Saturday, 30 August 2008
Anna Nalick Remix
It made me realise that, we really aren’t friends. Cuz for a while there I thought we were, but I guess not. I mean like, I don’t think I really care that much, I just, I dunno…
I just thought that the fact that we talk to each other everyday meant that we didn’t hate each other anymore. Clearly, you still hate me, and still expect me to hate you. That’s ok though, I can go on pretending, ignoring every single thing you say, only smiling reluctantly when you tell one of your jokes, trying to ignore the fact that you haven’t smiled all day.
Cuz I did, I ignored it, I was ok with that. It was just the trying not to smile when you did, that I had trouble with. I mean like, I’ve never appreciated them that much, your friends I mean. Like, I always thought you could do better, they’re so annoying…
But, hey, they can make you smile, right? So I guess they’re worth every single second you spend with them. And when you smile, I smile. Although it was that awful smile, the i-dont-want-to-smile-right-now-because-i-dont-want-people-to-know-what-just-happened-but-i-cant-help-it smile. But still, a smile is a smile.
Ok, umm, I wanted to make an Anna Nalick remix, so I just threw together all the parts of her songs that reminded me of you, and came up with something that almost makes sense… here it is
2AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
Yeah they talk about her
She smiles like she’s so tough
She says"hey can you talk a little louder,
I don't think my heart is broken enough"
And maybe I'm not up for being a victim of love
All my resistance will never be distance enough
Meanwhile I'll hide my head
Here in this paper bag
Cause if I cant see you
Then you can't see me
And it'll be okay
I’d cheat destiny just to be near you.
But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him.
Maybe I'll just sing about it.
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
Cuz love doesn’t hurt so I know I’m not falling in love
I’m just falling to pieces
Meanwhile I'll hide my head
Here in this paper bag
Cause if I cant see you
Then you can't see me
And it'll be okay
Friday, 22 August 2008
The Real Me
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
lol, some is the same as amy :) but its soo true :):)
Saturday, 16 August 2008
~Truth and lies~
1.a) I know someone who wants be a broccoli
b) When I was little, I wanted to be a fireman
c) I’ve always secretly wanted to be a dancer
2.a) I keep a diary of all my emo thoughts, so that I can get rid of them
b) I have seriously considered suicide
c) Sometimes, I just cry myself to sleep.
3.a) I pass off other ideas as my own so people will think I’m interesting
b) I lie about who I am so people won’t hate me
c) I make bebo accounts with other names to see if people like me
4.a) I’m scared that one day, all of my friends will walk out on me
b) I hate some of my friends, but I’m too scared to say anything
c) I’ve let friends sexually abuse me because I didn’t know better
5. a) I think I’m the only person in the world who’s not an illusion
b) I think that there’s a real person hiding in my dog, spying on me
c)I think that all books are real things that the authors have witnessed
Yeah, this will actually tell you a lot about me, some of which I don;t think I want anyone to know... oh wells, have a go, and tell me on MSN/email/leave comment/whatever
Friday, 15 August 2008
150808 - JENNYS BDAY! and more :)
Me: “Did we?”
Lisa: “Yeah, she said she wanted to have sex with him”
Amy/me: “WHAT?!”
Julia: “Yeah, I remember that, you said you thought he’d be good”
Amy: “Are we talking about the same person?”
Amy: “Do you like him?”
Jenny: *smiles*
Amy: “OMG! You like him!”
Jenny: “Is it obvious?”
Amy: “Yes it's obvious!!! It is SOOOO obvious!!"
Judy: "What?"
Someone on van: "Do a Marge Simpson impersonation"
Judy: “D'oh”
Amy: “I remember when you admitted that you liked him”
Lisa: “I DID?”
Amy: “Yeah, online”
Lisa: “No, I never LIKED him”
Amy: “Yeah! You told me you did”
Lisa: “I did???!”
Pshh, my group, so stupid
Me: “You know, we haven’t mentioned names, so I might be thinking the COMPLETELY wrong thing”
Corinne: “I think you are”
Corinne: “Does anyone else have those letters in their name?”
Me: “No-o-o…wait! Cameron! Oh my gosh! You like Cameron!”
Corinne: “Yeah, they’re going out”
Me: “What?”
Corinne: “You know how they’re always hugging”
Me: “Yeah, but I didn’t think they were going out”
Corinne: “Aren’t they?”
Me: “I dunno”
Corinne: “Oh my god, they’re not going out!”
