Well, well, well. In year 7, we were told “you’ve never been to anything quite like a Hurlstone swimming carnival”. Oh, how true.
Today was the first swimming carnival we’ve had that wasn’t on Valentine’s Day, I think that definitely impacted it. As well as the fact that it was raining, and, by lunchtime, the day was practically over.
But everyone got in the spirit, as usual. The slightly strange array of crazy costumes and cross-dressing was not hindered by the weather, although not many people swam, and the bribe “You’ll get a free iceblock” didn’t work its usual magic.
The music was awesome, as per usual, and the mosh pit pretty much stayed consistent throughout the day. Those of us that didn’t mosh, still managed to sing along, very much out of tune.
As far as I know, no teachers were pushed into the pool, (although Mr Peck was expecting to be), and “Wilso is a wanker” only stuck around for a few minutes. Yes, the teachers got away lightly. But, they showed great spirit by joining in the ‘Deckers’ cheers.
MACARTHUR DID NOT WIN. But, they still beat us, because, well, everyone beat us! (We stand by that it was the pity pints from the cheering comp, something we’ve had to come to terms with over the years).
And that’s as much detail as I will go into about the carnival, because EVERYOINE will blog about, and it will get BORING.
In other news, Matchbox Twenty is stalking me. No, seriously, the other day I was randomly singing “Unwell” at school, (someone told me I wasn’t crazy), and then Lucy’s like “that’s by matchbox 20, isn’t it?” Me: “uhhh…?” In case you were wondering, yes, yes it is.
Then me and my sister were singing “Push” (We’re cool like that), and so I turned on my computer to listen to it, and guess who it’s by? Matchbox 20, shocker there.
And today I was demonstrating my air guitar skills to my sister (I took my air guitar to school for “Macquarie Musicians”), and she said “Trust you to pick a matchbox 20 song”. Me: “What song was it?” You wanna know? It was How Far We’ve Come.
So if you see a matchbox twenty song, and it was to know where I am, DON’T TELL IT!! I am scared of what it will do to me.
Thursday, 12 February 2009
Wednesday, 11 February 2009
Just so you know
one - still havent figured that much out
TWO - im not smiling as much anymore... its starting
three - i don't want to be scared of anything ever again
four - People will always throw stones on your path. But you can build them into a wall, or a bridge.
Attention self:
What. The. Hell.You are not disappointed. No, no you are not! Because, who’s to say that it’s not what you wanted, huh? You think you know yourself, but you don’t! And you think that you wanted it to go differently, but maybe that’s because you wanted everything to repeat. And maybe if things DO repeat, you’ll end up exactly where you are now, and that is NOT helpful. No, you didn’t want it go any other way.
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Ignore my insanity.
LOL
Kolodziej: "It looked like you were talking to yourself"
Me: "I was singing, sir"
Kolodziej: "No, Ebony, there's no reason to be talking in my classroom!!"
Lana: *whispering* "Sorry Ebz, that was me talking"
LOL! He has weird vendettas against 8Rers.
Wonder why....
ANYWAYS.
Cheesy pickup lines:
LOL! Reminds me of Amy/Nina.
Haha, clearly, I have nothing to say today.
:L
Didn't stop me blogging, did it??
281!!
Ok, well, I found this in an old email, and I just thought I'd share it with you:
Ngaww, don't we all feel special now??
OK, well, I shall leave, because I am boring you with my boredness :)
Ciao, I'll see you under the moon!
TWO - im not smiling as much anymore... its starting
three - i don't want to be scared of anything ever again
four - People will always throw stones on your path. But you can build them into a wall, or a bridge.
Attention self:
What. The. Hell.You are not disappointed. No, no you are not! Because, who’s to say that it’s not what you wanted, huh? You think you know yourself, but you don’t! And you think that you wanted it to go differently, but maybe that’s because you wanted everything to repeat. And maybe if things DO repeat, you’ll end up exactly where you are now, and that is NOT helpful. No, you didn’t want it go any other way.
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Ignore my insanity.
LOL
Kolodziej: "It looked like you were talking to yourself"
Me: "I was singing, sir"
Kolodziej: "No, Ebony, there's no reason to be talking in my classroom!!"
Lana: *whispering* "Sorry Ebz, that was me talking"
LOL! He has weird vendettas against 8Rers.
Wonder why....
ANYWAYS.
Cheesy pickup lines:
What's Your Name? Or Don't Angels Have Name?
Can I Get Directions To Your Heart, Im Kinda Lost In Your Eyes!
LOL! Reminds me of Amy/Nina.
Haha, clearly, I have nothing to say today.
:L
Didn't stop me blogging, did it??
281!!
Ok, well, I found this in an old email, and I just thought I'd share it with you:
someone hates you
someone loves you
someone talks about you
someone is cryin for you
someone is bleedin for you
someone wants you to know you are loved
someone is scared of you
someone is living for you
someone has died for you
someone prays for you
someone kills for you
someone wants to kiss you
someone wants you
someone is dying for you
someone is writing for you
someone is thinking of you
someone knows your number
someone knows your address...
someone knows everything about you..
someone is willing to share your pain
someone is hoping that you knew how much,
someone loved you
someone watches over you
someone wants to say goodnight to you
someone wants to hug you
someone wants to hold your hand
someone thinks of you everyday
someone thinks of you every hour
someone thinks of you every minute
someone thinks of you every moment
someone thinks of you RIGHT NOW
someone just wishes you knew...
one person could love you this much...
the truth??
someone loves you,
but you dont know that,
they just want to let you know..
they wish you knew
Ngaww, don't we all feel special now??
OK, well, I shall leave, because I am boring you with my boredness :)
Ciao, I'll see you under the moon!
Tuesday, 10 February 2009
Stupid stupid song
Ok, I just wanted to point out that in 1114 songs, I ALWAYS manage to hear the only song that makes me want to tear my hair out, and is only there because it would hurt me too much to delete it. And how much that sucks. Because, I only listen to about 20 songs each time, and if it's on random, HOW THE HELL DO I KEEP HEARING THIS??????
I will look back on this and laugh.
Tomorrow.
I will look back on this and laugh.
Tomorrow.
Being meaningful
one - start with acceptance, grow from there
TWO - don't deny that every word was beautiful
three - dare i say "you started it"?
four - don't do the thing you love. find the love withing the thing you do
"Remember the good ole’ days, when petrol was 90c a litre, and stamps were only 45c? I’m gonna tell my grandchildren about that." - Nikki.
It changes, nothing goes on forever – Red
Everything changes. There comes a point when you realise that things are never going to be how they were, and more than that, things are never again going to be how they are now.
You focus so much on how good things used to be that you forget about how good they are, until you lose everything, and then you see what it meant.
That's how we appreciate things, by ending them. We appreciate love by seeing hate, we appreciate light by seeing dark, we appreciate beauty by seeing ugly.
I don't miss last year.
This has been the first year in many that I have been able to say that.
I don't miss how my class/group/life was back then. Becuase things change. And rather than asking "why do things change?" i ask "what am i going to do with the new things?"
The fight to find the reason. – shhhme
People ask why. And the truth is, I don't know why. I don't understand anything any better than they do. I don't know anything more than they do, I just look for more. Maybe, I don't ask, though, because I'm scared of the answer. Maybe I'm scared that there's a good reason, and maybe that's something I'm not ready to accept.
People ask how. And I don't know that either. They ask me so many questions, most of which I don't have answers for. But the ones I do answer, they're learning to accept. Everyday, my answers become more detailed and more meaningful, everyday, they get closer to what I mean.
If you dig, you will find it.
really makes you think, doesn't it – notamazing
TWO - don't deny that every word was beautiful
three - dare i say "you started it"?
four - don't do the thing you love. find the love withing the thing you do
"Remember the good ole’ days, when petrol was 90c a litre, and stamps were only 45c? I’m gonna tell my grandchildren about that." - Nikki.
