Harry Potter movies

Sometimes it's amazing how little it takes to make me happy.

Just one day of watching Harry Potter movies with you and talking about bad fan fic, eating chicken nuggets with too much sauce, as you cough up phlegm every five minutes. I want to watch movies with you when you're sick and take care of you for as long as you'll let me.

There are some memories we make that last for a long time and I hope that one of them is watch Harry Potter 5, for the first time ever, in your arms.

(You make me so happy that even the bad weather can't bring me down)

(If I ever wanted to cast a patronus, all I would have to do is think of you)

And then you say things like "Why is there a part of me that dies every time I finish a story?" and I just want to cuddle you forever and not let you lose any more of yourself.

But I'm happy, you know? I'm the happy I thought I'd lost.

Self discovery

I haven't really been around lately. I'm spending some time trying to figure out who I am and what I want. It's quite an interesting experience for me. Oh, and also, I'm sick. Which is really inconvenient at the moment, considering all the assessment tasks tomorrow =S. But yeah, I'm sorta studying around it. And like, I've finished most of everything before this weekend (it's called being organised :L)

So yeah, on my journey to finding myself, and I stumble upon the words of my friends over at smithteens and postsecret.
And somehow, things are starting to be okay. =)



"It's not complicated. I'm just lonely." - J600y3

"Sometimes I lose both my minds." - DancesWithDisaster

"Danced alone in the rain today." - LendMeYourHeart?

"Save an egg. Crack a smile." - nancyhae



"I looked up.
Saw a spider.
And screamed.
Where did my manlyness go?
...More importantly.
Where did the fucking spider go!?" - LasVegas

"I regret my childhood. Oh well." - staring_longingly

"Gravity: Thanks for holding me down." - DanielleBlews

"Is this nothingness I feel depression?" - XxmoonbeamxX



"We are the people our parents warned us about.

- Jimmy Buffett" - J600y3

"Do you think he'll notice today?" - liesonthebackofmyhand

"Number three on school's weird list." - poetic justiss

"I'm always too willing to forgive, to fall right back into what used to be." - harrypotterstarz



"Remembering you is ruining loving him." - pb&j

"Momentary happiness in Hell. How ironic." - SilverFireRing

"Why cry when everything is perfect?" - Music's Note

"She Counts Calories. I Count Stars." - cookies.make.me.happy


"Accidentally said I loved him. Shit" - BehindMyBlueEyes

"Grandma's in the fucking hospital again." - erikamargery

"Like an untenderized steak... life's tough." - sparxsollaria

"Relatively happy. Probably related to avoidance." - Lucy Golightly

The lonely people

Confession #68: As we sat there, and we watched, you told me how awful her mother was. How over protective, over bearing, how cruel she was. You told me she wanted too much from her child. And I just laughed a little on the inside.

"Forty years ago, the Beatles asked the world a simple question: they wanted to know where all the lonely people came from. My latest theory is that a great many of the lonely people come from hospitals. More precisely, the surgical wing of hospitals. As surgeons, we ignore our own needs so we can meet our patients' needs. We ignore our friends and families so we can save other people's friends and families. Which means that, at the end of the day, all we really have is ourselves. And nothing in this world can make you feel more alone than that."

"Nothing will ever please you mom." – tiggerbabyy

Today was a chocolate sort of day. But, as per my resolutions, I didn't have any chocolate. I might have some later.
Today was just a bad day. Everything hurt, sitting down hurt, but getting up hurt more. Moving my head hurt, but focusing on one point hurt more. Everything just hurt.
I feel sick. And I had a bad hair day. Mum woke up and said "what happened to your hair?" Which, is, sorta funny, I guess.
Ugh, I dunno, I'm too tired to care.

Meredith: Just leave me alone.
Derek: I just want to make sure you're alright.
Meredith: No! I'm not alright? Okay? Are you satisfied? I'm not alright. Because you have a wife, and you call me a whore, and our dog died, and now you're looking at me. Stop looking at me.
Derek: I am not looking at you. I am not looking at you.
Meredith: You are looking at me. And you watch me. And Finn has plans. And I like Finn. He's perfect for me, and I'm really trying here to be happy, and I can't breathe. I can't breathe with you looking at me like that so just stop!
Derek: Do you think I want to look at you? That I wouldn't rather be looking at my wife? I'm married. I have responsibilities. She, she doesn't drive me crazy. She doesn't make it impossible for me to feel normal. She doesn't make me sick to my stomach thinking about my veterinarian touching her with his hands. Man, I would give anything not to be looking at you.

