I guess you could say it's been one of those days.
Well, it started as one of those days.
I don't actually remember the morning all that well, aside from Crancher and Hancock both telling me off for nearly falling asleep in class.
But I wasn't sleeping, I was thinking.
And I didn't really improve over recess, although my friends got me in a better mood.
But in drama, I was all thinky again.
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And I had a conversation in drama that made me realise how sick I am of hiding everything about myself from the world. Especially from my best friends.
You wanna know the real answer?
IT'S TOO LATE FOR ME!!! I am beyond help now. And I can't take it back, any of it. I don't get to make the decisions you do, other people made them for me.
Le sigh, I really am gonna tell someone one day.
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The day got better somewhere in periods 3 & 4. And the rest of it was a pretty blur.
(Yes, I described PE as a pretty blur)
And then I got home.
And it was all good, we had family friends over, and we were talking about random stuff, and everyone was all happy.
But, I dunno, there's something missing in my family. It feels like we're divided now. It's hard to be friends with everyone.
And, I need them. I really do. It's taken me a while to realise, but I rely on my family for so much. And they've gotten to the point where they don't really care anymore. And I need them to care. I really need them to care.
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Anyways, I'm gonna go and stop wasting time now.
I'll blog tomorrow, I guess.
Wish you were here,
1 comment:
I sorta feel compelled to comment now, what with you commenting on my blog but you not getting any comments (yes, I can feel sorry for you!).
Yeah, back to school days always seem to be 'one of those' days, Mondays especially. That happens though. And I think I can work out when the day got better in Periods 3 and 4 (wink wink nudge nudge).
That's all I really have to say.
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