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ok, so it was a great day, in the words of joannie "bryan + cake = DISASTER x)"
i cant believe what a fantastic day i had today, i mean like, the perfect blend of school and friends, our old group, plus the jenny fan club...i think we annoyed/teased/impersonated/made fun of every single member of the group, we laughed a lot, and we pretty much walked on water/adrenalin all through lunch, which carried on to the rest of the day..
ok, my day!
bus stop - AWKWARD// we'll ignore
train station - woman with survey, heaps of fun
Me: "What are you doing?"
Shiri: "Filling out survey"
Me:"You don't have to do Q11"
Shiri: "Oh right"
Me/aashana/hunaiza/shiri: *laughs*
Before school - jumped around a bit
Me: "Pradeepti, it's so weird seeing you with your clothes on!"
Prad: "Oh yeah? It's so weird seeing you with a shirt on!"
Me/prad: *laughs*
PE - had to get sand, it was heavy! just so we could christen the stupid fields..hehe "lets throw it on his head" LOL! had so much fun playing touch, we won all our games (H) except one where we drew (even though they didnt tap the ball :P)... never knew pe could be exciting
Assembly - got awards for drama...cheering/screaming!! so cool! went ballistic, had a lot of fun, quick assembly...had extra recess (Y)
Recess - found out bout MUSHROOM! lols, and hads all the funny quote moments up the top :)
Ag - had heart to heart with corinne, quotes up top of page, was soo awesome, we had no idea what we were talking about half the time. had to jump stupid fence it skirts, the guys wouldnt turn away...but sandy saw more than that yesterday at drama club :L
Lunch - had fun with lisas fone, then amy + joannie came with cake, sang at top of our lungs... tried to figure out how to cut cake, then all ate, bryan stuffed it all in his mouth, started cake fight, he got it in his ear! :L ms cody told us off, so we started to clean up, bryan/amy had it in hair :L
Maths - me + osmond started to catch up on work missed
Lisa: “Yeah, squared is wrong”
Me: “What about square root?”
Lisa: “Yeah that’s wrong too”
Me: “Why?”
Lisa: “Jenny said so”
Me: “Jenny, why is it wrong?”
Jenny: “Oh, I don’t know, that’s just what the book said”
Osmond: *laughs*
English - just read taming of the shrew, was funny, sandy: "the crust!"
T-o-M - didnt do much, watched olypmics :L
After school - blogged, started compliling quotes, MSN convis, did very slight amount of hw
Blogg is too long...must leave
Teardrops On My guitar - Taylor Swift
Yeah, hopefully no one who reads this will understand that, and no one that understands that will read this, i just wanted you to know...and the whole point of this blog sorta died when people found out about it
sooo...yeh, i know, but so do you, so we're even, but u figured it out, i just eavesdropped, you win :) but its ok, i think she feels the same way about you, even though she wont admit it yet... so youve still got a chance, right? i mean like, she acts all weird around you, so thats a good sign yeah?
I think ive told all my group about you now, but theyve moved on to jenny and mushroom, so hopefully they wont bring it up, and i told corinne too, when she told me who she liked, but she didnt know which one you were thats why she was staring at you
Now, you seem to be getting into an awful habit of a morning, could you just...stop?? i mean like, its so awkward, we just stand there with nothing to talk about, and then someone (ie lehana/aashana) will get out of car, and one of us/both will talk to them, and pretend nothing happened...and then youll laugh at me for being so uncomfortable around you... stupid..always laughing at me...not my fault :P
Oh yeah, they sang ur song in music... i dont think i even heard if they were good, i just sat there and thought about you... it applies to you even more now than it used to, and it reminds me of this amazing time in my life, whne things were, like, simpler... here it is..
Drew looks at me,
I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing
Everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without
Drew talks to me,
I laugh cause it's just so funny
That I can't even see
anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night
[Chorus:]He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause
[Repeat Chorus]
So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..
Drew looks at me,
I fake a smile so he won't see.
Monday, 11 August 2008
This week at school, these two weeks
1.Doggies bday
2.Wakakirri!! HURLSTONE LOVES NOAH!! CAT GUY!!! I have a full on blog about it its in rainbow colours, go read it =)
3.Joy =)
LO lights
1.Homework – Science, IPT, T-o-M
2.TESTS – maths (I didn’t do it…), science
3.Not having time to blog last week
4.Not getting enough sleep after Wakakirri
5. Not going to church...*looks guilty*
very busy, but a whole heap of fun!
