~ Amy <3 ~

Today I was talking to Lizzie. About Amy mainly…and 8R…and how much we miss both. Because no 8R is what made us lose Amy.

I want her back. And I know that it’s selfish, cuz she’s been my friend for 2 years, and I’m sure that someone else deserves her more, but I don’t care. I miss how I used to look at her and smile, and she’d ask me what was wrong cuz she could see through my smile. I miss being surprised when she asked me if I was okay, cuz I was trying so hard to cover up that I wasn’t.

And sometimes I’d tell her I was fine, and sometimes I’d actually tell her what was wrong… and she’d make it go away, she’d fix it. It seemed so easy to her.

I guess I just want it to go away again…

Shine - Aly & AJ

You came back today… I missed you, you know.

AND your group sat near us at recess, but you weren’t there, you were only there at lunch. Well, half of lunch, you had to go to sport…

But of course, we crossed paths again, yes, our Wednesday ritual. And you were wrong, I wasn’t late…you just walked fast!

But it was nice to see you again, even nicer to know that you definitely weren’t sick, and nicer still to discover that you do actually know I exist, and I’m not just a fly on the wall. OK…I was a little late. And the nicest of all was the train trip from Glenfield to Holsworthy this afternoon…yes, you know what I’m talking about, so I need not go into detail.

uhmm, yeh, have my happy yousong

When I've gone too far
When I've had enough
When I'm losin' ground
Feelin' out of touch
I don't run and hide
I just look inside
For a simple piece of mind
Like a neighborhood
On a city street
I know the path
It knows my feet
And when I feel afraid
Feel like checkin' out
You stand up and take a bow

You shine when others need you
You speak and I believe you
I know the light, it guides you
I'll join the line that walks behind you

[Chorus]
You shine, you shine
Like a window to your heart I see
All the possibilities
You shine, you shine
And everyday's another opportunity
To shine

The way you see the world
The way it sees you back
You're the photographer
You take the photograph
If you don't like the way
The way it looks at you
You've got all the power to choose
Turn right, turn left, turn the other way
Make it light, make it dark, make it go away
I love the way you write the script to your own life
You're the star, you're on tonight

And when I feel unnoticed
Just two steps back from hopeless
You turn my world around with a single smile
That's who you are, that's who you are

[Chorus]

I know the light, the light that guides
I'll join the line that walks behind you

You shine, you shine
In my life I know you shine
You shine, you shine
Like a window to your heart I see
All the possibilities
You shine
And everyday's another opportunity
To shine

Longer - Delta Goodrem

people in music stole your song...the first one i ever associated with you, first one on my blog...shame on them...

hmm, you were away yesterday and today, people at school are saying youre sick, but your not..i saw you yesterday, you were fine! theyre also saying you got rejected by some chick... so i guess i sorta feel sorry for you...
but at least i still got to see you
and NO, im not stalking you, i only know that stuff cuz ur friends on the bus were talking about it

well, i guess i just wanted to say sorry, u seemed a bit... off... yesterday.

you know, i thought about telling my sister about you, cuz she knows you but 1. she actually knows you and shed find me weirder and 2. i promised my group i wouldnt tell anyone anything beofre them...and they dont really wanna know

so goodbye
and here, have my old song

I see you everyday
I guess we walk the same way
To wherever we’re going
Every morning and every night
Do you smile to be polite?
No way of knowing

I can’t explain it
But I’m not complaining
If I’m happy or sad
If only we had

Just a minute longer. than this
Just a little closer. than this
I would get to know you
A little bit better
I could tell you
If only we had
Just a minute longer

A moment had arrived
It was just the right time
For conversation
And he asked me
What do you do?
What is your name?
Where are you from?
But before long
We’re at the station

And I was frustrated
In fact devastated
I feel happy but sad
If only we had

Just a minute longer. than this
Just a little closer. than this
I would get to know you
A little bit better
I could tell you
If only we had
Just a minute longer

I wonder
I wonder what you think about
Do you think about me?
Maybe I’m a dreamer
But I just believe
And I know what I see
Forever wishing
There would be another day
Oh if only we had
I don’t care happy or sad

Just a minute longer. than this
Just a little closer. than this
I would get to know you
A little bit better
I could tell you
If only we had
Just a minute longer