It changes, nothing goes on forever – Red
Everything changes. There comes a point when you realise that things are never going to be how they were, and more than that, things are never again going to be how they are now.
You focus so much on how good things used to be that you forget about how good they are, until you lose everything, and then you see what it meant.
That's how we appreciate things, by ending them. We appreciate love by seeing hate, we appreciate light by seeing dark, we appreciate beauty by seeing ugly.
I don't miss last year.
This has been the first year in many that I have been able to say that.
I don't miss how my class/group/life was back then. Becuase things change. And rather than asking "why do things change?" i ask "what am i going to do with the new things?"
The fight to find the reason. – shhhme
People ask why. And the truth is, I don't know why. I don't understand anything any better than they do. I don't know anything more than they do, I just look for more. Maybe, I don't ask, though, because I'm scared of the answer. Maybe I'm scared that there's a good reason, and maybe that's something I'm not ready to accept.
People ask how. And I don't know that either. They ask me so many questions, most of which I don't have answers for. But the ones I do answer, they're learning to accept. Everyday, my answers become more detailed and more meaningful, everyday, they get closer to what I mean.
If you dig, you will find it.
really makes you think, doesn't it – notamazing
Monday, 9 February 2009
I'm just invisible
one - I just know I'm a walking time bomb
TWO - That's the problem, I don't want to.
three - Stop hurting her, because she takes it seriously
four - i hated it when you changed the subject, even though i asked you to, you see, there's one thing i just love talking about... thankyou for mentioning it.
I can't do anything about it. – coulda.been.a.comet
You know, so far this month, I have blogged 12 times. Considering it is the 9th, that is A LOT. I am so weird sometimes…
And you know what?! I love my blog. It’s like, my “happy place”, if no one ever read any of this shit, I would write it anyways, because I love my blog so much.
Hehe, just reading through my old posts, starting from the beginning, I can really see how much I’ve changed, it’s really weird actually. I’m more mature (go figure), and less whiney, I usually accept things for how they are; instead of saying “why are things like this?” I say “what can I do with this situation?” I am MUCH happier (its all the incessant blogging, isn’t it?), and I’ve found my place.
I ask myself too many questions. - ayanastar
LOL, I’m being so reminiscent, but, I sign on to blogger at EVERY given opportunity, sometime to read other peoples blogs, but usually to reread mine, I go over the whole page every time, haha, even writing this, I’ve stop a gazillion times to read my blog, because it is totally awesome!!
Hmm, I love my mind. I never thought I’d say that, but, I love my mind. How each little detail of all my blogs amounts to something huge, that things are implied but never spoken, and in the end, you can just feel it.
Some things you don’t realise about my blog:
– when I do those silly quiz things, and don’t blog normally, it means I’m replacing my thoughts with a quiz because either a) im embarrassed about my thoughts b) you guys aren’t ready to hear my thoughts, or c) im scared ill offend you if I tell you how I feel.
– every single picture I choose has A LOT of thought put into it (no really, a lot!), and might be about you guys, or might not be, you just have to figure it out
– all those 6 word memoirs are there because I have something to say to you that I cant use normal words for.
– “I’ll see you under the moon” is taken from a movie called Instant Message. The main characters are pen pals from when they were in middle school. They always knew they would meet, they didn’t know where, they didn’t know when, they didn’t know how, all they knew was that it would be under the moon, so they signed all their letters “I’ll see you under the moon” Haha! Hopeless romantic alert!
You're beautiful. You just don't see. - GoldfishGirl
OK then, now that we have been all cool and reflective, I will leave.
Do you want a song??
ALWAYS!
OK, this is my current favourite song… go and download it!!!
(You’ll be able to hear me singing it, instead of her… no, really, it’s like, exactly how I think. Go and download it!!! Why are you sitll reading?? LEAVE!! NO! Don't look at the lyrics until you download it!!)
I give you INVISIBLE – Taylor Swift (gee, there’s a change of pace)
She can’t see the way your eyes light up when you smile
She’ll never notice how you stop and stare whenever she walks by
And you can’t see me wantin you the way you want her
But you are everything to me
[Chorus:]
And I just wanna show you
She don’t even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
You just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle unbelievable instead of just invisible
There’s a fire inside of you that can’t help but shine through
She’s never gonna see the light
No matter what you do
And all I think about is how to make you think of me
And everything that we could be
[Chorus]
Like shadows in a faded light
Oh we’re Invisible
I just wanna look in your eyes and make you realize
I just wanna show you she don’t even know you
Baby let me love you let me want you
You just see right through me
But if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle unbelievable instead of just invisible
She can’t see the way your eyes light up when you smile
TWO - That's the problem, I don't want to.
three - Stop hurting her, because she takes it seriously
four - i hated it when you changed the subject, even though i asked you to, you see, there's one thing i just love talking about... thankyou for mentioning it.
I can't do anything about it. – coulda.been.a.comet
You know, so far this month, I have blogged 12 times. Considering it is the 9th, that is A LOT. I am so weird sometimes…
And you know what?! I love my blog. It’s like, my “happy place”, if no one ever read any of this shit, I would write it anyways, because I love my blog so much.
Hehe, just reading through my old posts, starting from the beginning, I can really see how much I’ve changed, it’s really weird actually. I’m more mature (go figure), and less whiney, I usually accept things for how they are; instead of saying “why are things like this?” I say “what can I do with this situation?” I am MUCH happier (its all the incessant blogging, isn’t it?), and I’ve found my place.
I ask myself too many questions. - ayanastar
LOL, I’m being so reminiscent, but, I sign on to blogger at EVERY given opportunity, sometime to read other peoples blogs, but usually to reread mine, I go over the whole page every time, haha, even writing this, I’ve stop a gazillion times to read my blog, because it is totally awesome!!
Hmm, I love my mind. I never thought I’d say that, but, I love my mind. How each little detail of all my blogs amounts to something huge, that things are implied but never spoken, and in the end, you can just feel it.
Some things you don’t realise about my blog:
– when I do those silly quiz things, and don’t blog normally, it means I’m replacing my thoughts with a quiz because either a) im embarrassed about my thoughts b) you guys aren’t ready to hear my thoughts, or c) im scared ill offend you if I tell you how I feel.
– every single picture I choose has A LOT of thought put into it (no really, a lot!), and might be about you guys, or might not be, you just have to figure it out
– all those 6 word memoirs are there because I have something to say to you that I cant use normal words for.
– “I’ll see you under the moon” is taken from a movie called Instant Message. The main characters are pen pals from when they were in middle school. They always knew they would meet, they didn’t know where, they didn’t know when, they didn’t know how, all they knew was that it would be under the moon, so they signed all their letters “I’ll see you under the moon” Haha! Hopeless romantic alert!
You're beautiful. You just don't see. - GoldfishGirl
OK then, now that we have been all cool and reflective, I will leave.
Do you want a song??
ALWAYS!
OK, this is my current favourite song… go and download it!!!
(You’ll be able to hear me singing it, instead of her… no, really, it’s like, exactly how I think. Go and download it!!! Why are you sitll reading?? LEAVE!! NO! Don't look at the lyrics until you download it!!)
I give you INVISIBLE – Taylor Swift (gee, there’s a change of pace)
She can’t see the way your eyes light up when you smile
She’ll never notice how you stop and stare whenever she walks by
And you can’t see me wantin you the way you want her
But you are everything to me
[Chorus:]
And I just wanna show you
She don’t even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
You just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle unbelievable instead of just invisible
There’s a fire inside of you that can’t help but shine through
She’s never gonna see the light
No matter what you do
And all I think about is how to make you think of me
And everything that we could be
[Chorus]
Like shadows in a faded light
Oh we’re Invisible
I just wanna look in your eyes and make you realize
I just wanna show you she don’t even know you
Baby let me love you let me want you
You just see right through me
But if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle unbelievable instead of just invisible
She can’t see the way your eyes light up when you smile
Sunday, 8 February 2009
Random thoughts.
one - I tell them off, but I wish they'd mention you more
TWO - "I just wanna open you eyes, and make you realise"
three - You understand, you just pretend you don't
four - it's only words. and words are all i have to take your heart away
I smell like mouldy oranges :S
But that’s irrelevant.
