier, your head start to spin, and your heart start beating fatser and fatster. it makes you feel singing and laughing, but also, sometimes, just screaming!
and at night, when you're thinking about him, its the voice that you feel ringing in you ears.
and after everything that's happened, everything you've been through for him, you blame that voice, because without it, you would have never fallen for him without it. and you'd never be in this mess

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry?
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right?
Have you ever?
Have you ever?

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything
To make them understand?
Have you ever had someone
Steal your heart away?
You'd give anything
To make them feel the same?
Have you ever searched for words
To get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start?

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry?
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right?
Have you ever?
Have you ever?

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all your life?
You'd do just about anything T
o look into their eyes?

Have you finally found the one
You've given your heart to
Only to find that one
Won't give their heart to you?
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there?
And all you can do is wait
For that day when they will care?

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry?
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right?
Have you ever?
Have you ever?

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms, baby?
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand
How I need you next to me?
Gotta get you in my world
'Cause, baby, I can't sleep

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry?
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right?
Have you ever?
Have you ever?

Have you ever?

Hear Without A Home - Westlife/Nick Carter

i havent blogged about you in forever

you see everything else in my life is going awesome

and you? not so much

everything else falls into place, except for you

and i dont want my whole life to revolve around you

im so over all of that

guys are just "the icing"

ur not supposed to mean so much to me

so i havent blogged about you

ive made an effort not to

my blogspot was a happy, friendly place

people smiled, and reminisced

thats how it should be, i dont want it all about you

i dont want you to mean that much to me

but you do, you mean the world to me

and thats not so bad, i guess

its just sort of annoying

especially since you hate me so much

which i dont get by the way

why do you hate me??

im not that bad a person

im alright once you get to know me

which you dont!!

with you, i dont deserve a second chance,

i deserve a first one

cuz you never gave me that

you never gave me a chance

maybe im not actually as bad as you think

maybe im a good person

did you ever think of that??

you know, i was walking to the station this morning,

and i was thinking about how, every song i knowit relates to someone in my life

each person has one or two songs ill hear, and think of them

but you, every song i hear relates to you

and I KNOW, im doing it again

im being all cheesy and uggh

but, i need you to get this!

i think, when i started to like you, i made the decision

well, you hated me, and i was scared of that

i didnt want someone to hate me, so i gave you a reason

i gave myself a 'woe is me'

i think i made this conscious decision to like you

so i tried to get to know you better, it was logical, right?

i hardly knew you, you hated me

that scared me, that made me feel bad about myself

i thought, maybe if i figured you out

id understand why you hated me

i did, i started paying attention to you

i noticed that, deep down, you're nice!

when someone's standing or sitting on the floor, you give them your seat

or the year 7s with squad, you carry their suitcases down stairs

you're a really nice person, to everyone except me!

so, deciding to like you made me start to like you

and i know, this whole thing sounds stupid

but i just want you to understand this

i want you to understand that i love who you are

who you are around everyone else in the world

do you know how nice you are to perfect strangers??

and yet, with me, youve never cared

and i really want you to care!

i want you to give a damn about me!

i want you to know me, for who i am

and maybe, youd actually like me

im gonna go now

because there are about a million things i could be doing that are a lot more important than writing this...

i just wanted you to get it...

I love to watch you

You're like candy to my eyes

Like a movie that you've seen

But you gotta watch just one more time

But that smile you're wearing

It's a beautiful disguise

It's just something you put on

To hide the emptiness inside

And you seem so lonely

But you don't have to anymore...