This week at school(although i didnt really turn up), this week

been a weird week, my group had a bit of an epiphany, well, those with blogs did =)
first week back to school, everyone was weird and miserable
i got really sick from food poisoning which sorta sucked, but i got a day oiff school

HIGHLIGHTS

1. sister got her LLLLs! Yayyy
2. watched NCIS s4 e2
3. mums bday – going out with all friends
4. choir excursion
5. Monday off school to bludge, still did hw tho

LOWLIGHTS

1. food poisoning – really, really sick, kept throwing up - TOO sick to watch TV!!!
2. missing too much school – thus getting much hw
3. didn’t hand in history poster, gonna get penalty

all in all, the week wasnt that bad...couldnt lived without the throwing up though...

MY PEOPLE part 2

Extract from amys blog:
“i have found myself hanging around my class friends more.. because they are in my class.. i start telling everyone everything... because im too nervous to tell yous... im scared that you might think im weirder than you thought... because the me that a lot of people know.. its just a girl who falls in love too easily. gets upset too easily and doesnt want to let go... and i wasnt like that last year... i was... just so laid-back.. i didnt really care about that many things... then... osmond.. he changed everything... i started to change... yes i admit.. osmond is the first guy i have ever loved... and every since i had... ive become sensitive to these things.. ive feel like ive been confined in a small room.. and only a few people can fit at a time... and i try inviting you into the room... but because other people tell me things.. i feel the need to let them in first... and its not about favouring.. its just.. our group as a whole.. isnt really connected in the whole romance thing... well... lisa and jenny.. you know you get involved with the other group... thats about as much as it gets... and i know how you feel ebony... i may not understand.. but i know how you feel... it hurts so bad... not being able to trust the people who you trust the most...”

well, right now, I am going to make a pact, to me, and the people of my group, and the group as a whole.
Whenever I am too nervous to tell you something, I will write it down, I will somehow tell you, and if im not ready to tell you yet, I wont tell ANYONE else.
I will never be scared that you guys will think im weirder than you thought, bcuz I know that you are so totally amazing and you will always understand, and I cant possibly get any weirder.
I will never look at you any differently for the stuff you tell me, weve been friends for so long for a reason.
I will spend more time with you…im too distant.

Another extract from amy’s blog:
“that blog.. hurt me more than anything... because.. i know it is true.. and im to blame... but i have other friends now... and now... i have to deal with old and new at the same time... and i know who my friends have been... ever since year 7... we were close friends.. and we all somehow met each other... and everyones personalities fit somewhere... but we are the group.. that fits no where... and no we are rejects.. but.. we are different to everyone else... and tahts what brings us together...”
ur not to blame, ok? NOT UR FAULT! No way! We all have new friends now, we have to, we can’t just sit by ourselves in class, nor can we just use ppl in class and then not talk to them. But we DO need to be more US, we are the group that doesn’t fit anywhere else, that’s why we all work so well together (and cuz were REALLY cool) =)

bye bye friends =) *waves

MY PEOPLE

i miss my people
its like, we're all there, but we're not us anymore
at least we all sit togather again, so thats a start, right?
but i wanna be able to talk to them like i used to, i wanna know when theyre upset, and when theyre happy, and why! its like, they all have other friends theyd prefer to talk to, they have all these inside jokes with people in their classes, and i wanna be in their class again, so someone will be able to say something like 'creaming soda' or 'osmond cheese' and well all burst out laughing, just how we used to, now we all say 'my class ppl would get that'.
WELL I DONT WANT YOUR CLASS PEOPLE TO GET IT, i want everyone else sitting around this table to get it, so YOU GO TALK TO YOUR CLASS PEOPLE if you want them to get it
its like, theyre right next to me and i miss them sooo much, cuz i know well never have what we used to, when the rest of our world could fall apart, but wed still be able to talk about it, and even if no one else got it, wed be able to say how we felt, we wouldnt have to wait for an opportunity to say it, bcuz we felt comfortable around each other
now we all seem to be losing touch, with everyone, not just each other, so we put all this energy into saving our other friendships, instead of realising that we have to save ourselve, bcuz no one is ready to admit that weve changed.
and bcuz we are all such amazingly fabulous people, everyone else in our classes always talks to us, ask for our advice, hang around us in general, and we cant just reject them, so we're there for them, even though last year we would have been with our group.
i wanna be in O. they have this cool connection, i dont think im really proper friends with a single person in my class, maybe corinne, but the rest like, just put up with me. O loves each other, they spend all their time together, even lunch and recesses, i want that sort of friend.