(Well, not if you’re in the same room as me)
(Although no one else can smell it)
HAHA! I just went and sat on my driveway for 10 minutes watching Luna (this is normal for me), and my neighbour comes out and looks at me, and goes “what are you doing?” and I’m like “Uhhh, watching the moon” and he’s like “...right”
LOL! And now I totally forgot what I was gonna write… dammit.
Memoirs, anyone??
This is not your last chance – E. Rigby
And you've got a smile
That could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in awhile
Since she brought you down
You say you're fine
I know you better than that
Beautiful is a state of mind. – October
The way you walk, the way you talk, the way you say my name
It's beautiful, wonderful, don't you ever change
Take me away. Get lost together. – Quirktastrophe
But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you
Call me different. I say beautiful. - ayanastar
I think he can see through everything
But my heart
First thought when I wake up is
My god he’s beautiful
So I put on my make up
And pray for a miracle
You're the most beautiful person ever. – Thriving Violet
And I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Spend a lot of time dreaming. – coulda.been.a.comet
And I just wanna show you
She don’t even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
You just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle unbelievable instead of just invisible
Always the lover, never the loved. – ilove2shop
So, yeah, that's it!
(*I only borrowed it)
TWO - "I just wanna open you eyes, and make you realise"
three - You understand, you just pretend you don't
four - it's only words. and words are all i have to take your heart away
I smell like mouldy oranges :S
But that’s irrelevant.
(Well, not if you’re in the same room as me)
(Although no one else can smell it)
HAHA! I just went and sat on my driveway for 10 minutes watching Luna (this is normal for me), and my neighbour comes out and looks at me, and goes “what are you doing?” and I’m like “Uhhh, watching the moon” and he’s like “...right”
LOL! And now I totally forgot what I was gonna write… dammit.
Memoirs, anyone??
This is not your last chance – E. Rigby
And you've got a smile
That could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in awhile
Since she brought you down
You say you're fine
I know you better than that
Beautiful is a state of mind. – October
The way you walk, the way you talk, the way you say my name
It's beautiful, wonderful, don't you ever change
Take me away. Get lost together. – Quirktastrophe
But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you
Call me different. I say beautiful. - ayanastar
I think he can see through everything
But my heart
First thought when I wake up is
My god he’s beautiful
So I put on my make up
And pray for a miracle
You're the most beautiful person ever. – Thriving Violet
And I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Spend a lot of time dreaming. – coulda.been.a.comet
And I just wanna show you
She don’t even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
You just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle unbelievable instead of just invisible
Always the lover, never the loved. – ilove2shop
So, yeah, that's it!
(*I only borrowed it)
Welcome to reality
one – actually, I am, and it’s only you that doesn’t see it.
TWO – you didn’t know you were quoting my fantasy. I’m telling you know
three – first, we’ll master the art of dishonesty
four – I wish someone would throw pebbles at my window
The only problem? He's not you. – lauraseagull
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Yesterday, I bought Lucy’s Valentines Day present, and card. My mum still thinks I’m getting it for a guy, :L. I guess she thinks I’m a normal teenager.
Oh well, I appreciate my friends more than boys (sometimes) (yay me!).
Ohhh, so THAT’S why everyone was saying I was a lesbian. :L.
Ah well. I love Lucy!!
TWO – you didn’t know you were quoting my fantasy. I’m telling you know
three – first, we’ll master the art of dishonesty
four – I wish someone would throw pebbles at my window
The only problem? He's not you. – lauraseagull
Ok. Dude. Stop staring at me!! I’m beginning to think you’re retarded. I mean, sure, at first it was sort of funny. But now, it’s like, WHY???? Gah, you’re pissing me off. Stop. It. And it’s not like, normal, you’re a creepy starer. Like there’s something totally crazy about me, and you’re wondering how I can continue to function. It actually surprises me to say, but I AM MORE NORMAL THAN YOU!! (Mainly because I don’t think my teacher can fly) (I think I just gave away who this is about)
Anyways, I don’t wanna go now cuz I’m scared you’ll be there. Watching. And I have to say hello to you. Because otherwise you’ll know I’m avoiding you, but you will be there.
I guess I’ll just see you there, then?
Anyways, I don’t wanna go now cuz I’m scared you’ll be there. Watching. And I have to say hello to you. Because otherwise you’ll know I’m avoiding you, but you will be there.
I guess I’ll just see you there, then?
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Sadly, my world revolves around boys – Juju
Yesterday, I bought Lucy’s Valentines Day present, and card. My mum still thinks I’m getting it for a guy, :L. I guess she thinks I’m a normal teenager.
Oh well, I appreciate my friends more than boys (sometimes) (yay me!).
Ohhh, so THAT’S why everyone was saying I was a lesbian. :L.
Ah well. I love Lucy!!
My heart belongs to the moon. – Thriving Violet
I’ll see you under the moon!
Saturday, 7 February 2009
Stuff
one - I've already picked it out. 5 years ago. Your turn now.
TWO - I guess I shouldn't have assumed you meant it.
three - I hope I'm not always invisible
four - Thank you for asking if I was okay. I wasn't. I didn't tell you that. But I could have.
My sister wants to name her kid Luke.
That’s not fair, it was sooo my name first! Right??
Grrr, why do we have to think so alike???
Our conversation:
N: “I told Mum I was gonna have 2 kids, and name one of them Luke, and one-”
E: “You’re WHAT?!”
N: “I’m gonna name one Luke, love the name Luke”
E: “Me too, which is why I’m naming MY kid Luke!”
N: “NO! I’m naming my kid Luke! I’m gonna have twins, and one is gonna be Luke”
E: “I’ve loved the name Luke longer than you have, I get to name MY kid Luke”
N: “No way, I’m getting Luke”
E: “BULLSHIT!! I will have a kid tomorrow if it will mean I get to name my kid Luke”
N: “I will KILL YOU to name my kid Luke”
So, if I don’t blog for a while, my sister killed me for a name :L
Until then.
I have something to share with you.
Yesterday, after my sister downloaded heaps of cool Taylor Swift songs, I found another that will definitely make me cry.
You wanna know what it is??
(Of course, I thought it was about her Dad, and when Nikki said it was about her Mum, it suddenly doesn’t mean much to me anymore. But I’ll write it anyways.
THE BEST DAY
I'm five years old
It's getting cold
I've got my big coat on
I hear your laugh
And look up smiling at you
I run and run
Past the pumpkin patch
And the tractor rides
Look now -- the sky is gold
I hug your legs and fall asleep
On the way home
I don't know why all the trees change in the fall
I know you're not scared of anything at all
Don't know if Snow White's house is near or far away
But I know I had the best day
With you today
I'm thirteen now
And don't know how my friends
Could be so mean
I come home crying and you hold me tight and grab the keys
And we drive and drive
Until we've found a town
Far enough away
And we talk and window-shop
Until I've forgotten all their names
I don't know who I'm gonna talk to
Now at school
I know I'm laughing on the car ride home with you
Don't know how long it's gonna take to feel okay
But I know I had the best day
With you today
I have an excellent father
His strength is making me stronger
God smiles on my little brother
Inside and out
He's better than I am
I grew up in a pretty house
And I had space to run
And I had the best days with you
There is a videoI found from back when I was three
You set up a paint set in the kitchen
And you're talking to me
It's the age of princesses and pirate ships
And the seven dwarfs
Daddy's smart
And you're the prettiest lady in the whole wide world
Now I know why all the trees change in the fall
I know you were on my side
Even when I was wrong
And I love you for giving me your eyes
Staying back and watching me shine
And I didn't know if you knew
So I'm taking this chance to say
That I had the best day
With you today
TWO - I guess I shouldn't have assumed you meant it.
three - I hope I'm not always invisible
four - Thank you for asking if I was okay. I wasn't. I didn't tell you that. But I could have.
