Friday, 20 July 2012

Human beings considered collectively

Happy birthday Lito, it was wonderful meeting all your friends and family. Particularly Nene, who looks and acts so much like you it’s scary, was it hard to leave that all behind? The family you could rely on to always be there for you and help you through life. Was it hard to go out on your own and make a new life with no one there for you? I’m sure that what you did was best for your family and they’re so grateful, I’m so grateful, I wish you could see…

1. You tell everyone like it’s some colossal joke and maybe it was funny to start with but it’s not anymore, I don’t know what else to do, what else to be…
2. I’m sorry for getting too close to you and freaking you out and making you hate me. I do this practically everyday. It gets monotonous, even boring, but never stops hurting (like heartbreak).
3. I’m sorry for being too distant from you and freaking you out and making you hate me. I don’t know how to be close to you because I want you to be happy and everytime I fail to make you happy I hate myself so it’s easier to just not talk to you. Because I am a coward. And I’m sorry for that.
4. I’m sorry for never finding the time for you but I’m so busy and it’s not as easy as you think. I know I’m a constant disappointment to you and I have been all my life and nothing I ever do will change that.
5. You annoy me so much and I know you can tell but I annoy you too so everything works out in the end. Why can't all my relationships be as simple as you? Thanks for always being there, even when I don't want you. I love you more than life.

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