Now You Know - Hilary Duff

YOU BITCH!!
YOU IGNOREED ME!!
EVERY wednesday, we cross paths, you say 'hi ebony' and i say 'hi'. THATS HOW IT WORKS! i dont say hi to you first, i can hardly BREATHE around you, sometimes i dont even manage the hi, sometimes just a wave, or only a nod... that's why YOU say hello!
but nooo, today, i hear you say to your friend 'no, she should say hello...to ME!', your so mean, this is my youfix every week, now i have no youfix, i cant live without YOU! omgsh, that sounded so...desperate.
but i dont CARE! im PISSED!!!! you BITCH!
ok, so it was sort of my fault, for, like, ignoring you first, but IM SORRY! i COULDNT LOOK AT YOU!
not after...everything

In these eyes
More than words
More than anything that I spoken
As the skies turned to gray
My heart's is just about to crack open

So the story goes
There's something you should know
Before I walk away and I blow the ending

I never wanna be with out you
Oh no, hear I go
Now you know
What I feel about you
there's no running
I must have been wrong to doubt you
Oh no
There I go
No control
And I'm fallen
So now you know

Feel so light
Craving oxygen
All this truth's left me empty
Will you run?(Why don't you run)
Can you handle it?
Cause I need you to tell me

Maybe this is bold
But I'm hoping you'll stay for a happy ending

I never wanna be with out you
Oh no, hear I go
Now you know
What I feel about you
there's no running
I must have been wrong to doubt you
Oh no
There I go
No control
And I'm fallen
So now you know

No I won't look back
When I tell you what I think about you (yeah, yeah)
No I won't look back
When I tell you what I think about you (yeah, yeah)

So the story goes
Yeah
You already know
So don't be a fool
And go spoil the ending

I never wanna be with out you
Oh no, hear I go
Now you know
What I feel about you
there's no running
I must have been wrong to doubt you
Oh no
There I go
No control
And I'm fallen
So now you know

Please Don't Ask Me - John Farnham

i saw you today :)
it was nice... in a pleasant sort of way... i enjoy watching you... not in like, a creepy stalker watching, just a... content at witnessing such beauty...sort of watching :)

i wish i could still talk to you, i mean like, i tried to, and i just, sort of, spluttered,it was so...weird, i dont like that weirdness, i really dont like it, i miss you, the you i knew in like, year 7, when you sort of took me under your wing for a while...it was comfortable, maybe thats what brought this on, unenearthing all of that...

but it wasnt supposed to be weird, the holidays were supposed to help me move on, get over you, its worse now, its like, im enchanted by you, that freaks me out, and makes me feel all stalkerish... especially at the station today... lets not go there

you know, yesterday, lisa asked me if i was in love... i didnt really know what to say, i hadnt really thought about it, but i dont think i am, i told her i wasnt... i dunno if that was true, it was just how i felt

and amy said this blog was "nice... well not really nice...i dont know how to explain it", its so weird associating my people and you together, its like, my worlds colliding, when i try so hard to keep them separate, i guess, more than anything, i wanna know how my friends feel about how i feel about you...but im scared

scared what theyll think, scared how theyll react, scared they wont understand, or take it seriously... its like, this blog is really the only place i can be myself, i like that, cuz im not really an open person, in fact ive only ever been open with one person, and we havent spoken since, i like coming here, telling you things that i wont tell anyone else, cuz u wont read, so, its like, theres still that shell

im comfortable in that shell, its like, its home, i wanna stay there, but i want someone to join me... it doesnt have to be you, id probably prefer it if it was one of my friends, but i dont think it can be, my friends dont know me anymore, they dont know me at all, no one does, not even my siser, she used to though...

aahh, this blog is so emo :(

Please don't ask me what am I thinking
It's about you

And please don't ask me I never can see you
What can I do

My first impulse is to run to your side
My heart's not free, and so I must hide
Please don't ask me what I’m gonna say to you

I toss and turn can't sleep at night
It's worrying me
I go to bed turn out the light
But your face I see

It only hurts the more I pretend
That we could ever, be more than friends
Please don't ask me why I'm so in love with you

You could easily make me happy
That I know
But I’ll try my best to never tell you so

I will sing to you my love songs
And pretend
And I'll keep my secrets right down to the end

Please don't ask me why I'm not talking
I just can't explain

And please don't ask me why I go walking
Out in the rain

I could not live the lie it would take
To have you near would be a mistake

Please don't ask me why I'm still in love with you

No please don't ask me

Again, from Amy

Bold the statements that are true to you.
Italicize the statements that you wish are true.
Leave the fibs alone.

