OK, this is totally separate to the rest of it (he’s still alive!!) it’s before the other stuff
PART CUATRO
PART CUATRO
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“You cheated on me Luke!” Of course he was no different to all the others, how could I be so stupid?
“Yeah, but it wasn’t like that”
“Oh yeah? What was it like then?”
He looked frustrated, incapable of channelling his angst into something so simple as words. “You don’t get it, do you?” he asked me.
“Get what?”
“You’ve been loved your entire life! One guy to the next, there’s always been someone chasing after you”
“Get to the point, Luke” If he thought bringing up my less-than-perfect track record was gonna help his case, he was very wrong.
“I’ve NEVER been loved before you” Still hard to believe, but true.
“And?”
“And some days I think maybe you’ll wake up to what everyone else has seen, and fall out of love with me too. Sometimes I’m scared you’re just delusional, and I’m not really loveable.”
Delusional?
“I guess, just knowing that someone else COULD be interested in me, it was comforting”
Oh my goodness, how did he turn this back around on to me? And yet, it made such perfect sense.
“Nothing happened Elle, I promise”
Yeah, and I believed him. I always believed him.
“Forgive me?” How could I not??
“If you do something for me in return.”
“Anything”
I wrapped my arms around him in a huge hug, and leant my mouth to his ear. “Forgive me for overreacting?”
He turned to look at me, and smiled. “I love you Elle” And he leant in and kissed me.
“You cheated on me Luke!” Of course he was no different to all the others, how could I be so stupid?
“Yeah, but it wasn’t like that”
“Oh yeah? What was it like then?”
He looked frustrated, incapable of channelling his angst into something so simple as words. “You don’t get it, do you?” he asked me.
“Get what?”
“You’ve been loved your entire life! One guy to the next, there’s always been someone chasing after you”
“Get to the point, Luke” If he thought bringing up my less-than-perfect track record was gonna help his case, he was very wrong.
“I’ve NEVER been loved before you” Still hard to believe, but true.
“And?”
“And some days I think maybe you’ll wake up to what everyone else has seen, and fall out of love with me too. Sometimes I’m scared you’re just delusional, and I’m not really loveable.”
Delusional?
“I guess, just knowing that someone else COULD be interested in me, it was comforting”
Oh my goodness, how did he turn this back around on to me? And yet, it made such perfect sense.
“Nothing happened Elle, I promise”
Yeah, and I believed him. I always believed him.
“Forgive me?” How could I not??
“If you do something for me in return.”
“Anything”
I wrapped my arms around him in a huge hug, and leant my mouth to his ear. “Forgive me for overreacting?”
He turned to look at me, and smiled. “I love you Elle” And he leant in and kissed me.
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Hehe, ok, you have to forgive the 12 year old part of me that wrote the ending :L
Hehe, ok, you have to forgive the 12 year old part of me that wrote the ending :L
2 comments:
Is it just me, or did u delete my previous comment?
:S
lol damn that last blog i did which was so appropriate...
which if u read i could understand y ur now deleting my comments, and not commenting on mine...
Which is really frustrating, cause u brought all this up again, i'd happily moved on and because of my caring self i kept an eye on u, as u knew i would, and drew me back in, and as much as i thought "we failed once, wats changed?" i couldn't be so heartless and so i tried, i tried so hard to be everything u thought i was, because i know wat it feels like to feel that way about someone...
But i guess i was wrong, i guess i should have passed on what was given to me, by someone smarter then the both of us... a short simple answer which, despite watever damage it would cause would be nothing to wat carrying on would do...
I don't know, maybe i'm thinking too much and imagining things again, something just tells me thats not the case...
It's not silly, but it is a story, because unfortunately only story's can turn out the way we want...
If i could just hear a confirmation that i'm not crazy first, then i'll go on my way and leave u again, but i think i'll continue to blog, it's theraputic, and i never have to worry about anyone reading it...
Oh wait, i didn't comment on the last one...
lmfao...
oh well, wat i said still needed to be said, so i'll stick by ur rule and not erase wat i've already typed
;)
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