My sister wants to name her kid Luke.
That’s not fair, it was sooo my name first! Right??
Grrr, why do we have to think so alike???
Our conversation:
N: “I told Mum I was gonna have 2 kids, and name one of them Luke, and one-”
E: “You’re WHAT?!”
N: “I’m gonna name one Luke, love the name Luke”
E: “Me too, which is why I’m naming MY kid Luke!”
N: “NO! I’m naming my kid Luke! I’m gonna have twins, and one is gonna be Luke”
E: “I’ve loved the name Luke longer than you have, I get to name MY kid Luke”
N: “No way, I’m getting Luke”
E: “BULLSHIT!! I will have a kid tomorrow if it will mean I get to name my kid Luke”
N: “I will KILL YOU to name my kid Luke”
So, if I don’t blog for a while, my sister killed me for a name :L
Until then.
I have something to share with you.
Yesterday, after my sister downloaded heaps of cool Taylor Swift songs, I found another that will definitely make me cry.
You wanna know what it is??
(Of course, I thought it was about her Dad, and when Nikki said it was about her Mum, it suddenly doesn’t mean much to me anymore. But I’ll write it anyways.
THE BEST DAY
I'm five years old
It's getting cold
I've got my big coat on
I hear your laugh
And look up smiling at you
I run and run
Past the pumpkin patch
And the tractor rides
Look now -- the sky is gold
I hug your legs and fall asleep
On the way home
I don't know why all the trees change in the fall
I know you're not scared of anything at all
Don't know if Snow White's house is near or far away
But I know I had the best day
With you today
I'm thirteen now
And don't know how my friends
Could be so mean
I come home crying and you hold me tight and grab the keys
And we drive and drive
Until we've found a town
Far enough away
And we talk and window-shop
Until I've forgotten all their names
I don't know who I'm gonna talk to
Now at school
I know I'm laughing on the car ride home with you
Don't know how long it's gonna take to feel okay
But I know I had the best day
With you today
I have an excellent father
His strength is making me stronger
God smiles on my little brother
Inside and out
He's better than I am
I grew up in a pretty house
And I had space to run
And I had the best days with you
There is a videoI found from back when I was three
You set up a paint set in the kitchen
And you're talking to me
It's the age of princesses and pirate ships
And the seven dwarfs
Daddy's smart
And you're the prettiest lady in the whole wide world
Now I know why all the trees change in the fall
I know you were on my side
Even when I was wrong
And I love you for giving me your eyes
Staying back and watching me shine
And I didn't know if you knew
So I'm taking this chance to say
That I had the best day
With you today
Friday, 6 February 2009
Now I'll stop thinkning about it...
One – I stopped. That was the first step.
TWO – It should make a difference, but it doesn’t
Three – It was just something I had to do
Four – I guess it didn’t make sense in the first place, did it?
Explanation of weird behaviour after drama:
Everything was perfect. The sand, the waves, the rocks, the sun, and especially the person sitting next to me. I was completely at ease. It was beautiful, unbelievable. The feeling of complete relaxation was one I’d never before encountered. This was how my mind relaxed best, imagining you. And then he said “You have to be completely alone”, so I tried. I forced my picture, I warped it, I used all my energy to push you out of my mind. You fled, and I held you away. “Relax” he said. I let go, I stopped pushing; you flooded back to me. No! I forced you away. Pushing, pushing. “Be completely relaxed,” he repeated. No! I can’t! Not if I’m meant to be alone. I opened my eyes and gave up. Relaxation without you doesn’t exist; I guess I should have known.
TWO – It should make a difference, but it doesn’t
Three – It was just something I had to do
Four – I guess it didn’t make sense in the first place, did it?
Explanation of weird behaviour after drama:
Everything was perfect. The sand, the waves, the rocks, the sun, and especially the person sitting next to me. I was completely at ease. It was beautiful, unbelievable. The feeling of complete relaxation was one I’d never before encountered. This was how my mind relaxed best, imagining you. And then he said “You have to be completely alone”, so I tried. I forced my picture, I warped it, I used all my energy to push you out of my mind. You fled, and I held you away. “Relax” he said. I let go, I stopped pushing; you flooded back to me. No! I forced you away. Pushing, pushing. “Be completely relaxed,” he repeated. No! I can’t! Not if I’m meant to be alone. I opened my eyes and gave up. Relaxation without you doesn’t exist; I guess I should have known.
Things that make me sad
one - Even perfect things come undone
TWO - I didn’t dream of you last night. Relief.
three - It wasn’t all about you. It is now.
four - I just wish someone would ask me…
Hehe.
Today I am blogging about: DEPRESSION.
(yay?)
Not, like, full on though, just…
Well…
I am too happy.
No, really. I’ve never been this happy before. I am self-actualised. I’ve also never been happy for such a long period of time without getting depressed.
And the world works in waves (Go science!)
Which means, after the big uppy wave, comes the big downy wave.
Things have to balance.
So, I’m gonna get depressed.
And the longer I stay happy, the more depressed I’m gonna get.
(Really puts a smile on your face doesn’t it?)
So this is just a warning.
I’m gonna be really sad soon.
And it’s normal. For me.
Oooh, and today I found my depression song
(I always have a song. We all know I have a song for EVERYTHING. This includes depression)
(I think last time it was Try Honesty – Billy Talent)
You wanna know what it is??
BREATHE – Taylor Swift.
(I’m sorry, I love her!!)
I’m scared of how depressed I’m gonna get, too.
But I know it’s gonna happen, gradually…
First, I’ll have to force a smile to make me happy
Then maybe a laugh
Soon, I’ll have to justify happy opinions to myself
And eventually, there’ll be nothing I can do…
UNTIL THEN…
Smile! The stars are watching you.
:L
I’ll see you under the moon. ;)
I see your face in my mind as I drive away,
Today I am blogging about: DEPRESSION.
(yay?)
Not, like, full on though, just…
Well…
I am too happy.
No, really. I’ve never been this happy before. I am self-actualised. I’ve also never been happy for such a long period of time without getting depressed.
And the world works in waves (Go science!)
Which means, after the big uppy wave, comes the big downy wave.
Things have to balance.
So, I’m gonna get depressed.
And the longer I stay happy, the more depressed I’m gonna get.
(Really puts a smile on your face doesn’t it?)
So this is just a warning.
I’m gonna be really sad soon.
And it’s normal. For me.
Oooh, and today I found my depression song
(I always have a song. We all know I have a song for EVERYTHING. This includes depression)
(I think last time it was Try Honesty – Billy Talent)
You wanna know what it is??
BREATHE – Taylor Swift.
(I’m sorry, I love her!!)
I’m scared of how depressed I’m gonna get, too.
But I know it’s gonna happen, gradually…
First, I’ll have to force a smile to make me happy
Then maybe a laugh
Soon, I’ll have to justify happy opinions to myself
And eventually, there’ll be nothing I can do…
UNTIL THEN…
Smile! The stars are watching you.
:L
I’ll see you under the moon. ;)
I see your face in my mind as I drive away,
Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way.
People are people,
And sometimes we change our minds.
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time.
Mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm
Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie,
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see.
Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down,
Now I don't know what to be without you around.
And we know it's never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, noone here to save me.
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I can't,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.
Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt.
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve.
But people are people,
And sometimes it doesn't work out,
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out.
And we know it's never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I can't,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.
It's two a.m.
Feelin' like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know it's not easy,
Easy for me.
It's two a.m.
Feelin' like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know this ain't easy,
Easy for me.
And we know it's never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, noone here to save me.
Ohhh I can't,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.
Sorry (oh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry
Thursday, 5 February 2009
Reresolve
one - that was only to upset you, I hope it worked
TWO - i haven't told you how much it meant to me, but i will
three - it was for you. all of it was for you.
four - i was too scared to tell you right then who it was for, i should have told you about my blog, but i don't want to.