I miss somebody right now.
I do not watch tv these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I have tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I have changed mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I curse.
I’m totally smart.
I’ve broken someone’s bones.
I’m paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost and scarfree.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller ID.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I don’t hate anyone.
I’m a pretty good dancer.
I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I’m not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I’m shy around members of the opposite sex. - one in particular
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
I have tried alcohol before.
I own the South Park movie.
I would die for my best friend.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I am happy at this moment.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I study for tests most of the time.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spent ridiculous money on make up.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I’m proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at Mcdonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages. :) Big sausages. :P
I adore bright colours.
I can’t live without black eyeliner.
I usually like covers better than originals. Yes with movies, no with songs
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake’s slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve written in.
I can’t stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
I have jazz in my blood.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I wear a toe ring.
I can’t stand at least one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I’m an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex. Not like like that
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

:)

Quiz - ty amy +nina

1. Are you in a complicated love situation? LOL, no, its not really all that complicated
2. Whats the last thing you drank? uhmm, salad dressing *looks innocent*
3. Do you like beer? no
4. Is anyone in love with you? well, i think he is, but i dont wanna ask in case he says yes, that would be too creepy
5. Pepsi or Sprite? sprite.. black drinks are unnatural
6. Do looks matter to you? i guess not
7. What did you do last night? you forget already? but i had such a good time
8. Chatting with? uhh, my computer *tries to look normal*
9. If you had a superpower, what would it be? to make everybody happy...especially..(omgsh, im so selfish) me
10. Are you thinking about somebody right now? hmm, maybe a particular person who might be able to make me happy
11. Ever called somebody baby? my puppy dog :)
12. Are you happy with your life right now? uhhh sure?
13. Are you afraid of the dark? no
14. Have you ever broken someones heart? uhh, welllll...
15. Can you cook? depends, do you like burnt stuf?? nah, i can kinda
16. What do you want more than anything right now? previously mentioned happyifier :)
17. Relationship or one-night stand? relationship
18. When was the last time you cried? earlier today
19. They say you're so? loud...wonder why
20. Who made you laugh today? YOUR FACE! nah, umm, osmond, shailin, corinne, lana

something wrong with that list...none of my people made me laugh

what uve always wanted to know about me (ok, not really)

10 favourites -
1 - Colour : green
2 - Food : olivas
3 - Song : Like Only A Woman Can- Brian McFadden
4 - Movie : love actually 5 - Sport : haha, funny
6 - Season : spring
7 - Day in the week : monday :P
8 - Icecream flavour : white choc macadamia
9 - Comics/Books : hmm, toughy..dunno
10 - Soft toy : mickey bear

9 currents.
1 - Mood : uplifted
2 - Doing : take a guess
3 - Desktop : uhh, just black, used to have a pik, but i moved its location and confused my computer :L
4 - Playing : brian mcfadden - like only a woman can, wait, just changed to the beatles - octopus's garden
5 - Time : 8:51pm
6 - Annoyance : my mummy laughing at rove
7 - Thought : "what's so funny?"
8 - Boyfriend : single xD
9 - Books : was sense and sensibilty, but i stopped when i realised i didnt know what sensibility was

8 firsts.
1 - Bestfriend : aileen
2 - Crush : this guy in primary
3 - Movie : iunno
4 - Boyfriend : jaffa?
5 - Lie : "i didnt steal the cookie from the cookie jar!"
6 - Car : haha, funny
7 - Handphone : sony ericson k700i

7 lasts.
1 - Sentence : "yeh, i know" (in reply to "bonnie, ur missing rove")
2 - Drink : hehe, as in?
3 - Car ride : home from auntys
4 - Crush : you will never know (depending on who "you" are)
5 - Movie seen : oceans eleven, original
6 - Phone call : uncle
7 - Song heard : ELO - it's a living thing