IT HURTS

It hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts

My stomach is bloody killing me

Owowowowow

It’s like a really sharp pain, and then, I feel like im gonna throw up

And you know what the best thing for nausea is?

LEMONADE. I know this from experience.

But NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Because I have PHARYNGITIS!!!!

And im not allowed cold drinks for 3 days!!!!!!!!!!

Owowowowoowow

Oh wow, crying actually helps ease the pain.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Why can't I believe even myself?

I'm not actually working today because I swapped my shift with Nikki, but I don't have time to blog cuz NCIS is on.

updates:

- charlie is home, but still a little sick. he'll recover, i'm sure
- i lost my RAP this morning (no kidding) so i redid it in recess, and crossed my fingers that SOMEONE could read my writing. (again, no joke)
- performed dance in p2. Shailin was awesome! The rest of us? We... danced. :L But we got our message across so it should be okay
- i have recently had a number of epiphanies. including: who the hell am i? how can i do an assignment on a person i dont know? is this really who i am? is it worth lying to myself to be happy? if i hate fake people so much, how come im one of them?
- geo essay in p3 today. i only wrote 3 pages (shock horror!)(judy wrote over 5!). i think it almost made sense.
- i am getting very sick. but not sick enough to take tomorrow off school =(
- there is a buglet on my printer. my dad has identified him as a silverfish. he is IN my printer now. he may get smushded by something.
- my green chucks totally starred in a dance today that i missed. stupid RAP. but lisa filmed it, so i will eventually watch it
- rosa said that 33 people in our grade blog. i plan on finding and following all of them. this shall be fun.
- two very degrading things happened in drama today: jayson finished his assignment before i started mine; i cried in front of kolodziej. im not sure which is worse.
- i spent a great deal of time on MSN today for the first day in... forever. it was awesome
- charlie no longer lets me open multiple tabs of internet. this thoroughly pisses me off. dont tell Charlie though, he's finally being nice

and that concludes my today.
wow, a lot of stuff happened.

Haha, oh yeah, and welcome to my new readers ;) Must love Google, right?

Ciao

PS: I'll see you under the moon

I know someone famous!

Today's blog has to include Alvi, because I told him on the bus today thay he should read my blog, and he says he doesn't read anyone's blog, but we all know he reads Amy's, and he says that's cuz she writes about him. So today, I am writing about Alvi (and he's gonna read it, HI ALVI!!).

If you guys have ever heard of him, it's probably because he's "Amy's friend" but he was actually my friend first. I met him in primary and now he catches my bus twice a week, and that's how he met Amy, one day when she was coming home with me.

Also, here's something cool, Alvi is going to be in All Saints, in 10 episodes time as Injured Guy's Best Friend. WATCH IT!!! He got paid $400 for it (But I won't hold that against him). Anyways, yay for Alvi.


But I have nothing else to say, really, I just wanted to keep up my posting everyday of recent times (and mention Alvi). I'm really tired actually, mainly because I'm not eating...

Oh yeah, I'm sick, again.

Ever since I went to this weird Thai food restaurant in Coolangatta (TRY AND SAY THAT WITHOUT SOUDING BOGAN). Anyways, now I'm getting really nauseous, so I've stopped eating things with fat or dairy in them. Yes, that's like, everything. Except lollies. And soft drink. Which I don't even like.
So yeah, I haven't had a meal in about 4 days or so, so now I'm really tired, and weak. Le sigh.

Oh wells, I have to go...

I'll see you under the moon.

Random. I'm sick, leave me alone.

Today’s vocab word: Abhor
What it means: To loathe/hate
Why I care: Allan used it in his poem :) and I was curious… ta da!