I am going to go through my resolutions, and see what I have achieved, and what I haven't (I know it's boring, but... I want to ACHIEVE something this year)
Fill memoir account - DONE!! AND I let everyone see it, which is totally incredible for me, I'm sure you're all sooo proud
Write everything down - I do! Not only on my blog, though, the amount of sheets of random paper lying around my house is incredible. And the random word documents, too.
Blog every week - So far, so good. (I've actually started blogging more than everyone I follow PUT TOGETHER, so that's... well... a little crazy :L)
Stop biting fingernails - I am soo close, I swear. I mean, I dunno, I guess it will always be a habbit, but, I haven't completely destroyed any of them this year, so, yay me.
Make moneys ($D) - I still don't know why I wrote that, but I guess, yeah, I've done that too
Smile more - YES!! I mean, not today, cuz I was too tired (and now my kiddies think I'm normal :L) but, like, yesterday, and the day before, and the day before, I've been very smiley lately.
Be healthier - Umm, well, nooo, I'm actually less healthy. But that's not my fault, I'm still sick, and it's totally messing with me.
TWO - i haven't told you how much it meant to me, but i will
three - it was for you. all of it was for you.
four - i was too scared to tell you right then who it was for, i should have told you about my blog, but i don't want to.
I am going to go through my resolutions, and see what I have achieved, and what I haven't (I know it's boring, but... I want to ACHIEVE something this year)
Fill memoir account - DONE!! AND I let everyone see it, which is totally incredible for me, I'm sure you're all sooo proud
Write everything down - I do! Not only on my blog, though, the amount of sheets of random paper lying around my house is incredible. And the random word documents, too.
Blog every week - So far, so good. (I've actually started blogging more than everyone I follow PUT TOGETHER, so that's... well... a little crazy :L)
Stop biting fingernails - I am soo close, I swear. I mean, I dunno, I guess it will always be a habbit, but, I haven't completely destroyed any of them this year, so, yay me.
Make moneys ($D) - I still don't know why I wrote that, but I guess, yeah, I've done that too
Smile more - YES!! I mean, not today, cuz I was too tired (and now my kiddies think I'm normal :L) but, like, yesterday, and the day before, and the day before, I've been very smiley lately.
Be healthier - Umm, well, nooo, I'm actually less healthy. But that's not my fault, I'm still sick, and it's totally messing with me.
Wednesday, 4 February 2009
I have a warped view of life
The rule of this tag: "Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you (that would be me). If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you."
1. I once had the exact same dream about 2 very special people in my life, weird though, it only applied to one of them. So I kept thinking heaps about why it would apply to the other one, and ended up liking the one it didn’t apply to, even though I original liked the one it did apply to.
2. I haven’t had Limewire now for about 6 months, and haven’t been able to download music. This did not stop me learning the lyrics to EVERY Taylor Swift song on azlyrics.com
3. I’ve told people for about a year now that I want to marry an Italian. I changed my mind when my sister remembered that Italians are mummy’s boys, and my mum said Italian mother-in-laws are bitches. Now I want to marry someone with Hazel eyes (I’m so shallow!!)
4. I talk to myself more than I should, because my mind is always multitasking and can’t focus, so voicing things makes them easier to understand.
5. I often wonder what people think of me because I have such a random personality, I wonder how anyone could possibly juggle all of me, I’m so mood swingy.
6. You know those people who are really really funny? I hate them. Because I always laugh heaps and then feel like an idiot, and then I get embarrassed by being around them.
7. Everyday I work, I wear a ribbon in my hair. I do this for a particular person there. If he read this, he would know I was talking about him. (I’ve started wearing them at school too.)
8. Everytime I try and figure out what I want to be “when I grow up”, I meet someone who is living out my dream. I met the most recent one on Sunday, so right now, I’m stuck between dreams. I don’t wanna live in their shadow.
9. The person I’ve mentioned the most so far on this thingo, is the person in my life who I know the least. Don’t know their last name, don’t know where they live, what school they go to, anything!
10. I cry everyday. It’s the only thing guaranteed in my life. Not a smile, not a laugh, not a shred of hope, just a cry. Lately, I’ve been crying to the same song every night, because it regulates my life. It means that I don’t cry at any other point in time (I know, it’s weird), and I only cry to this song because it has meant so much to me ever since I read the lyrics. (My sister downloaded it, because I needed to hear it, because the lyrics were so cool, and omgsh, the song is even better).
11. I can’t wait till Valentine’s Eve. Even though the whole idea is stupid, I have 2 Valentines (only 1 knows :L), and I want to make them feel special. More than anything in the world.
12. I’ve always wanted to be a writer, and I’ve started writing lots of stories, but I never finish what I start, so they remain incomplete. Now I realise that if I’d discover blogging a few years ago, I would have all the half-stories documented, and it would be a beautiful little haven.
13. I am the best 13 player that you’ve met that isn’t Asian. :P
14. It's very weird for me that I’m a messy person, because I’m such a perfectionist. I think that I’m always looking into what I will do in the future, so I don’t have time to put things where they belong.
15. I love vegetables, I love simple foods. I don’t like most lollies, or chips, but I can’t be bothered to put effort into making food, so I eat things I don’t like.
16. (This is sort of from a movie) I’ve always wanted to make a snow angel. But I don’t want to leave a footprint in the snow when I leave. So, “With him, there’s not footprints” (You have to see the movie to get this)
17. I talk to other people in my head. I’ve had conversations with most of you in my head, things I’ll never have the guts to say. Sometimes, I write them down. And very rarely, I add them into my story.
18. Everything I blog has a hidden meaning. But you have to be REALLY clever and have a REALLY good memory, and a LOT of intuition to figure it out. When I read over my posts, I see the things other people didn’t, and I actually get a really good record of my life.
19. I think things through so much that I come to conclusions that are 50% wrong. I should give up this habit, but the 50% of the time I get it right, it really helps to be a step ahead of other people.
20. For as long as I can remember, I’ve wanted a daughter. And I don’t mean, like, in the future, I mean, I’m ready to have a kid, like, tomorrow. My reason for wanting her being “I need to find someone who I can love, and not feel guilty about it. Someone I can give my entire self to, and have at least a bit of it returned. Someone I can take through life with me” (Quote from what I said at truth/dare at Annie’s party.)
21. The most inspirational person I’ve ever known is my grandfather. And the best compliment I have ever received from ANYONE was when he said, “that’s something I would have done when I was younger, I’m proud of you”
22. There’s something I really want to write, but I’m scared I’ll offend someone, so I’m not writing it. (But later on, I’ll look at this, and know what I’m thinking right now)
23. So far in life, I’ve found my Troy Bolton, my Romeo, and my Edward Cullen. (LOL!!) (In that order…). I think each person I meet is really a character to me. Sorry guys, you are only a character to me :L.
24. I check my emails at least 20 times a day. I only have an email one or two of those twenty, but every single one is worth it, so I keep checking. *logs into hotmail*
25. This is my biggest secret. You are not allowed to comment on anything associated with it, and you can only read if you are going to be objective.
Tagging: Everyone who reads this... again... because not even 25 people read it. I think 4 do. Maybe, possibly, 5. But that's still not many.
1. I once had the exact same dream about 2 very special people in my life, weird though, it only applied to one of them. So I kept thinking heaps about why it would apply to the other one, and ended up liking the one it didn’t apply to, even though I original liked the one it did apply to.
2. I haven’t had Limewire now for about 6 months, and haven’t been able to download music. This did not stop me learning the lyrics to EVERY Taylor Swift song on azlyrics.com
3. I’ve told people for about a year now that I want to marry an Italian. I changed my mind when my sister remembered that Italians are mummy’s boys, and my mum said Italian mother-in-laws are bitches. Now I want to marry someone with Hazel eyes (I’m so shallow!!)