6 have you ever(s).
1 - Dated one of your best friends : yeh
2 - Got arrested : nop
3 - Broke the law : i guess
4 - Confessed you like someone : ya think
5 - Been on TV : indeed, on sunrise, i was eating bacon and eggs, go me
6 - Steal : dont think so

5 boys.
1 - Hated : this guy in primary
2 - Liked : uhh, jayson
3 - Dated : same
4 - Kissed : a girl never kisses and tells ;)
5 - Hugged : omgsh, umm, every boy i know? give or take

4 things I've done today.
1 - partay!
2 - msn
3 - check emails
4 - shower :L

3 things you can hear now.
1 - ben mackenzie - hide and seek
2 - rove sayinng "hamish and andy"
3 - my sis sighing, shes got her DKT tomoz

2 things you cant live without.
1 - my blog :D
2 - my memories

1 thing you regret now.

not watching CSI:Miama tonight

~I HAD TO DO THIS, I SAW MAY LYN(who saw rosa-s who saw nina's)'S BLOG AND IT LOOKED LIKE FUN ~

This week at home, this week

Well, well, well, three holes in the ground…what a week.

Hi Lights

1. WYD - My sister went to WYD on tues, thurs and yesterday to ‘brave the elements’ and watch the pope. She was on the news on Tuesday, but we missed it =(. The next WYD is in Madrid, I have a few Aunts and cousins there, so me and mi sis will freeload with them for a week, before moving on to visit the rest of our rellies in Spain…hopefully…if we can save up.

2. Mamma Mia – went to see it on Monday, great movie! Makes you wanna get up and sing in the aisles. And wish you had some friends like those guys, hopefully ill keep my friends too =). My dad + sis also went to see Batman, but I was too sick, and sorta too scared too. Looks dark.

3. BDAY – my grandfather and cousin’s bday last Thursday, celebrated today, was heaps of fun, my second cousin didn’t remember me, he’s 4, I forgive him. I played with Play-doh, heaps of fun.

4. HAIR – I streaked my hair yesterday, its not that noticeable, unless ur my family and see my hair everyday.

Lo Lights

1. SICK - I’ve been sick since Thursday, and what fun that was. Tried to get some homework done, but couldn’t find any info on pigs, and couldn’t think enough to write English speech. Watched my documentaries for English, but fell asleep during both. Watched March of the Penguins a second time, and managed to fill in the questions.

2. SCHOOL - tomorrow! But im not sure if ill go, I have heaps of homework to get done, and I missed out on half my holiday cuz I was too sick to do anything. So I might use tomorrow to catch up…if I can convince my mum.BLOG – had no time to blog, hardly went on MSN, was too tired and too sick most of the time too.

and thats it for this week at home, this week

This week at home, this week

HIGHLIGHTS!

1. Went bowling, got 53 & 45 - i blame judy syndrome
2. Went to see Get Smart at movies
3. Watched end of s2 and start of s3 of DAWSONS CREEK
4. Finally saw first ep of s4 NCIS - Shalom
5. Realised my mummies bday is coming up, went looking for present.
6. Osmonds bday
7. May-Lyn + Justin = 1 month
8. Got DVD recorder =) $200, not too bad
9. My SISTER booked her DKT!
10. Watched a bunch of TV/movies
11. Cleaned my rrom :O
12. Listened to HEAPS of music =DD

It was a pretty cool week...didn't spent much time online, did a lot of sitty around being a bum, which was pretty cool. Kept waking up early. Watched a doco for English study!


ok, i should...do stuff... i dunno...end the blog

is is leaving now!

ps: 13. Elmo was on Rove

Holidays - Day 7

ummm, good day today...

woke up, went to church, came home, watched double NCIS eps, then monk, then went furniture shopping *gag*, came home, played 500 (lost and drew) watched CSI, a bit of Rove, got on computer...