Today’s 6 words: Happy endings are just unfinished stories. – LoveMeEasy

I was watching star dust today. So beautiful, but it ended with the words “happily ever after”, and that made me cry :P weird, huh? That something so beautiful can also be a reminder of how ugly the world is. Okay, okay, I’m going all DNM again, I’m very sorry, I’ll just leave it at this: stardust is cool :):)

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OK, I’m gonna go now
Because I’m sick
And if there is ever a time that you should be relieved from prioir NaBloPoMo commitments, it is when you’re sick.
Ciao

I'd Lie - Taylor Swift

You were like, gone, all last week
Your sister: My brother is really really sick

Thanks, that wasn't at all unsettling
Considering you'd been away for most the week, and when you came back on Wednesday, it was only for HALF THE DAY! bludger.
And then ur mummy picked you up. lucky...

i sorta just want to know if you're ok
I miss you, and I'm worried about you.
Which sounds stupid, but is true.

Stil away today... still miss you...

Please... just come back, and look OK. Not like last week. Look healthy again.


I don’t think that passenger seat
Has ever looked this good to me
He tells me about his night
And I count the colors in his eyes
He’ll never fall in love he swears
As he runs his fingers through his hair
I’m laughing cause I hope he's wrong
I don't think it ever crossed his mind
He tells a joke I fake a smile
That I know all his favorite songs
And..

[chorus:]
I could tell you his favorite color's green
He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful, he has his father’s eyes
And if you asked me if I love him,
I’d lie

He looks around the room
Innocently overlooks the truth
Shouldn’t a light go on?
Doesn’t he know that I’ve had him memorized for so long?
He sees everything black and white
Never let nobody see him cry
I don’t let nobody see me wishing he was mine

[chorus]

He stands there then walks away
My god if I could only say
I’m holding every breath for you...

He’d never tell you but he can play guitar
I think he can see through everything
But my heart
First thought when I wake up is
My god he’s beautiful
So I put on my make up
And pray for a miracle

Yes I could tell you his favorite color's green
He loves to argue oh and it kills me
His sister's beautiful he has his father’s eyes
And if you asked me if I love him
If you asked me if I love him
I’d lie

This week at school(although i didnt really turn up), this week

been a weird week, my group had a bit of an epiphany, well, those with blogs did =)
first week back to school, everyone was weird and miserable
i got really sick from food poisoning which sorta sucked, but i got a day oiff school

HIGHLIGHTS

1. sister got her LLLLs! Yayyy
2. watched NCIS s4 e2
3. mums bday – going out with all friends
4. choir excursion
5. Monday off school to bludge, still did hw tho

LOWLIGHTS

1. food poisoning – really, really sick, kept throwing up - TOO sick to watch TV!!!
2. missing too much school – thus getting much hw
3. didn’t hand in history poster, gonna get penalty

all in all, the week wasnt that bad...couldnt lived without the throwing up though...

This week at home, this week

Well, well, well, three holes in the ground…what a week.

Hi Lights

1. WYD - My sister went to WYD on tues, thurs and yesterday to ‘brave the elements’ and watch the pope. She was on the news on Tuesday, but we missed it =(. The next WYD is in Madrid, I have a few Aunts and cousins there, so me and mi sis will freeload with them for a week, before moving on to visit the rest of our rellies in Spain…hopefully…if we can save up.

2. Mamma Mia – went to see it on Monday, great movie! Makes you wanna get up and sing in the aisles. And wish you had some friends like those guys, hopefully ill keep my friends too =). My dad + sis also went to see Batman, but I was too sick, and sorta too scared too. Looks dark.

3. BDAY – my grandfather and cousin’s bday last Thursday, celebrated today, was heaps of fun, my second cousin didn’t remember me, he’s 4, I forgive him. I played with Play-doh, heaps of fun.

4. HAIR – I streaked my hair yesterday, its not that noticeable, unless ur my family and see my hair everyday.

Lo Lights

1. SICK - I’ve been sick since Thursday, and what fun that was. Tried to get some homework done, but couldn’t find any info on pigs, and couldn’t think enough to write English speech. Watched my documentaries for English, but fell asleep during both. Watched March of the Penguins a second time, and managed to fill in the questions.

2. SCHOOL - tomorrow! But im not sure if ill go, I have heaps of homework to get done, and I missed out on half my holiday cuz I was too sick to do anything. So I might use tomorrow to catch up…if I can convince my mum.BLOG – had no time to blog, hardly went on MSN, was too tired and too sick most of the time too.

and thats it for this week at home, this week