4. I talk to myself more than I should, because my mind is always multitasking and can’t focus, so voicing things makes them easier to understand.
5. I often wonder what people think of me because I have such a random personality, I wonder how anyone could possibly juggle all of me, I’m so mood swingy.
6. You know those people who are really really funny? I hate them. Because I always laugh heaps and then feel like an idiot, and then I get embarrassed by being around them.
7. Everyday I work, I wear a ribbon in my hair. I do this for a particular person there. If he read this, he would know I was talking about him. (I’ve started wearing them at school too.)
8. Everytime I try and figure out what I want to be “when I grow up”, I meet someone who is living out my dream. I met the most recent one on Sunday, so right now, I’m stuck between dreams. I don’t wanna live in their shadow.
9. The person I’ve mentioned the most so far on this thingo, is the person in my life who I know the least. Don’t know their last name, don’t know where they live, what school they go to, anything!
10. I cry everyday. It’s the only thing guaranteed in my life. Not a smile, not a laugh, not a shred of hope, just a cry. Lately, I’ve been crying to the same song every night, because it regulates my life. It means that I don’t cry at any other point in time (I know, it’s weird), and I only cry to this song because it has meant so much to me ever since I read the lyrics. (My sister downloaded it, because I needed to hear it, because the lyrics were so cool, and omgsh, the song is even better).
11. I can’t wait till Valentine’s Eve. Even though the whole idea is stupid, I have 2 Valentines (only 1 knows :L), and I want to make them feel special. More than anything in the world.
12. I’ve always wanted to be a writer, and I’ve started writing lots of stories, but I never finish what I start, so they remain incomplete. Now I realise that if I’d discover blogging a few years ago, I would have all the half-stories documented, and it would be a beautiful little haven.
13. I am the best 13 player that you’ve met that isn’t Asian. :P
14. It's very weird for me that I’m a messy person, because I’m such a perfectionist. I think that I’m always looking into what I will do in the future, so I don’t have time to put things where they belong.
15. I love vegetables, I love simple foods. I don’t like most lollies, or chips, but I can’t be bothered to put effort into making food, so I eat things I don’t like.
16. (This is sort of from a movie) I’ve always wanted to make a snow angel. But I don’t want to leave a footprint in the snow when I leave. So, “With him, there’s not footprints” (You have to see the movie to get this)
17. I talk to other people in my head. I’ve had conversations with most of you in my head, things I’ll never have the guts to say. Sometimes, I write them down. And very rarely, I add them into my story.
18. Everything I blog has a hidden meaning. But you have to be REALLY clever and have a REALLY good memory, and a LOT of intuition to figure it out. When I read over my posts, I see the things other people didn’t, and I actually get a really good record of my life.
19. I think things through so much that I come to conclusions that are 50% wrong. I should give up this habit, but the 50% of the time I get it right, it really helps to be a step ahead of other people.
20. For as long as I can remember, I’ve wanted a daughter. And I don’t mean, like, in the future, I mean, I’m ready to have a kid, like, tomorrow. My reason for wanting her being “I need to find someone who I can love, and not feel guilty about it. Someone I can give my entire self to, and have at least a bit of it returned. Someone I can take through life with me” (Quote from what I said at truth/dare at Annie’s party.)
21. The most inspirational person I’ve ever known is my grandfather. And the best compliment I have ever received from ANYONE was when he said, “that’s something I would have done when I was younger, I’m proud of you”
22. There’s something I really want to write, but I’m scared I’ll offend someone, so I’m not writing it. (But later on, I’ll look at this, and know what I’m thinking right now)
23. So far in life, I’ve found my Troy Bolton, my Romeo, and my Edward Cullen. (LOL!!) (In that order…). I think each person I meet is really a character to me. Sorry guys, you are only a character to me :L.
24. I check my emails at least 20 times a day. I only have an email one or two of those twenty, but every single one is worth it, so I keep checking. *logs into hotmail*
25. This is my biggest secret. You are not allowed to comment on anything associated with it, and you can only read if you are going to be objective.
Tagging: Everyone who reads this... again... because not even 25 people read it. I think 4 do. Maybe, possibly, 5. But that's still not many.
Subliminal Messager Extraordinaire
If you take a piece of something beautiful, and put it with all but a piece of something ugly, does the ugly become beautiful or does it remain as is? Does beauty have the strength to reign over ugly, no matter how much there is?
What if the ugly wants to beautiful, but has never had the courage, will it try?
I think it does. I think the ugly part will always copy the beautiful, until it ends up being beautiful, or until the beauty dies.
How does the beauty die? When it's original source of beauty is taken away; it fades, and when it is brought back, it shines. The ugly rejoices, and starts to reform... the ugly wants to feel true beauty.
What if the ugly wants to beautiful, but has never had the courage, will it try?
I think it does. I think the ugly part will always copy the beautiful, until it ends up being beautiful, or until the beauty dies.
How does the beauty die? When it's original source of beauty is taken away; it fades, and when it is brought back, it shines. The ugly rejoices, and starts to reform... the ugly wants to feel true beauty.
________________________
It’s Wednesday afternoon.
This feels weird. I have the house to myself, again, it feels… timeless. Like nothing has changed, like words have been unwritten, and thoughts have been unvoiced, like memories have been unremembered.
And so I stare… waiting… with hope diminishing by the second… because everything has changed… and I’m the only one who can’t see it.
The clock still ticks, as more time passes, pulling me further and further from the past, but the past will wait for me, and next week I will rebegin my voyage back, I will be unsuccessful, I am sure, but I will keep trying... the past owes me, and I am coming to collect.
Tuesday, 3 February 2009
A happy kind of day
I'm starting to believe in miracles - soulcages
Today has been one of those veryy happyful days.
You know, where you have, like, a permanent smile on your face, and then, peoples tell you all their issues, and you have some weird way of being able to figure them out.
happy at last, for how long? – mylittlesecret
DNM with Corinne:
Who knew I was full of suck wisdomosity? Hehe
"Wise" does not necessarily mean "experienced". - coulda.been.a.comet
Omgsh, funny moment from English:
Hancock: *trying to explain something to Tiana* You have to learn
Tiana: But sir, you can't teach... an old dog... new tricks? Is that the saying. I dunno, there's some thing that's like... yeah
Whole class: *Silence*
Sandy: You realise, you just called yourself a bitch!
Whole class: *cracks up laughing*
I deserve nothing that I have. – 1073
I KNOW! I'm starting to like my class. Which means I'm going to miss them next year. But I don't think I'll really miss anyone inparticular... just our general classyness, I mean like, we finally... work. How sad. Oh wells, I'll enjoy them for now :L
I'm still so smily!!
I swear, it's permanent. Everything is butterflies and rainbows.
You are my rose coloured glasses - Paige
OK, I'm actually bothering with doing my homework today (=O=O), so I should go and stick to that.
I'll see you under the moon ;)
Today has been one of those veryy happyful days.
You know, where you have, like, a permanent smile on your face, and then, peoples tell you all their issues, and you have some weird way of being able to figure them out.
happy at last, for how long? – mylittlesecret
DNM with Corinne:
It's because you're a deeper person than she is. So when you see something,
you don't just take it for granted, you dig, until you remove someone's mask and
can see what they are. Whilst, with her, what you see is what you get, and if
people refuse to show their true selves her, she doesn't look for them. THAT's
why she doesn't understand.
Who knew I was full of suck wisdomosity? Hehe
"Wise" does not necessarily mean "experienced". - coulda.been.a.comet
Omgsh, funny moment from English:
Hancock: *trying to explain something to Tiana* You have to learn
Tiana: But sir, you can't teach... an old dog... new tricks? Is that the saying. I dunno, there's some thing that's like... yeah
Whole class: *Silence*
Sandy: You realise, you just called yourself a bitch!
