Give me something to believe in

one - i don't tell you that you quote my dreams. i just smile to myself and go along with it, knowing that it makes things worse and better. but the better is worth the worse.
TWO - I TOLD THEM HOW LONG IT HAD BEEN SICE I'VE GENUINELY SMILED. I TOLD THEM I COULD PROBABLY GIVE IT TO THEM IN DAYS. THEY TOLD ME THAT ONE DAY I WOULD SMILE AGAIN. THEY CAN'T SEE HOW BROKEN I AM.
three - walking around that place was surreal. expecting time to just disapear, and for everything to go back to those few moments. for that feeling again. but time didn't budge, it ticked on as it does...
four - i admit that i have no idea whatsoever what i'm doing. but i'm doing something,i'm not just sitting down and taking it. so this may be wrong, or stupid, but i'm on a journey.
five - stop telling me to do whatever i want. life will never be that simple. tell me to be happy, or tell me to be me, but you don't get it both ways.

Now do we all believe that I'm a bad blogger? :L
I'm very sorry, I was definately gonna blog yesterday after school, and then... I went memoiring, and then had to work.
And today, well, you see, yesterday I remembered that my Half yearly for IPT is on Monday (yes, I'm the only one in the world who can forget something that important) so then, I SHOULD be study. (We all saw the emphasis on SHOULD, right?) But this is more fun, and makes me more relaxed. And... studiable. Wow, I am such a bullshit artist.
Anyways, I would like to share with you things that I have learnt about myself and the world in the past few... days? weeks? i dunno, something.
(Note: I have 5 thingimos at the top, simply because there is 5 things I wanted to say)

1. Girls can be really bitchy. I mean, REALLY bitchy. Not that guys can't be. Just that guys find it easier to be friends than girls do, because guys can be friends with someone they're not totally friends with, and it's ok, where as girls need to like everyone in their group, or else all hell breaks loose. You may have noticed me spending more time with my guy friends than girl friends lately, and I think this is the reason. Maybe.

2. I am physicaly incapable of having a crush on someone. I usually love them. I'm like that with a lot of things, it's all or nothing (good song ;)) which in a lot of way is a good thing, but sometimes it's not. If you can understand that. you understand that, right? Gah.

3. I think that relationships between people of different religions never last. Not that it's impossible, just that usually you have different wants and needs. This makes my life very impossible, as I am "religiously confused". I don't believe in heaven or hell. But I believe there's some sort of creator. But I don't believe that everything is predetermined, that's just the easy way out. I think that you have to work for what you want to achieve. But I pray, still, to whoever this creator may be. And I ask God for advice, but I think my conscience usually answers. See?? Imagine trying to find someone as confused as me.

4. If someone cheated on me I wouldn't care. Haha, I found that out at camp. Because I believe it is possible to love more than one person at once, and to love them for different reasons. So I wouldn't mind if someone cheated on me, as long as they still loved me, or, at least, liked me. Yes, you guys probably all think I'm silly, too, and I probably am...

We shall continue the blog with memoirs =)

I feel emptiness. And it burns. - Kodia

Emptiness does that to you sometimes. It gets sore. You feel weak and inadequate, and you definately feel empty. But why do we feel this way? How can someone be empty? Why is someone empty? And why does it burn?

I'm following this star to infinity - October

I watched stardust again yesterday, and it's still the same as the first time, it's still... annoyingly similar to my life, just more beautiful, and ending with a 'happily ever after'. But I used to glow like that. Out of control with beautiful emotions. And my glowing left me vulnerable, because everyone else could see what I couldn't.

It made sense. Too much sense. - coulda.been.a.comet

It sounds like "it's quiet. too quiet", but it's actually true. because when things make a lot of sense they're usually not true. oh yes, life is wonderfully ironic.

Rest of my life started today - prettystrangers

Oh how inspirational. But the rest of my life did start today. Everyday I make a concious decision to rewrite everything. And everything is rewritten from today. Speaking of rewriting, I wrote more of my story when I was in QLD that I still haven't blogged. This from the girl who hasn't contacted her books for school yet.

I really did wish for you - carmabelle135

Everyday I wish for you. Everyday. (Excpet the day before drama assm was due, because it took priority). And everyday I wake up to another disappointment. But I like the hope. And who knows, maybe i I get disappointed enough, I'll give up. Actually, I doubt that a lot. But it doesn't matter. I'll still wish for you. Everyday.


Ok, well, IPT isn't going to study itself, and I've spent too long doing this.
Goodbye all, I'll see you under the moon.