MAYLYN + JUSTIN'S ONE MONTH TODAY

Osminas bday last friday... finally 14!

missing school but i need the break, probably wish it was a little longer, ive been doing homework everyday this hold... supposed to be doing English assm, finally picked topic... some religion thing

cant find ag assm answers on internet...have to go to library

Lost Without You - Delta Goodrem

im doing better now, if u care, which u probably dont, thats ok

im still crying a lot, and my family still isnt noticing, but its good, its healthy, im ok with it

i really miss you, i just wanna see your face, nothing more, i just need to see you. to think, another week and a half of this, i dunno if ill last, ur amazing, u know that? truly incredible! and i miss you like crazy
i had a dream about ur best friend, a couple of days ago, still expecting you to walk up next to him, but u didnt, u stayed out of it, just like ur staying out of my life
you know, she was right, about ur voice i mean, its beautiful, sometimes i just lay in bed at night and hear ur voice, it never says anything nice, cuz you never say anything nice to me, but its still got a nice sound to it, you shouldnt have brushed her off so easily... i thought she had a point, but you just never asked me
you know, i dont think i quite understand you, maybe thats why i like you so much, but im sure you dont understand me, and you still hate me, but i really dont care...you're the only thing thats been real to me in a long time, the only thing thats been constant, never failing, thank you for that, my friends and i are kind of crashing and burning, none of them even know about you yet, and still, i told other people, other people who just arent my people, but you know, and youre always there when i need you, i just... wish you were here

I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes (I say)
A little righteous and too proud
I just wanna find a way to compromise
Cause I believe we can work things out

I thought that I had all the answers never givin in
but baby since you've gone I admit I was wrong

All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
how am I gonna be strong without you
I need you by my side

if we ever say we'd never be together
in the end you wave goodbye d
unno what I'd do
im lost without you

I keep trying to find my way
and all I know is im lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
I'm lost without you

How am I ever gonna get rid of these blurs
baby I'm so lonely all the time
everywhere I go I get so confused
your the only thing thats on my mind

On my bed so cold at night
I miss you more each day
only you can make it right
no I'm not too proud to say

All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
how am I gonna be strong without you
I need you by my side

if we ever say we'd never be together
in the end you wave goodbye
dunno what I'd do
I'm lost without you

I keep trying to find my way
and all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day I
'm lost without you

If I could only hold you now
make the pain just go away
can't stop the tears from running down my face (ho)

All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
how am I gonna be strong without you
I need you by my side

if we ever say we'd never be together
in the end you wave goodbye
dunno what I'd do
I'm lost without you

I keep trying to find my way
and all I know is im lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
and all I know is
I'm lost without your love
I keep trying to find my way
and all I know is
I'm lost without you (ho)
I'm lost without you

Holidays - Day1

holidays!!

so psyched!
went to see get smart today, went to hunaizas party yesterday, and now im doing a whole lot of homework, but its OK, its WORTH IT!

holidays = take away, junk food, movies, relaxation, NCIS/dawsons creek 24/7, msn every day, $50!

omgsh, i cant wait

ok, gotta go eat!!! meat pie and chips =))

Love Autopsy - Hugh Grant

im falling apart
but this time, i dont think it's cuz i miss you, i just... i cant figure myself out, my head is spinning like crazy, i never know what im doing, i spend half my time crying... and even if you knew, you wouldnt care
last night, i was thinking, and i was trying to figure out why i like you, cuz its getting worse... i close my eyes and all i see is you, i watch a movie, and all i think about is you, youre consuming my day... i dont get it, youre not all that great, but like, when i think of you, its not like, all the usual signs the whole heart beating faster and slower at the same time thing, gettng high on ur voice, bla bla bla,
i mean like, sure, that stuff all happens, but its more... its like, i want to spend time with you, i want to figure things out with you, i want to confront problems, and know i can solve them cuz youre there, i want to figure you out, and understand you, and i want you to be able to understand me, its so hard to explain... but i think im falling in love with you

Figuring out you and me
Is like doing a love autopsy
They could operate all day long
And never figure out what went wrong

Love autopsy
Love autopsy

ah ah ah ah

What went wrong

This week at school, this week

Well, last week of term, that meant a lot of happy faces, as well as a lot of stress, lots of assignments due in and lots of things being wrapped up... some important year nine goings-on:

1. Lizzie and Brendan - shock arose as they BROKE UP, but after a trip to the uniform shop, all is well with the world.
2. History Assignment due - after only a few weeks, our VC assignment was due on Monday, that meant that everyone stressed to the max over the weekend.
3. Health assignment due - also only a few weeks, but this was spread throughout the week for most of the classes
4. Mr Yates left - should probably be at the top of the list, but i only just thought of it, our class threw a party, we watched Family Guy and got gatecrashed, it was pretty cool

and thats about it

now we have holidays which means we get a quick breath of fresh air before we have to go back to school and put up with each other for another 10 weeks.