Whole class: *cracks up laughing*
I deserve nothing that I have. – 1073
I KNOW! I'm starting to like my class. Which means I'm going to miss them next year. But I don't think I'll really miss anyone inparticular... just our general classyness, I mean like, we finally... work. How sad. Oh wells, I'll enjoy them for now :L
I'm still so smily!!
I swear, it's permanent. Everything is butterflies and rainbows.
You are my rose coloured glasses - Paige
OK, I'm actually bothering with doing my homework today (=O=O), so I should go and stick to that.
I'll see you under the moon ;)
At least it was very graceful
By now, you've probably all heard the news that I fainted yesterday in ag. Yes, I think it's pretty funny too.
But it was a graceful faint, have people been mentioning that? They said they would.
Anyways, people keep asking WHY I fainted so I figured, instead of repeating myself I can just say "read my blog"(Not that they will anyway, but it's worth a shot)
OK, so reasons I fainted
1. It was hot. Very hot, we were out on the farm, and it was very hot.
2. I haven't been esting well lately, and have a severe lack of protein, due to me not being able to eat fat. This makes me very dizzy.
3. I don't like water. I don't drink water. Waer is not nice. My body doesn't function verywell without it though, clearly.
4. People were preg-testing cows. And without going into details, this was really grossing me out.
5. I couldn't sit down, because I dind't wanna sit on cow poo. Sure, laugh all you want, I know I ended up falling into it.
Thankyou to Courtney and Corinne for saving my life. x) (Especially Courtney)
Anyways, I should go, because, well, I don't have time to be writing this, I should be getting ready for school...
But it was a graceful faint, have people been mentioning that? They said they would.
Anyways, people keep asking WHY I fainted so I figured, instead of repeating myself I can just say "read my blog"(Not that they will anyway, but it's worth a shot)
OK, so reasons I fainted
1. It was hot. Very hot, we were out on the farm, and it was very hot.
2. I haven't been esting well lately, and have a severe lack of protein, due to me not being able to eat fat. This makes me very dizzy.
3. I don't like water. I don't drink water. Waer is not nice. My body doesn't function verywell without it though, clearly.
4. People were preg-testing cows. And without going into details, this was really grossing me out.
5. I couldn't sit down, because I dind't wanna sit on cow poo. Sure, laugh all you want, I know I ended up falling into it.
Thankyou to Courtney and Corinne for saving my life. x) (Especially Courtney)
Anyways, I should go, because, well, I don't have time to be writing this, I should be getting ready for school...
Sunday, 1 February 2009
Life is more simple in less words.
I just want to share some thoughts
And I thought, if I write them in memoirs, then, I can’t be held accountable for it, because it’s other peoples’ thoughts, not mine.
So yeah….
Here goes
Not photogenic. So I take pictures. – nepsamaiamaspen
Hate you? No, not even possible. – SkaterGirl
Holding hands and spining in circles. – coloredpencils
Thanks to you I have OCD. – CobbleStone
Trying very hard to not think. – randomperson
He's a pop-up in my brain. – couldabeenacomet
Why are my memoir's about him? – Anonymous.Secrets
Unhealthy obsession with comma's; need help. – writteninbraille
danced in the rain.got wet. – fuzzy-wuv
Not Cinderella, so no Prince Charming. – iamaspen
i do a lot of wishing – zyxa
Sometimes I wish you read these. – 1073
Throw rocks at my window, please? – couldabeenacomet
I'm not strong like the rest. – J600y
Now for my words, because no one quite gets it right (even though mine suck, you’ll read anyways :L):
If beauty is time, you're eternity.
Your name is my favourite melody.
Should take heart down from sleeve.
Why does it mean so much?
Smile! The stars are watching you!
I don't run anymore. I skip.
Let's over analyse our lives together.
Finally letting people see my soul.
Permanent smile from thinking of him.
Never wanted to be "normal" anyway...
Mum, I'm not here for you.
Smithteens. Feeling a lot like home.
You inspire me to be incredible.
I should just stop counting days... (291!!!)
Don't try to contol my life.
Resolution: Smile everyday for no reason.
In my dreams we dance together.
The stars sang as tears fell.
Rewriting my life. Including fairytale ending.
Teen romance now owes me one.
With courage, I'd run away tomorrow.
He's no vampire, just unbelievably beautiful.
Always been too preoccupied to smile.
Still wish on every first star.
Happiness: Paper, pen, cup of coffee.
My notebook is full of memoirs.
The wind sings me his song.
What if i ran? Far away.
Dare I use the word 'happy'?
Fell asleep at 11:12, day: complete.
Please come visit me in hell?
Oh, and here is some fabbity fab (Only May Lyn will get that, dammit) news:
Couldabeenacomet’s middle name is… (drum roll) RAE!!! How cool!! I knew there was an advantage to having a kath-and-kim-worthy name.
Oh yeah, and I was gonna link you guys to my thingamabobby now that it's all over and done with, but, on second thoughts, that's a very bad idea :L.
And I thought, if I write them in memoirs, then, I can’t be held accountable for it, because it’s other peoples’ thoughts, not mine.
So yeah….
Here goes
Not photogenic. So I take pictures. – nepsamaiamaspen
Hate you? No, not even possible. – SkaterGirl
Holding hands and spining in circles. – coloredpencils
Thanks to you I have OCD. – CobbleStone
Trying very hard to not think. – randomperson
He's a pop-up in my brain. – couldabeenacomet
Why are my memoir's about him? – Anonymous.Secrets
Unhealthy obsession with comma's; need help. – writteninbraille
danced in the rain.got wet. – fuzzy-wuv
Not Cinderella, so no Prince Charming. – iamaspen
i do a lot of wishing – zyxa
Sometimes I wish you read these. – 1073
Throw rocks at my window, please? – couldabeenacomet
I'm not strong like the rest. – J600y
Now for my words, because no one quite gets it right (even though mine suck, you’ll read anyways :L):
If beauty is time, you're eternity.
Your name is my favourite melody.
Should take heart down from sleeve.
Why does it mean so much?
Smile! The stars are watching you!
I don't run anymore. I skip.
Let's over analyse our lives together.
Finally letting people see my soul.
Permanent smile from thinking of him.
Never wanted to be "normal" anyway...
Mum, I'm not here for you.
Smithteens. Feeling a lot like home.
You inspire me to be incredible.
I should just stop counting days... (291!!!)
Don't try to contol my life.
Resolution: Smile everyday for no reason.
In my dreams we dance together.
The stars sang as tears fell.
Rewriting my life. Including fairytale ending.
Teen romance now owes me one.
With courage, I'd run away tomorrow.
He's no vampire, just unbelievably beautiful.
Always been too preoccupied to smile.
Still wish on every first star.
Happiness: Paper, pen, cup of coffee.
My notebook is full of memoirs.
The wind sings me his song.
What if i ran? Far away.
Dare I use the word 'happy'?
Fell asleep at 11:12, day: complete.
Please come visit me in hell?
Oh, and here is some fabbity fab (Only May Lyn will get that, dammit) news:
Couldabeenacomet’s middle name is… (drum roll) RAE!!! How cool!! I knew there was an advantage to having a kath-and-kim-worthy name.
Oh yeah, and I was gonna link you guys to my thingamabobby now that it's all over and done with, but, on second thoughts, that's a very bad idea :L.
Is conversationable I word? Didn't think so.
You are the indefinable. You are the definition. You are the conversationable; you , too, the conversation. You are the soon-to-be. You are the dream maker, the dream follower. You are the dream. You are the messenger, you are the message. You are the irony, you are the nightmare. You are the voice in my head. You are the first place my eyes look. You are the sunshine, you are the laughable. You are the annoyance, you are the shock. You are the exception to the unnecessary rule. You are the unnecessary. You are the coincidence, you are the mistake. You are the awkward silence, the awkward glance, the awkward comment.
You are the me. But you are the difference. You are the hope. But, the possible hope. You are the complication. But you create the resolution. You are the reason that I noticed that I’m just being stupid and stubborn, and lazy, and weak.