If you're a heart without a home

A rebel without a cause

If you feel as though

You're always stranded on the shore

Like a thief in the night

Let me steal your heart away

Baby if a reason’s, what you're looking for

I'll be yours

I'll be yours

You need a new sensation

One you never had before

I got a feeling if I gave you some

You'd probably want some more

Did you know that baby

You're the bluebird in my sky

I only wanna make you happy cause

I love to see you fly

And if you feel lonely

You don't have to anymore

If you're a heart without a home
A rebel without a cause
If you feel as though
You're always stranded on the shore

Like a thief in the night
Let me steal your heart away
Baby if a reason’s, what you're looking for
I'll be yours
I'll be yours

I'll be the raft in the tide

I'll be yours

I'll be the truth in the light

And what's more

When no one opens the door

I'll be the hope that you're looking for

If you're a heart without a home
A rebel without a cause
If you feel as though
You're always stranded on the shore

Like a thief in the night
Let me steal your heart away
Baby if a reason’s, what you're looking for
I'll be yours

I'll be yours...

Let's Smile

I am really, really happy. Which sorta scares me, because I know it won’t last. It’s like, when I go to bed, I’m looking forward to waking up in the morning. And I know, I know, that’s a good thing, right? I mean like, I haven’t been this happy in so long, I love it; I really, really love it, it is such an amazing feeling, everyday I look forward to school, everyday I look forward to coming home, I look forward to the weekend, then look forward to the week. I loved yesterday, it felt like summer, everything was beautiful and sunny, and even though I spent a good 4 hours studying, I had a blast.
WHAT”S WRONG WITH ME???

But I’m loving life so much, I’m so lucky, my life is perfect at the moment, it’s like, so hard to find something to wish for on a Santa :), which is awesome! But there is that very small part of me that is so scared, that this is the calm before the storm, because things are getting better everyday, people are telling me wonderful things for the future, and I don’t know how long life continues like this before it just hits rock bottom.

I know that this time last year, I was about to hit rock bottom, hating school, but hating home all the more, the school holidays were a drag, everything sucked. I’m scared that that’s going to happen to me again, and that this time; I won’t be able to stop it.

I once said that my greatest ambition in life is to be able to make myself happy, not rely on any one else, be able to make myself smile. I think that maybe that was a little unrealistic, other people’s joy brings me joy, and other people laughing makes me laugh, I will always rely on them. But maybe, it’s all about give and take; if my life continues so wonderfully, other people’s lives will start to suck. They’ll stop laughing, they won’t be happy. Then I’ll stop being happy, and other people’s lives will improve. Maybe we’re all just stuck in some sick, vicious circle.

Or maybe, we all have the ability to be joyful, and maybe, we know deep down that next year, we will miss this year, and so on for the rest of our lives. Maybe, if we figure out what part of this year we will miss next year, we can enjoy it, because we all know that we didn’t make the most of last year, or even the year before that. But if we stop dwelling on the past, and we appreciate the present, and look forward to the future, maybe we can finally be happy, maybe that’s the secret. Maybe it’s not about having the best friends ((which I do, so clearly you don’t)), maybe it’s not about the most money, or the most people in your class from last year. Maybe it’s not even about who we talk to, or who’s in our family. Maybe, if we appreciate every single day, and we live it as if it is our last ((and hey, let’s be realistic, it could be)), maybe we will be happy, joyous, blissful even! Maybe, that’s the only way to get the most out of life! Maybe if we realise what’s right there in front of us, we can love it!

So everybody who actually managed to get to the end of this blog, I would like you to comment on it. Comment with one thing about this year that you will miss when we get to year 10, and everytime you’re pissed of or annoyed, remember that one thing, and SMILE!! So that other people can smile too, and soon, we will all be smiling :)

TAXXD from amy

i know i know, i always steal these thingos off amy, i love her ok!!

If something was wrong, who is the first boy you would go to?
my puppy dog – the very first!

Who is the first girl you go to?
hmm, I don’t think I really go to my girls when things are wrong

If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
YESSS, that would be nice, stupid!