Friday, 8 August 2008
Burn For You - John Farnham
keeping all of this inside of me
the only ppl that actually know you
im too embarassed to talk about you to
and my group, who im happy to tell about you
cant even understand me, cuz theyll never know you
not like i do
and then, there he is, he knows you, he gets you, he even gets how we work, but i cant tell him, till i tell my whole group, and its not such a big deal and i dont want to make it a big deal to them... i just wish someone could understand, someone who i could actually talk to about it
but, i made a promise, right here on this blog...so i can neither confirm nor deny what he knows to be true, i want him to know, i want someone to know, someone who knows you like i do, i need to share this with someone, im aching for you, and no one can even tell
I got myself into some trouble tonight
Guess Im just feeling blue
Its been so long since Ive seen your face
This distance between me and you
That voice you showed me is not the one I know
I must be strung out on what I do
Dont hang up againT
heres nothing else I know how to do
But I burn for you
What am I going to do
I burn for you
Burn for you
I guess it feels like youre always alone
And I feel that way too
Its so hard to explain to you
Please understand what I do
But I burn for you
What am I going to do
I burn for you
Burn for you
Took my trouble to a bar tonight
For another point of view
But theres nothing new
Im missing you
But I burn for you
What am I going to do
I burn for you
Burn for you
One of those things
Whats are you called? Ebony
Do you like being called that? Nah, don’t like my name.
How did you get that name? My mummy was watching TV when she was pregnant, and someone on the show was named “ebony”
How old are you? 14
Do you wish you were older? Ooh, yeh, 11 days older!
Are you happy with life? Yes, life is kind
Do you get along with people? yehs
Is there something you really want to say to someone? Yess, I wanna tell roshan he’s right!!
Do you tell people how you feel? I try really hard!
Are you afraid of your emotions? YessssDo you care what people think of you? To some extent
Do you have alot of friends? Yes, but they are ‘aquaintences’ or he u spell
Who is/are your bestfriend(s)? My group!! And drama clubbers
How often do you talk to him/her/them? As much as I can
Are you ready to leave your house? Noo, id miss my mummy
Do you fight with your siblings? Yeh, but we loves each otherD
o you regret things? Yehs, a little
Ever done drugs? Oh yeh, im a fullon Panadol addict
Did you just lie? Pshh, yeh, im not an addict ;)
Do you act fake to fit in? Nooo, fakers don’t fit in
Are you outgoing or shy? Depends who im around
Do you still watch nickalodeon and disney channel? Yess, CAMP ROCK!!
Is your tv alway on VH1? Psshhh, no
Do you use msn, aim, or yahoo? Yehs, im on msn nows
Ever been to a chat room? yehs
Ever lied to get away with something? yehh
Do you feel guilty about stupid things? Lol, oui
Do you love someone? Uhhs, my mummy and my daddy and my sis, and my group ands drama CLUBBERS
Do they love you? Lol, my fam{ily} does
Who do you miss? Kris
Are you excited about anything? Wakakirri nxt yr, talent quest, yr assemblies, variety/performing arts night. Hehe, high on drama
If so what? Look up. *sees ceiling*
What do you do for fun? have fun
Favorite shoe brand? Comfortable
Favortie clothing brand? Ebonyish
Where do you shop? COLES!
What do you think of Wal*Mart? I think if I went to America I would have an opinion
Do you go to the Dollar Store? Oh yeh
Have you ever bought a thong while with your parents? No, a PAIR of thongs
Are you a virgin? LOL, talk today. Yess
Have your ever been kissed? Lol, yeh
How was your first kiss? Hmmm, weird
Do you think your popular? No, people have been dared to say hello to me
How many friends do you have on Myspace? None, not that I don’t have friends, I just don’t have myspace
Are you addicted to Myspace? No
Do you play sports? NOOO!
Do you watch sports? Yehs, Olympics todays
Favorite team? DRAGONS/Australia/nsw/swans/depends on what ur talking about
Do you use Limewire? Yeh, till it got deleted
Ipod or Zune? Cheap ass mp3 without brand
Do you have socks on? Yeh, form school
What was the last thing you ate? Dinner!
Last thing you drank? MILK
What are you wearing? tracksuit
What are you doing tomorrow? Sleeping, eating, breathing…the usual
Is it night or day? night
Have you ever shopped at Hollister? NOO
Do you still have a VHS player? Only one, our other broke, so we got DVD recorder
How many tvs are in your house? 3
How many people live there? 4
Ever been to Texas? No.
What do you think of texas? Textas are cool
What are you listening to? ‘im just a girl’ bachelor girl
Do you like rap or rock? Soft rock
Do you like school? Which part?