And we’ve never had more than a ten minute conversation.
You, the useless.
Lol, I think I made up some of those words. But they make sense in my head.
Hehe, don’t think about this too much or your heads will hurt, and no, you don’t know the person this is about. :L
But it's not important either, really, because I'm still gonna be stupid and stubborn and lazy and weak. Oh wells, I'll see you under the moon.
You are the me. But you are the difference. You are the hope. But, the possible hope. You are the complication. But you create the resolution. You are the reason that I noticed that I’m just being stupid and stubborn, and lazy, and weak.
And we’ve never had more than a ten minute conversation.
You, the useless.
Lol, I think I made up some of those words. But they make sense in my head.
Hehe, don’t think about this too much or your heads will hurt, and no, you don’t know the person this is about. :L
But it's not important either, really, because I'm still gonna be stupid and stubborn and lazy and weak. Oh wells, I'll see you under the moon.
Saturday, 31 January 2009
Clearly, I have too much to say
I have news.
No, really. I am not just blogging for the sake of it; I actually have something to say today.
I filled my entire memoir account!!
I know, I find it incredible myself.
I wrote 512 memoirs.
That’s, like, 3072 words. (I knew the calculator on the computer was good for something)
It’s exciting, isn’t it? I think so too.
Although, when you think about it, lots of them end up getting stuffed, so it’s only about, 503 memoirs. But that’s okay, because it’s still pretty damn good.
Yeah now I have nothing to say.
La di lah.
Hmm…
Oh wells, I have to get ready for work.
I’ll see you under the moon
PS: I’ll explain that one day I promise
PPS: I bought my creating connections kiddies lollies today!! Oh, I’m so generous. :)
PPPS: I got a haircut today!! Now it’s all awesome and not so annoying
PPPPS: I’m rinsing it black sometime this weekend too, because, well, I’m cool. :P
No, really. I am not just blogging for the sake of it; I actually have something to say today.
I filled my entire memoir account!!
I know, I find it incredible myself.
I wrote 512 memoirs.
That’s, like, 3072 words. (I knew the calculator on the computer was good for something)
It’s exciting, isn’t it? I think so too.
Although, when you think about it, lots of them end up getting stuffed, so it’s only about, 503 memoirs. But that’s okay, because it’s still pretty damn good.
Yeah now I have nothing to say.
La di lah.
Hmm…
Oh wells, I have to get ready for work.
I’ll see you under the moon
PS: I’ll explain that one day I promise
PPS: I bought my creating connections kiddies lollies today!! Oh, I’m so generous. :)
PPPS: I got a haircut today!! Now it’s all awesome and not so annoying
PPPPS: I’m rinsing it black sometime this weekend too, because, well, I’m cool. :P
Friday, 30 January 2009
Because I can't help myself
I do this because I'm insane. Tagged by ML.
Dear Rosa,
I don’t really know how to tell you this, but our romance is over. I think I realized it when your dog ran amok as you ate an enchilada and I saw you carve your initials into the crazy monk. I’m sure you’re scarred enough to understand that there is no solution to this. I’m returning the pictures from L.A to you, but I’ll keep your neighbour, Martin as a memory. You should also know that I always will remember the apartment building .
Go and drown yourself,
Ebony
RULES:
Do the “Letter MEME”. Tag no less than 5 other people, and leave them a comment, informing them that they have been tagged. Then copy the “How-to” Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry.->
How you do the Letter Meme:
Dear (the last person who left a comment on your journal):
I don’t really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I’m sure you’re ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I’m returning ___8___ to you, but I’ll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .
___12___,
-Your name-
1. What’s the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I’ll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn’t match
Grey - You’re a pervert
Yellow - I’m selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You’re a loser
Other - I’m in love with your sister
2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes
3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women’s clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife
4. What’s the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out
5. What’s the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United’s goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk
6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed
7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I’ve felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn’t exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we’re cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I’m allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I’m open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks
8. What’s the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service
9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David’s tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college
10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off
/Z - Never liked
11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics
12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog LeonardEgypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family
OK, i think only five people actually read my blog, so you've all been tagged. :L
Now copy it, and do it yourself!!
Dear Rosa,
I don’t really know how to tell you this, but our romance is over. I think I realized it when your dog ran amok as you ate an enchilada and I saw you carve your initials into the crazy monk. I’m sure you’re scarred enough to understand that there is no solution to this. I’m returning the pictures from L.A to you, but I’ll keep your neighbour, Martin as a memory. You should also know that I always will remember the apartment building .
Go and drown yourself,
Ebony
RULES:
Do the “Letter MEME”. Tag no less than 5 other people, and leave them a comment, informing them that they have been tagged. Then copy the “How-to” Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry.->
How you do the Letter Meme:
Dear (the last person who left a comment on your journal):
I don’t really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I’m sure you’re ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I’m returning ___8___ to you, but I’ll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .
___12___,
-Your name-
1. What’s the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I’ll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn’t match
Grey - You’re a pervert
Yellow - I’m selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You’re a loser
Other - I’m in love with your sister
2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes
3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women’s clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife
4. What’s the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out
5. What’s the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United’s goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk
6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed
7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I’ve felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn’t exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we’re cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I’m allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I’m open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks
8. What’s the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service
9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David’s tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college
10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off
/Z - Never liked
11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics
12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog LeonardEgypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family
OK, i think only five people actually read my blog, so you've all been tagged. :L
Now copy it, and do it yourself!!
I know someone famous!
Today's blog has to include Alvi, because I told him on the bus today thay he should read my blog, and he says he doesn't read anyone's blog, but we all know he reads Amy's, and he says that's cuz she writes about him. So today, I am writing about Alvi (and he's gonna read it, HI ALVI!!).
If you guys have ever heard of him, it's probably because he's "Amy's friend" but he was actually my friend first. I met him in primary and now he catches my bus twice a week, and that's how he met Amy, one day when she was coming home with me.
Also, here's something cool, Alvi is going to be in All Saints, in 10 episodes time as Injured Guy's Best Friend. WATCH IT!!! He got paid $400 for it (But I won't hold that against him). Anyways, yay for Alvi.
But I have nothing else to say, really, I just wanted to keep up my posting everyday of recent times (and mention Alvi). I'm really tired actually, mainly because I'm not eating...
Oh yeah, I'm sick, again.
Ever since I went to this weird Thai food restaurant in Coolangatta (TRY AND SAY THAT WITHOUT SOUDING BOGAN). Anyways, now I'm getting really nauseous, so I've stopped eating things with fat or dairy in them. Yes, that's like, everything. Except lollies. And soft drink. Which I don't even like.
So yeah, I haven't had a meal in about 4 days or so, so now I'm really tired, and weak. Le sigh.
Oh wells, I have to go...
I'll see you under the moon.
If you guys have ever heard of him, it's probably because he's "Amy's friend" but he was actually my friend first. I met him in primary and now he catches my bus twice a week, and that's how he met Amy, one day when she was coming home with me.
Also, here's something cool, Alvi is going to be in All Saints, in 10 episodes time as Injured Guy's Best Friend. WATCH IT!!! He got paid $400 for it (But I won't hold that against him). Anyways, yay for Alvi.
But I have nothing else to say, really, I just wanted to keep up my posting everyday of recent times (and mention Alvi). I'm really tired actually, mainly because I'm not eating...
Oh yeah, I'm sick, again.
Ever since I went to this weird Thai food restaurant in Coolangatta (TRY AND SAY THAT WITHOUT SOUDING BOGAN). Anyways, now I'm getting really nauseous, so I've stopped eating things with fat or dairy in them. Yes, that's like, everything. Except lollies. And soft drink. Which I don't even like.
So yeah, I haven't had a meal in about 4 days or so, so now I'm really tired, and weak. Le sigh.
Oh wells, I have to go...
I'll see you under the moon.
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