Do you prefer to take showers at night or in the morning?
in the morning, so I feel clean during the day

Which year has been the best so far?
07 :)

Ever found more than a dollar in a random place?
LOL, no :(

Do you believe that if you want something bad enough you'll get it?
I believe that you get the things you need, and if you want something that bad, maybe you need it (that’s my way of saying yes)

Break someones heart or have your heart broken?
learn to love each other:)

Are you a morning person or a night person?
I like the daytime :)

When was the last time you did the dishes?
few days ago

Are you talking to anyone while doing this?
AMY

Three feelings at the moment?
happy, confused, hurt

What are you scared of?
{your face} not having people there when I need them

Are you thinking of someone right now?
yep, the person i need :( but havnt spoken to in forever

What are you looking forward to?
tomorrow, and the next day (not the day after that) but the day after that, and the day after that, and the rest of my life :)

What did you do the last time you were home alone?
uhh, I think I cried too

Are you tanned?
no its like, practically still winter

Do you get jealous easily?
no way, only ever about friends

How good is your eyesight?
pretty good

Worst part about hugs?
there is never a bad part in a hug

When was the last time something bothered you?
things always bother me

What is your current mood?
umm, hopeful

Last person you hung out with?
bus/train peeps

What sport do you enjoy watching?
OLYPMICS!! Or nrl

Could you date someone who was gay? yeh, why do you know a gay guy you can introduce me to?? I need gay friends :)

Whats the last thing someone said to you? who was it?
"no she doesn’t "– my sister

What is the last thing you thought about?
my bus, the people on it :) *tap tap*

How do you feel about your hair right now?
lol, its awful!! That’s the reason my teachers knew I had a water fight (oh amy, my hair keeps getting stuff in it too…)

What do you miss most about the past?
yessss, playing cards under the stairs.. when bryan and osmond were part of our group :):)

Has anyone told you a secret this week?
no, I don’t think so, well, define secret

Do you get along better with men or women?
I think women

Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
uhh, on the bus

Who was the last person to make you cry?
I don’t wanna say

Are you jealous of anyone?
noo :) ohh, maybe the chic who was in Canberra a few weeks ago :(

Do you have a best friend?
noo

What is your favo(u)rite thing about the opposite sex?
they always surprise you, even when they’re being stupid, they’ll say something, and you’ll think “wow”

Ever liked someone else’s boyfriend or girlfriend ?
noo

Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds ?
hearts don’t break, they bend:)

Are you happy with your life right now?
completely!! It’s like perfect

Do you wish you could have changed things?
no way

How many bestfriends do you have?
none.

Do you trust them?
I don’t think I completely trust anyone.

Do you like anyone right now?
yess, flying saucers :)

Whats one thing you wish you could have?
wisdom

Are any of your friends birthdays this week?
ADITI’s yesterday

Do you like people?well, I guess, people are ok…yeh! People rock!

Is there someone you wish you could see more?
ya think.

Do you have all your friends phone numbers memorized?
nooo, they’re on my phone, I don’t need to know them, right?

Do you have a cellphone?
MOBILE!!! yes

What always makes you feel better?
music, smiling

Name someone you go to when your upset
puppy dog.

Do they help you?
yeh, listening without judging helps

Are you a trustworthy person?
yes, why?? You wanna tell me something?

Persons of my life<3

Ok, I’m gonna pull a leaf out of Amy’s book, and blog about people using only numbers. Half way through this, I started watching Australian Idol, so I begin to sound a bit like the judges, my bad. You can guess who each one is, and tell me wherever, but you probably wont get most right... unless you're a ninja. Anyways, half are guys, half are girls, and there’s one group in here. But these are all the people of my life…

Person 1
You’re the obvious one. Everyone knows who you are, the reason I wrote this blog, and the first person that springs to mind when I think of people in my life. I may hate you with every fibre of my being, but I think I’m starting to fall in love with you too, and that is an amazing feeling.

Person 2
You’re my rock. I love crying on your shoulder, although sometimes I find it hard. I sorta wish it was easier to tell you stuff, and easier for you to tell me stuff. We have a great friendship, but I know it could be so much better if we just trusted each other a little more. :)

Person 3
You’re the consistent one. I don’t think I’ve appreciated you much until the last week. You’ve always been there, and I can count on you to laugh at my stupid jokes, cuz you find them funny (don’t know why though). It’s taken me a lot to appreciate you, and I feel bad because other people are jealous of the friendship I have with you and I didn’t eve give it a second thought. But those other people have helped me learn to appreciate you.