AND!! rumour has it that monday the 21st of july has been declared STATEWIDE as part of the school holidays due to WORLD YOUTH DAY! yes, we all knew the catholics were good for something =)

and thats it for this week at school, this week

When The rain Falls - The Zetabytes

thanks for being at school today, at least i got to say goodbye, kinda, well, not really, but, close...

i almost told someone about you today, i went REALLY close, with mei-wei, then lana, then sandie, then the year 8ers in the afternoon, and still, not my group, cuz, well, they know you, sort of, they know about you, and theyve said hi to you a few times, but, i dont want people who know you to know i like you, but its useless telling people who dont know you

you werent in class today, and we missed the casual walk past the classroom and see each other, but i walked past u in the playground...8 times, with different people each time...and i had 4 conversations with you today, which is really rare...and one of them was really long, which is rarer, thankyou for talking to me...cuz u always start it, cuz im too scared

so now i have to spend 2 weeks without you, which i dont know how im going to do, but i can try, and i can think about you a lot... i miss you

Oh…oo oo
I don’t understand
This should be so easy
To just reach my hand
And know the world is free
But nothing’s, as it seems
I can tell you freely
Touching’s not the only way to feel

(Chorus:)When the rain falls
It’s like heaven’s crying
When the name’s all
The difference that there is
Cause tears are
The same when they are trying to grow something good
Out of all the pain
There’s no difference between the teardrops and the rain.

I know you proudly say
That I’m just talking crazy
To think of life that way
Means that I’m confused
There’s happy and there’s sad
But maybe yes just maybe
The sadness can make the happiness more true

(Chorus:)When the rain falls
It’s like heaven’s crying
When the name’s all
The difference that there is
Cause tears are
The same when they are trying to grow something good
Out of all the pain
There’s no difference between the teardrops and the rain.

Because I know the both were necessary
I don’t let it bother me at all

(Chorus:)When the rain falls
It’s like heaven’s crying
When the name’s all
The difference that there is
Cause tears are
The same when they are trying to grow something good
Out of all the pain
There’s no difference between the teardrops and the rain.

Oh…oo oo

Exceptional - Jojo

u were gone again today
i spent the whole day staring at ur group instead, which wasnt so bad...but theyv got nothin on you, i kept staring at your best friend, expecting to see you come up beside him, u never did, i missed you, please be at school tomorrow...i need to see you one last time before i start my 2 miserable weeks without you
im thinkin of telling some people about this blog tomorrow, cuz i want them to know you how i do...i dunno if its a good idea though, theyll just ask who you are, and im not ready to tell them, not yet anyway. and theyre not ready to hear who you are, they have to adjust to these things, and, although they dont realise it, and youre so unique, i mean like, youre... exceptional
i had a real bad day today, i blame you, if you were at school, then every time something bad happened, i could just look at you, or walk past you, and id be fine, but nooo, u had to be GONE, and leave me to suffer!
cant you just...piss me off more?? like, that may not be possible, but, could you try??? cuz then id learn how to make myself happy instead of relying on you

wish you were here <3

Mmmm

You're beautiful but you don't know
Can't see what's there inside your soul
Always feelin like you're not good enough
You wish you could be someone else
Sometimes you just can't see yourself
But I can see just who you are, who you are

You're exceptional the way you are
Don't need to change for nobody
You're incredible, anyone can see that
When will you believe that?
You are nothing but exceptional
(Yeah)

You never you think you measure up
Never smart or cool, or pretty enough
Always feeling different from all the rest, oh
You feel so out of place, you think you don't fit in
I think you're perfect in the skin you're in
You're just perfect just how you are, just how you are, yeah

[chorus]
You're exceptional the way you are
Don't need to change for nobody
You're incredible, anyone can see that
When will you believe that?
You are nothing but exceptional

If you could see the one I see when I see you
You'd know how lucky you are to be youI see through into you
And you are

You're exceptional the way you are
Don't need to change for nobody
You're incredible, anyone can see that
When will you believe that? (You are)
You're exceptional the way you are
Don't need to change for nobody
You're incredible, anyone can see that
When will you believe that?
You are nothing but exceptional