Unavailable. Out living my fairytale realities.

Ankit: "Use a ruler, that line's about as straight as Rayan"

You should all remember that on Mondays I have no life. And even though IPT was cancelled, EVERY SINGLE TEACHER decided to give me homework. Except for Kolodziej. :L. But I've been working on my assignment for him, so that still counts. Oh, and Payne, but being in the same room as him is torture, so I'm not thanking him for anything.

Anyway, because I have no time to blog properly, I am going to share with you my thoughts on the "essence of me". Here goes:
(I don't know why it's in third person, that's just how I write)
(I wrote this between 9:30 and 11:30 last night. I KNEW I needed sleep, but I can't sleep before 11:11 anymore, out of habit, so this is what I did instead)
(I might use some of it for my assignment :L)
(I finally do something productive with my useless spare time!!)
(Add anything you can think of, I seriously need help for this)
(There's a song at the end, Delta this time =))
(Sorry for all the brackets)
(ily ;))

She’s a girl who loves jeans + hoop earrings. She hates the colour pink and people who are fake. She loves music + Star Trek. Her life usually revolves around love, whether it be a movie, a song, or a friend’s relationship problems. Green describes her nature, and yellow describes her personality.
She believes in karma, magic, wishing on a star, love-at-first-sight, and dreams coming true. She’s a dreamer. Her greatest ambition is to play the guitar, her worst fear is turning out like her mother. She howls at the full moon, and wishes only on stars that look happy. Her fake smile is beautiful, and everyone thinks she’s always happy. She loves her school, her dog, her family, and her job. But more than that, she loves her computer.
Her friends are amazing. Although they act immature, they are incredibly clever, and although they love to tease, they love each other. She sleeps at the wrong end of her bed, and colours outside of the lines. She hugs her pillow every night, and says good night to the stars.
She wishes on every eyelash, Santa, wishing well, 11:11, first star and birthday candle. She can write her whole life in six words, but can’t keep a diary for longer than a week. She hates sport, needles, and parents who swear at their children. She cries a little bit too much, but usually no one notices. She has big dreams and believes in herself. When she dies, she wants to have a FUNeral. She believes in dancing, eating, and talking too much, and she celebrates everything.
She has a weak heart, a weak head, and a weak stomach; but she has a strong smile, and a strong soul. She has a brilliant memory, and an incredible knack for getting into trouble. She twists the truth with metaphors, and has ways of making people question themselves. Her bedroom walls are decorated in song lyrics, poems, movie quotes and rainbow swirls. She loves to crazy dance and sing at the top of her lungs.

If it's okay
I'll leave the bed light on
And place your water glass where it belongs
And if alright
I'll lie awake at night
Pretending i'm curled up at your side

See i'm circling these patterns
Living out of memories
I'm still a long way from accepting it
That there's just no you and me

But if i still believe you love me
Maybe i'll survive
So i tell myself you're coming home
Like you've done a million times
And if it's alright
I'll still be loving you
'cause i can't break it to my heart

Is it just me
Did i commit a crime
I won't believe that loving you
Is just a waste of time
Or was it in my head
I'm reading into things that you never said

'cause i still don't have the answers
To why we couldn't work it out
I wanna think it's something that i did
So i can turn it back around

But if i still believe you love me
Maybe i'll survive
So i tell myself you're coming home
Like you've done a million times
And if it's alright
I'll still be loving you
'cause i can't break it to my heart

And nothing will come between us
I wanna convince myself we're perfect
In every single way as long as i can keep
The truth away from my heart
Oh 'cause i can't break it to my heart

'cause i still don't have all the answers
To why we couldn't work it out
I wanna think it's something that i did
So i can turn it back around

But if i still believe you love me
Maybe i'll survive
So i tell myself you're coming home
Like you've done a million times
And if it's alright
I'll still be loving you
'cause i can't break it to my heart