Extract from amys blog:
“i have found myself hanging around my class friends more.. because they are in my class.. i start telling everyone everything... because im too nervous to tell yous... im scared that you might think im weirder than you thought... because the me that a lot of people know.. its just a girl who falls in love too easily. gets upset too easily and doesnt want to let go... and i wasnt like that last year... i was... just so laid-back.. i didnt really care about that many things... then... osmond.. he changed everything... i started to change... yes i admit.. osmond is the first guy i have ever loved... and every since i had... ive become sensitive to these things.. ive feel like ive been confined in a small room.. and only a few people can fit at a time... and i try inviting you into the room... but because other people tell me things.. i feel the need to let them in first... and its not about favouring.. its just.. our group as a whole.. isnt really connected in the whole romance thing... well... lisa and jenny.. you know you get involved with the other group... thats about as much as it gets... and i know how you feel ebony... i may not understand.. but i know how you feel... it hurts so bad... not being able to trust the people who you trust the most...”
well, right now, I am going to make a pact, to me, and the people of my group, and the group as a whole.
Whenever I am too nervous to tell you something, I will write it down, I will somehow tell you, and if im not ready to tell you yet, I wont tell ANYONE else.
I will never be scared that you guys will think im weirder than you thought, bcuz I know that you are so totally amazing and you will always understand, and I cant possibly get any weirder.
I will never look at you any differently for the stuff you tell me, weve been friends for so long for a reason.
I will spend more time with you…im too distant.
Another extract from amy’s blog:
“that blog.. hurt me more than anything... because.. i know it is true.. and im to blame... but i have other friends now... and now... i have to deal with old and new at the same time... and i know who my friends have been... ever since year 7... we were close friends.. and we all somehow met each other... and everyones personalities fit somewhere... but we are the group.. that fits no where... and no we are rejects.. but.. we are different to everyone else... and tahts what brings us together...”
ur not to blame, ok? NOT UR FAULT! No way! We all have new friends now, we have to, we can’t just sit by ourselves in class, nor can we just use ppl in class and then not talk to them. But we DO need to be more US, we are the group that doesn’t fit anywhere else, that’s why we all work so well together (and cuz were REALLY cool) =)
bye bye friends =) *waves
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