Person 4
You’re new. I pretty much just met you this year, but you’re awesome. I don’t think we’re exactly friends, but hey, you got onto my peoples thing, right? I really like you, and I think it would be cool if we became friends, but there's something mssing from our friendship. I think if we knew each other better we'd be great.

Person 5
Wow. That’s the best word. In the last week, we have gone from people who randomly say ‘hi’ to each other on MSN to people who share a deep, amazing connection. I know that if you read this, you would completely understand what I’m talking about, and I’m glad that we can make such an impact on each other’s lives.

Person 6
You’re just always there. Not like person 3, because I’ve always appreciated you. No matter where I am, you’re close, and I love how we can influence each other. You’re always gonna be there for me when times get tough, or I don’t know what I’m doing, and thank you so much for that.

Person 7
I don’t know if I classify you one of my friends, but I think I might. I mainly talk to you about school stuff, but we help each other out all the time. I see you heaps, and although I never really talked to you before this year, I enjoy spending time with you.

Person 8
You’re just odd. I’m not even gonna try and disguise who you are. You’re the person who I’ve never really understood, and I don’t know why. It’s like, I hate and love you at the same time, and I think you feel the same for me. I don’t get why we’re not close, we just aren’t, even though you’re a great person.

Person 9
You’re distant. I find it hard to get close to you, you don’t like being close to people, and I can’t help but feel like that’s because you’ve been hurt by people in the past. I’d love to see what happened if you gave someone a chance, because I think you deserve it, and the rest of the world deserves to see that part of you.

Person 10
You’re a little undefined. I consider you a really close friend of mine, but I’m still very scared to tell you things, I haven’t really developed a strong trust with you, and I think that’s holding us back from a great friendship.

040908/050908 - Awesomely awesome :)

Thursday and Friday were such awesomely awesome days, I don’t think I spent all that much time with my group as a whole, I mean like, I spent a little, but not heaps. I just spent alone time with everyone, it was really nice.

Ok, Thursday:

P1 Maths: Had Jones, Osmond and me took Annie and Lucy’s seats, and played cards with Tan and Bryan. I kept winning :) and I got all my work done, oh yeahs, skills!!

P2 History: In computer room, didn’t get anything done, talking to Shai, Corinne and tan about IPT assignment, got some info on Canberra and Phar lap for me and Corinne.

Recess: Just sorta bummed around our table, spent some alone time Lisa:) but didn’t really do much. People came and went, it was just nice.

P3 IPT: Argued with Payne the whole lesson, our entire class did, came to agreement that our assignment id due on Thursday…I realized that I won’t get it done…hmmm, maybe I shouldn’t be noggin then…meh, study break. :)

P4 English: Just read through our book. I was Hortensio cuz Shiri couldn’t be bothered, but I never remembered to read, Shailin did IPT work in her book, we realized that our system has no data flow :( so DFD is really easy :) (Sorry for my nerdtalk, I shall stop now)


Lunch: Short Oaktree meeting, peoples went to Movie Arvo. When I came back, Amy + Jenny were gone, so I started to play Mafia with the reject shop. Then Bryan, Osmond, Charles walked by to play cards, so I joined them instead.

P5 Science: Remnants of our class joined with remnants of 9R, to watch a video that almost everyone fell asleep during.

P6 Music: Had fun! Our group wrote chords/mood to our song, annoyed other groups and were annoyed in return.


FRIDAYYY

P1 Music: Killed yesterdays mood and chords, came up with new ones, started writing lyrics, we actually like our song now.

P2 Maths: Had Jones again, played cards again, but Jones stood behind us a bit, so not as good as Thursday.

Assembly: Mr. Norris went on and on and on about random things. Had oneweek. Announcement, just randoms, Lana got books :)

Recess: Walked with Amy in rain, that was cool. (Timmy, Timmy, Timmy =D) Remembered who Victor was.

