My Limits.

well well well
because my mum lacks originality in punishment, i have been banned from my comp
(however im allowed on when home alone, or when everyone else is asleep i.e. now)
So why am I banned? be cause i "dont appreciate my family"... yeah.

But I have nothing to say anyway, I'm just blogging to tell you that I won't be here for a while.
Because my mum sees no limit on punishmentwhen am I allowed back on?When I "learn to appreciate my family"
Mum, when is that? How can I mark that on a calendar?
Basically, when she's in a better mood.
ie. when we haven't recently visited any members of her extended family
i think my cousin's wedding yesterday almost sent her over the edge
and i guess i see her point... her family all hate her
it must be really hard to deal with that

...you know what I realised?
I am sooo melodramatic, it's soo funny!:) I love laughing at myself, because myself won't be hurt like other people, and I can't laugh without laughing at someone
Oooooh, it's all so tragic!! :L:L

Actually, really shit stuff has been hapening all week.
Lots of it is just annoying, but one thing actually hurt me.
Who wants to hear a story??

You: "I do! I do!"

Ok, here goes.
On Tuesday, my Grandfather went to some place that he goes to on Tuesdays. (I can't remember what it is, okay? Sue me!). But he was having a lot of trouble breathing, and couldn't even talk, so they rushed him to hospital. My Dad went to visit him, but I had to work. We found out that he had had a minor stroke. On Wednesday, they found a blockage in an artery in his neck, this is what caused the stroke. If it wan't remived, it would almost definately cause a major stroke, and then would be very likely to cause permanent damage.
Problem was, operation to remove the blockage highly risky, and there was a chance he wouldn't make it out. He didn;t want the surgery. Somehow, my dad and auntys (my uncle is in NZ) managed to convince him to have the surgery. Then people started talking about him as if he coulsn't possibly survive, it was like they were expecting him not to.
It really scared me, hearing people talk about him like that. Like he had no chance. I've never dealt with the prospect of someone dying before. When my grandmother died, it was unexpected, she was meant to come out of hospital the next day, it was the last thing people were expecting.
On Thursday, my grandfather had the surgery, and survived. He's still in intensive care, and for the first 24 hours after surgery, everytime he woke, he got really anxious and worried, and started freaking out. He's okay now, and he can walk around.

I still haven't visited him, although my dad goes everyday, it's always after work, and I haven't been given the chance. I don't know if I would, anyway, because it would scare me too much.

OK, now you've heard my story you forgive me for being a real shit at school all week? And whining about everything, and just randomly staring into space and looking like something is killing me?

You: "Of course I do Ebony, I love you!"

Aww, thankyou :)

Well, now I'm gonna go write/read 6 word memoirs, cuz... I haven't all week, and I'm getitng withdrawals.

Ooooh, big THANKYOU to MayLyn!! Who, during the week, published my meoirs when I couldn;t, you saved my life darling!!! :)

Oh, and I found out which memoir made it into the book.
I'm really annoyed, I don't even llike this one, it's so shitty, it didn't even get featured! It's so bleh... but I'll write it for you guys anyways, cuz I said I would.

Been kissed once. High school dare.

Seriously, it's not even, like, nice. It's just silly.
If IIII had to choose one of my memoirs to go in the book...

Hmm, my most commonly fabourited is "I gave you everything... you left" but I don't like it that much.
"I don't care. Just come home." I like that, sort of. It's like, it's got story to it.
"I'm not special. I'm just me" That's cool. It makes me smile.
"Don't need you. I'll love myself!" I love how stubborn that sounds.
"I think too much about everything" Enough said.

"The stars spell out your name" Reminds me of a song that reminds me of my grandmother, so I like that one, but I'm bias.

"I see beauty in everything ugly" That one gives me hope. Like, light can overcome shadow. (Omgsh, that sounded so hippy :L And still, so deep :))

"You are beautiful. Never forget that." Ngaw, how sweet.

OOOh, I found it!
If I was going to put just ONE of my memoirs in the book, it would be:

I'd catch a star for you.

Mainly because that reminds me of Stardust, thus reminding me of... happiness. But also, because, when I wrote that, Joannie said to me on MSN
""II'd catch a star for you" that's so sweet"
And that made my day! A million times over.
And I KNOW you don't read my blog Joannie, because you suck!
But nevertheless, I'd catch a star for you!!!!!!!!! I would, really! You want a star?? Cuz I'll go find one :)

Oh. My. Gosh.

What is it with me and really long blogs? Remember when they used to be petite??
BUT! I haven;t blogged all week, and you guys were getting withdrawals, yes?

You: *pause*... yes.

I thought so.

Ehh, leaving now, ciao!

I'll see you under the moon!