Who is your last text message from? Like…optus
Last call? My mum
Last voicemail? "Your car is ready to be picked up”
Do you use your cell phone alot? MOBILE PHONE. And no
Have you looked how long you have to go? No, I should
What gets on your nerves? You do, hehe, I scrolled down, the end is nigh
Do you like animal print? yehs
Are you a tree hugger? yeh
Do you know what comes after this? After what?
Are you glad this is over? If I was glad it was over, I wouldn’t have done it
“done what?” sorry, its a me thing
080808 - =O
Some moments::
Mum: “Why aren’t you eat your snow peas, they’re good for you?”
Nikki: “Exactly”
Me: “I don’t like my foods to touch. I’m like Monk”
Me nd Nikki: “I used to rule the world. Then I got to cool for the world. Now I rule the universe. That's when I ruled the world.”
Rayan: “Does anyone want to buy a chocolate?”
My group: “When do you want to lose your virginity?”
Someone: “Who in our group will get married first?”
Someone else: “Amy or Ebony”
Lisa: “It’ll be Amy, cuz Ebony’s gonna be a lesbian”
2 words. Judy. Virginity.
Me: "Why does everyone else know this song, have I been living under a rock?"
Larri: "Yes"
Karl singing!! =L
ill add more if i think
Thursday, 7 August 2008
WAKAKIRRI
highness
yess, we went totally and completely high! on adrenaline and miss thomas' lollies xD, we were so psyched we went crazy, especially after the performance, and totally, i pretty much just rode that, it was fabulous
our performance
although we were still rehearsing earl in the morning, we managed to kick ass out there, we had a blast, and danced in the wings with alexis, we finally got all our props together, and it all worked, now we wanna do our thingo for talent quest/yr assemblies/performing arts night/ all of the above
noah
since our dress rehersal was late, we watched a few first, which was when we became noah's official fan club (...he was the gay stage hand =D) later on we bought him a t-shirt and wrote "hurlstone loves noah" on it and signed the back, he was completely psyched!
centro
we did a fair bit of shopping in centro...memorable moments:
"it's cameron"
"p&s michael"
dresses =D
"stuff for the face, stuff for the eyes"
"50% of my eyelashes"
all the prams, so tempting...
looking for dinner...=)
ab at the formal =L
the guys
*drool* well, uhh, hmm, there was the weird guy twirling his nipple(dont ask) who everyone thought was cute
and the really tall guy(on his knees, same height as lana) who was really nice... and he danced shirtless in boxers...which...you know... is never a bad thing
the guys who made barbara blush like crazy LOL!
and, of course, lets save the best till last..."catguy" rory... first time we saw him, he walked on the stage and everyone (including miss little) was just like "whoa", and, although, he may hve been completely up himself, and may have not even been a very nice person...he was goooooooorguz... like, wow, AND he could dance:
"that costume must be hot" "no, her dancing all over him, now that was HOT!" LOL! lizzie
the girls
nicest bunch of people in the world, even our competitors, the blue people came around to our rooms to say hi, the ants told us about past experiences, and one of the chicks who got to dance with catguy(the jap one *nods*) and her friend were heaps nice to us
the results
well, as proper hurlSTONERS, we KICKED IT! we got noahs backstage award(*rips shirt off*), and our singers got chris'...amazing what sucking up can do =)...plus, we won our category and they won theirs, indeed, all the other schools must really hate us =) LOL!
overall
...i wrote too much about guys
we had HEAPS of fun, and i would pay a lot of money to be able to do it all over again! cant wait till nxt yr!!!!!!!!!!!
Hurlstone loves Noah!
See You Agian - Miley Cyrus
and although it means we ocassionally have to be really quiet, it also means that YOU now sit at my neck of the woods, indeed, how wonderful!
so ive told jenny about you, but i dont think she knows which one was you, she just heard your voice, and amy, she remembers you...sort of, so ill still have to point you out, and...welll...sorta...roshan, random, indeed, but he did ask...and he sorta knows you, so i only gave him a few clues, still he managed to narrow it down to 3 people, one which he knows is wrong... so i guess 2.
we missed our wednesdayness cuz of wakakirri, but it was probably worth it...but i would have preferred to have wakakirri today...
but i was still thinking of you
btw i am totally loving the way that you keep having to talk to me(altho im hating the way i cant talk back) and i love that you make things u to talk to me about :)
so here is a song that pradeepti successfully managed to get stuck in my head yesterday, and well, gotta share it with someone, right?
