Random shit of the day!

I have a Whole Lot Of Shit to post on this thingy
Like, I've already written the next 10 blogs.
I only need to blog everyday up to next week, so I'm not gonna need em all, so I might combine bits from all of them into this one.


PART ONE:

Found on Miish’s page.

Write down what you want to say to ten people, but never will. Don’t write their names, leave it anonymous and never speak of it again.

Person 1. – You know I’ve been working o building our friendship since the beginning of the year when I first laid eyes on you. I gave up about half way through when you lost interest in playing our stupid game anymore, but after camp, I wanna try again. I know you’d be a good friend for me, and I for you. Please give it a go… I just wanna understand you.
Are you complimenting me? Hm. Interesting. – weasleyswizardwheezes

Person 2. – I think you’re being very selfish about this decision you’re making. It’s not even your decision to make because it influences everyone around you, and you clearly don’t deserve that power. I thought you were a better a person, but you hurt my friends and you don’t care. I’m trying to forgive you, but it’s so hard for me.
Close ones crying – kills me inside. – randomperson

Person 3. – You have GOT to stop being so damn self-centred. Sure, that’s a little hypocritical of me, but I have a blog, so I get to judge people. Life is not always about you, and you should actually LISTEN to people when they’re trying to tell you something, not just talk about your own problems, because when something is wrong, I expect to be able to tell you about it without feeling like I’m impending on time we should be using to talk about you.
this is no fairytale......its life – reneigh

Person 4. – Ok, just a little piece of advice. I don’t want you to let it go. I WANT to talk about my problems, you just need to get me to open up a little. I’m willing to tell you everything, and you know that, but I won’t tell you stuff you’re not interested in hearing. Ask me if you have something you want me to tell you. You know I will.
Tear me open; see my soul. – ThrivingViolet

Person 5. - Thankyou for putting some effort into our friendship, I truly appreciate that. (Not that needs effort, for some reason, it's really natural). That's basically all I want to say, 'thanks', but... I dunno, I'll never say it to you. THANKYOU THANKYOU THANKYOU.
You Make Our Connection Absolutely Right – MirrukuChii

Person 6. - I don't like what you're doing, couldn't you tell that it would hurt her? And yet, you did it anyway. Well that is NOT OKAY with me. I don't know how to stop you, but I will try very hard to find a way because she didn't deserve that!
Everyone close to you, hurts you - ThrivingViolet

Person 7. - I feel sorry for you, but I don't want to. I WANT to tear you to pieces, because I know I have that power. It's weird to feel so violent, but I like it. You don't deserve my sympathy. If I didn't have a conscience, I would hurt you like I know I can. You're hurting EVERYONE I love, and you don't care, because someone hurt you, and you can't deal with it. I do feel sympathetic, but I don't like you attitude.
I hope it gives you hell. – shelled

Person 8. - I can't do it. I know I said I'd put in the effort for you, but I can't do that. I can't because I'm not you, I don't have your will-power or determination to do what you think is best. I know what's best for me, and I can't do it, because I have something you lack, and that is understanding. Sure, I would love to do exactly what you ask of me and never look back, but I won't; because both of us deserve better than that.
Stop talking, stop asking. Just listen. - October

Person 9. - Contrary to popular belief, I am NOT a joke. PLEASE don't treat me like one. It's not funny that I get annoyed when I see you, it's not funny when I burn with rage. I'm hurting, and you're laughing, and I don't like it at all. I'm more than that.
I cried, he laughed. Ugh, jerk. – sk8hotti

Person 10. - I know how hard you're trying to do the right thing, I really do. But maybe, you could be more objective. Step outside yourself to do this better, because you're not doing anythig right. In fact, you're all wrong. Change. For me.
Just a girl with some problems. - coulda.been.a.comet

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PART TWO:

Regulars.

Today’s vocab word: Abnegate
What it means: To refuse or deny oneself
Why do I care? Because it’s something I should try, I’m too selfish.

Today's 6 words:
You get me thinking. Bad move. – October

Uh, here, just a link to a nice blog post, not an actual blog, just a cute post. http://coloradolady.blogspot.com/2008/11/colors-that-layer-heart.html

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PART THREE:

Random

“An optimist is a person who sees only the lights in the picture, whereas a pessimist sees only the shadows. An idealist, however, is one who sees the light and the shadows, but in addition sees something else: the possibility of changing the picture, of making the lights prevail over the shadows.” Just something nice :)

And here, I'll write this thing down, cuz it's like, in me, and I always write what I feel. Even though it's irrational, and in a few minutes I have a mood swing and feel different.

Maybe it wasn’t fair on either of us. Maybe it wasn’t fair on anyone around us either, because I know that I influenced them too. But it hurt too much to contain to myself. I guess, I put a lot of myself into creating something beautiful, and I wasn’t ready to give it away.
But after everything, I was left with a torn family, broken promises, and only a piece of something that I used to have all of.
Still like that I guess.
Especially with the family.
And I still remember all your promises. Including the ones you’ve kept. And the ones you broke instantly.
And that little piece that I have… it’s dulled a lot, by comparison. It doesn’t shine as much, and I wish I could give it back, because it belongs to you, not me. Only I can’t give it back, because I’ll never take back mine.

So of course it made us hurt people; when two people are pulling at something that gets cut, they both fall over, and when other people are holding on to them, everyone falls over. At least, that’s the best metaphor I can think of.

There’s really no point to this, other than to convince myself that I did the right. Or at least that what I did was okay, or understandable. I guess, if you did the same thing, I can accept that it was right. But, if I truly believed that, I wouldn’t still be trying to covince myself, would I?