Anywho, here goes nothing.
Trying to do what's right. Unsuccessful.
Every thing reminds me of you.
Don't like life. What's plan B?
I'd do anything to see you.
Painting the colour of your smile.
I'll always be second place, though.
Tomorrow will be my greatest adventure.
Wish my teddy bear was you.
Tell me, are you happy now?
Everything was beautiful, and nothing hurt.
I want to be a superlative.
I would wait forever for you.
Trying so hard to stay strong.
And for once, I feel alive.
I think about you too much.
I'd share my moon with him.
Attempting to give up on love.
Want only thing I can't have.
Grandmother's death pieced family back together.
Only ever felt beautiful with him.
Just trying to figure myself out.
Without you, I wouldn't know happiness
Slow-danced in rain with best friend.
Drifting slowly between conciousness and fantasy.
Because, one day you'll notice me.
Need to stop crying over you.
Inspiration comes from the smallest things.
Please stay alive for another day.
Thought I knew what love was.
Dear God,
It's not funny anymore.
Don't you know? I'm yours, forever.
Frightened of mirrors, glass, cameras, self.
Mum, you don't really know me.
They're in a random order, so lots of it doesn't make sense :L But who wants their mind to make sense anyway?
So, anyways, yay me for being awesome, and writing such pretty shit.
Goodnight all.
(I'll see you under the moon)
2 comments:
oh you stalker :O
and I see your memoirs to be inspirational and beautiful, we all don't need soo many words to explain how we feel. (Y)
Ok here go's...
first of all i'm back, as u probably saw from my other comment...
now i need to comment on all ur blogs i've missed so lets go back to the last one *scrolls through microsoft word where he copy/pasted them all for quick reference*
Life & Happiness:
Brings up conflicting thoughts and emotions, cause my mum always goes on about what she could have done with her life and what she could have been (without kids) she doesn't say that part, and doesn't really believe it but u can see it in her eyes the way she wished she didn't get married at 19 had her first kid at 22 and was just "mum" ever since... now u know the context u can see y i have a thing about being with a chic who wants to just be a "mum" i fear the same thing will happen so i've always been adamant that the girl i end up with will have as much of a life and career as me... but lately i've been clucky... lol screw that i was born clucky :P
Still waiting for the splash:
lol fellow catholic who now prefers the term "christian" cause it doesn't like with "pedo-priest" my beliefs change like the sea, at times they are rock solid, others they flutter around like sand, but i have learnt that if u truly ask, u will recieve, u urself are living proof of that to me ;)
Resolutions:
I don't tend to bother with these cause i won't do them anyway but all urs sound good except replace "bite nail" with "crack knuckle" i can't write down everything cause i still have the obssessive fear that as long as my thoughts remain in my head, people can't hurt me with them... and money is over-rated, i have plenty saved from last yr and it doesn't make u happier, every purchases makes u feel better for a while to u find something else, such a hollow way to live... "Money Can't Bye Me Love!" lol the songs again...
The Perfect Man:
when i first saw this heading i got scared, then felt guilty cause i've sort of been thinking a similar thing... ended up not being so bad after all, only thing is if it's gonna be perfect i'm gonna pay for professional sculpturs, designers, artists etc, not gonna make some crappy lump of sand and call it a castle...
I make myself smile now:
lol i'll only agree if u let me be the worldst 2nd biggest wuss xD i'm too old to not be going on rollercoasters but i DON'T LIKE THEM OK!!! :P
Happy New Year... finally:
refer to actual blog, soz about that i'll work out wat i meant one day...
My parents think i'm immature...:
I'm so sorry about this, i've been going through the same thing since xmas 05, but u know, this last holiday seemed to make all the problems go away... at least for a week... *HUGZ*
Let's look into my mind...:
"I'll always be second place, though." Cut's straight through the heart... i don't know what to do, farking changing emotions gotta ruin our brains well thought out plans >.>
Done!
lol now on to wat i want to say, U stole my "..." >.> moving on... like i said i have been thinking ALOT over the holiday, and u have inspired me to start doing my own blogging, and here is good cause the only people that will read it will be u and ur frenz, i dunno if i'll start today or tomorow, but i have ALOT to say, so thier always be stuff to blog about...
Sorry if i was a bit harsh on New Years, but being the OCD people that we r we would never have stopped until ur mum saw and killed us both...
Well i think i finished this comment, look out for my inaugral blog! Happy New Year! Love You!
;)
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