Finally stopping to smell the rainbows

one - when i reread it, i realise how much of a jackass you are. all i have to say is thank goodness.
TWO - Rule 3#: Never be unreachable.
three - I have an urge to end my blogs with "Live long and prosper" but I am stopping myself from doing that because I don't want you guys to think I'm totally pyscho.
four - I stay up late and write now. I write stories, I write memoirs, I write things for my blog, I write until my clock reaches 11:11. I make a wish, and fall asleep. Yes, I am extraordinarily sleep deprived, and I should stop doing this... but what if it comes true??

Remember me saying how unhappy I was?
Well I'm really happy now!!!
(That always happens after I blog)
(I LOVE IT!)
So Nikki and I started dancing around our house to the songs in our heads. Which we verbalised. Here is where you feel sorry for my parents. And dog. Because I think only he could hear some of those notes we hit.

Anyway, today, I found out something very important about myself.
Even MORE important than the high 5 thing. Do you want to know what it is?

I SUCK at solitaire.

I mean, seriously, out of 10 games, you should win more than one, shouldn't you? How can I be so BAD at things that most people can do with relative ease? Is there something wrong with me? (on second thoughts, don't answer that)

Plus, I play with real cards. (I KNOW!!! I'm in the wrong generation)(But it's only cuz I have limits on my computer time per day) So when I get stuck I cheat. (This is what I do with life as well) (and monopoly) (and 13 when playing with osmina/bryan). And I consider cheating more than 5 times to mean I've lost.
now you wouldn't think it would be that easy to actually LOSE that way.
But I posess some sort of inhumane skill or being able to lose any given game of solitaire.
THAT is why I cheat. Because then I at least get some sort of self satisfaction ot of the game.

See? Aren't you glad you read this blog?
Otherwise you would never know about the solitaire thing.

Oh, and today my Dad started ranting at my TV about how everyone was silly and Split Enz was so much better than Crowded House, and all I could do was smile. These are the moments I live for =)

AND I JUST WON A GAME!! AND I DIDN'T EVEN CHEAT.
Maybe I'm not doomed afterall.

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It is so ironic that I am going to write the lyrics to the song you recommended to me, after blogging about you earlier, and tlaking to no one but you on MSN before that. And if anyone knoew who this was they would kill me, which is part of what draws me to you. I don't want to dislike you simply because everyone else thinks I should. This is my way of giving you a chance.

Turn away,

If you could get me a drink

Of water 'cause my lips are chapped and faded

Call my aunt Marie

Help her gather all my things

And bury me in all my favorite colors,

My sisters and my brothers, still,

I will not kiss you,

'Cause the hardest part of this,

Is leaving you.

Now turn away,

'Cause I'm awful just to see

'Cause all my hairs abandoned all my body,

Oh, my agony,

Know that I will never marry,

Baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo,

But counting down the days to go

It just ain't living

And I just hope you know

That if you say

(if you say)

Goodbye today

(goodbye today)

I'd ask you to be true

(cause I'd ask you to be true)

'Cause the hardest part of this

Is leaving you

'Cause the hardest part of this

Is leaving you