P3 English: Looked at Lana’s books, read Taming Of The Shrew, boringness.

P4 IPT: (You may ignore the future nerdtalk) Argued whether or not our system was a system, as it had no input data flow. Realised that brochure is an output of system, still can’t convince Payne. Grrr

Lunch: Walked with Amy in rain again, people chucked water at each other. Found Tan, scabbed cards, played 13. Judy dumped heaps of water on Jenny/Lisa, was funny.

P5 Science: Did nothing except prac, which actually worked for us. But we didn’t have enough dye, and we shouldn’t have used the stopper with the tubing.

P6 History: We all thought we had computer time, but we just watched video, it was alright, but money just disappeared, how?
After school: Train was delayed and we missed bus :), got to walk home in rain, then my mummy rang, and I realised I’m not allowed to walk home, but she was ok with it, cuz we missed bus =D

Caring <33

i think i care too much
like... about everyone, im so annoying, they're starting to hate me cuz i love them

its like...
my dad, yeah? he's in the car today, and he doesnt have his seat belt on properly, and then he tells me it's broken, so im like, sit in the back seat. but then he cant suervise my sister whilst she's driving. so, im like... maybe you should drive then, instead of almost killing urself in that seatbelt, and he's like... shoosh, ur sister's trying to drive.

and then my sister, she puts 2 L-plates on the back of her car, so its like, twice as safe, but then she puts them really close together, so i said, spread them out, cuz then its even safer. she says no. so im like, but theyre so close together, you may as well only have one. and says, shuttup ebony, you dont know what you're talking about.

and there's more, but i cant be bothered to write out.

maybe, i shouldnt care anymore, cuz its not like they appreciate it, i mean like, whats the point?? i dunno... im just not bothered anymore

FNT - Semisonic

ok, ur really starting to confuse me, i mean like, i finally figured out why you keep talking to me, cuz it reminds you of her, yeah? yeah. but thats cool, i enjoy hearing your voice so thats all ok.
what i dont get is why you've started talking to me about random stuff, like, youll put in an effort to tell me useless stuff about your day that in some weird random way relates to me, i dont geddit, why? but i mean like, im not complaining, i love it when you talk to me...
they say that when you love someone, you like it when they same your name, cuz ur name feels safe in their mouth. i dont think i love you, but i understand what they're talking about. my name is safe in your mouth and i like that safe feeling

so i went really close to telling nikki about you on monday, like, really close, i seriously considered it, if shed aske'd me who i was talking about, i would have said you. but she didnt ask, well, she sorta did, but not straight out, and i didnt wanna tell her if she didnt wanna know.

so, as always, i must end with a song, its tradition, i cant just break it cuz i cant find the perfect song today, right? so i considered writing another remix, but thtat's cheating, besides, i did that on staurday, i cant cheat twice. so ive picked a song that my sister got me interested in, now im starting to really like it, and it reminds me more and more of you everyday. except for one thing, the song says you're perfect, and your not, you're flawed. very flawed. i love your flaws. maybe that means i still see you as perfect, i dunno, i just wanted to clear that up, so here we go...F.N.T.(yes, it stands for fascinating new thing)

Fascinating new thing
You delight me, and I know you're speaking of me
Fascinating new thing
Get beside me, I want you to love me

I'm surprised that you've never been told before
That you're lovely
And you're perfect
And that somebody wants you

Fascinating new thing
The scene makin', want a temporary saviour
Fascinating new thing
Don't betray them by becoming familiar

I'm surprised that you've never been told before
That you're lovely
And you're perfect
And that somebody wants you
I'm surprised that you've never been told before
That you're priceless
Yeah, you're precious
Even when you are not new

I'm surprised that you've never been told before
That you're lovely
And you're perfect
And that somebody wants you
I'm surprised that you've never been told before
That you're priceless
Yeah, you're holy
Even when you are not new