can't lose what i never had

This is too hard.
This is what I need you for.
There are things that I am incapable of dealing with.
And you... get it.
not the my incapability, the thing im dealing with.
cuz its been you

omgsh, im being stupid, its been me too
but see.... not the same way it was you
because i went about it the empathy way
and you went about it the logical way

see... i dont know how to explain the logical way
when the empthy way doesnt work
because you never had to explain yourself to me
because... i got my way, i didnt need to get yours

and no one knows who this is for or what it is about
but its soo important that someone get this
even though no one can
just in case the person this is about (not to) is reading it
and thats my stupid mistake...

do you remember when you used to be able to help?
when you weren't too caught up in your own little world
to care about me
and my feelings
and what im going through

back when you didnt care so much about yourself
that you couldnt see how much i hurt...
and i lost that person...

but, i guess, you can't lose what you never had.