I got my sight set on you and I'm ready to aim
I have a heart that will never be tamed
I knew you were something special when you spoke my name
Now I can't wait to see you again
I've got a way of knowing when something is right
I feel like I must of known you in another life
Cuz I felt this deep connection when you looked in my eyes
I can't wait to see you again
[Chorus]
The last time I freaked out
I just kept looking down
I st-st-studered when you asked me what Im thing bout
'felt like I couldnt breathe
you asked what wrong with me
my best friend Lesley said
"Oh she's just be a Miley"
The next time we hang out
I will redem myself
my heart, it can't rest till then
I, I can't wait to saee you again
I got this crazy feeling deep inside
When you called and asked to see me tomorrow night
I'm not a mind reader but I'm reading the sign
That you can't wait to see me again
[Chorus]
The last time I freaked out
I just kept looking down
I st-st-studered when you asked me what Im thing bout
'felt like I couldnt breathe
you asked what wrong with me
my best friend Lesley said
"Oh she's just be a Miley"
The next time we hang out
I will redem myself
my heart, it can't rest till then
I, I can't wait to saee you again
I go my sight set on you and Im ready to aim
[Chorus]
[Chorus]
The last time I freaked out
I just kept looking down
I st-st-studered when you asked me what Im thing bout
'felt like I couldnt breathe
you asked what wrong with me
my best friend Lesley said
"Oh she's just be a Miley"
The next time we hang out
I will redem myself
my heart, it can't rest till then
I, I can't wait to see you again
I, I can't wait...
To see you again
Monday, 4 August 2008
Another Now - Kate Alexa
ok, well, uhmm, could you like, uhh, hmm, not talk to me? i mean like, this afternoon it was ok, but at school, not so much
i mean, sure, i appreciate it and all, but i can never reply...even this afternoon i was having trouble breathing... could you just... not
its been nice, you like, saying hi to me EVERY SINGLE time i walk past, so, yeah, thanks, but, i dunno, its getting hard.. i do really try and look you in the eye, i promise, just... sometimes im not so successful...yeah
and yeh, im sorry, i mean, you did a good job, you just stole my corner, and thats a little inappropriate, so you deserved to be laughed at
so yeah, i should go
uhmm, this song, is just for the memory it brings... 2 weeks from 2day
was only just the other day,
when all this felt so real,
Like nothing could go wrong,
was like a never ending dream,
nothing ever changed,
For so long,
BRIDGE
But now you've gone away
,And i've tried turning the page,
and its just not the same,
CHORUS
But i'm breathing in,
And i'm breathing out,
I'm wide awake,
But i can't hear a sound,
But i'm breathing in,
I can't think about,
Another you, Another me, Another now.
VERSE 2
Where do i go from here,
I've never felt so strange,
I've never felt so torn,
Cause ever since you came my way,
I learned to live by you,
and now i'm on my own,
BRIDGE
I know i need some time,
To leave all this behind,
Cause i'm still hanging on,
CHORUS
But i'm breathing in,
And i'm breathing out,
I'm wide awake,
But i cant hear a sound,
But i'm breathing in,
I cant think about,
Another you, another me, another now.
VERSE 3
I'm sitting here, all alone,
Nowhere to move, nowhere to go,
Nothing to do, I just wanna hurt,
BRIDGE
Cause your not here
CHORUS
But i'm breathing in,
And i'm breathing out,
I'm wide awake,
But i cant hear a sound
I'm breathing in,
And i'm breathing out,
I'm wide awake,
But i cant hear a sound,
But i'm breathing in,
I cant think about,
Another you, Another me, Another now
oooh woah
Another you, Another me, Another now
Sunday, 3 August 2008
WELCOME TO AUGUST, BABY
So far this term i have been really really busy and i keep missing classes, so now i have a whole heap of catchup to do, which isnt gonna get done, and all my teachers shall be annoyed at me.
WAKAKIRRI this week! altho our songs havent been approved yet... so i dunno what were gonna do... could be interesting. but we got p1+2 off on friday, and well get p6 on tuesday, adn then all of wednesday off...yessss, no sport =) so, so far this term,in 3 weeks, i will have been to sport once, cuz i missed it in wk1 for choir excursion, yey.
hmm, my eye! people keep asking me if im crying, no peoples, i am fine, i have to put on eyecream for my cyst, but i might not bother much anymore, cuz its not working, so it has to be surgically removed *cries*
lalala
whoa, i have nothing to say..hehe thats the second time in 2 days, i was tlaking to my sis on the hone for 20 mionutes, and then i go "i have nothing to say"...i think she was worried about me =L
oks, im gonna go, ill probs blog tonight for "this week, at school, this week"