When it falls.

I spent a great deal of today surfing the web for Things That Inspire Me. I thought that maybe you guys would like to be inspired too, since I've been so lazy with blogging lately. So here is a collection of inspiration I found.

Sometimes all you can do is play a really loud song, and scream the lyrics at the top of your lungs. To grab someone's hand, and dance around the room, singing into your hairbrush. And when they walk away, you cry and cry. Because everything is not going to be okay. But tomorrow, you will wake up, and smile, and pretend. And everything will be a little closer to okay

I will be okay without you. I am strong enough to get over you. Sure, it may take weeks, it may take months, but I will be fine. I will love again. Because you meant a lot to me, but you let me go. Now you get to see me walk away.

You have your little quirks, things you do or say that make me smile, and realise how wonderful you are. As much as I love them, I hate them too. When you break my heart, these are the things that will destroy me.

As long as you're there,

I'm going to be okay.

As long as you're with me,

I'm going to be able to breathe, to smile, to laugh.

And, I may not know it yet,

but at the end of the day,

you're the one I'm forever going to want.

In between the moon and you,

the angels get a better view

of the crumbling difference

between wrong and right.

Human beings are funny. They long to be with the person they love, but refuse to admit openly. Some are afraid to show even the slightest sign of affection because of fear. Fear that their feelings may not be recognised, or even worse, returned. But one thing about human beings puzzles me the most is their conscious effort to be connected with the object of their affection even if it kills them slowly within.

We're all hiding behind something.

Sometimes it's a disguise,

sometimes its a trait,

sometimes we're hiding behind the person that others wish we were.

And maybe we look pretty with our little masks on,

but maybe if we took them off we would be beautiful.

I know it took me a while to teach you the rules, and there were a lot. They involved giving me chocolate, letting me win, and interpreting the difference between "hi" and "hi!" But you learnt them. You learnt them all for me. Part of me wonders why you spent all that time learning, if you were just going to leave me. Part of me knew all along.

You see that sky? It shines just like you!

I dream about you every night. I've spent a lot more time with you in my mind than I have in real life. And that's difficult. But I know the you in my head so well, that sometimes I'm scared you two will do something different. And I'll realise I'm in love with someone who isn't you. But I'm not even having this conversation with you. I'm having it with the you in my mind.

Let's lie in the grass, and make pictures with the clouds.

And when the clouds disappear, we'll count the stars together.

And at the end of the day, our arms will be numb,

and we'll be sore, and have grass all over our clothes.

We'll smell a little bit like each other, though,

and that will make it all worth it.

That, and the goodnight kiss.

Maybe it's not about the happy ending.

Maybe it's about what you do with your time before you get to the end.

Life is like an hourglass.

Sooner or later, everything hits the bottom.

You just gotta be patient and wait for someone to turn it around.

I must be a pretty good liar.

For you to think

That everything is okay

And it seems like a loss somehow

My heart got lost on the way to my head

And my brain celss are dead

And the craziness shows

Now I start to go when the green turns to red

And I should be dead

Thankyou guys for reading my insanity. It sounds strange, but writing all this, and putting myself into other people's positions helps me think. And it lets me work out how I feel. I don't ever really feel anything for myself. I just copy everyone else. When you are sad, I am. When you have a bad day, I have one. When you get angry, I do. Now that I've been everyone else, I can be me again, too.