Let's Smile

I am really, really happy. Which sorta scares me, because I know it won’t last. It’s like, when I go to bed, I’m looking forward to waking up in the morning. And I know, I know, that’s a good thing, right? I mean like, I haven’t been this happy in so long, I love it; I really, really love it, it is such an amazing feeling, everyday I look forward to school, everyday I look forward to coming home, I look forward to the weekend, then look forward to the week. I loved yesterday, it felt like summer, everything was beautiful and sunny, and even though I spent a good 4 hours studying, I had a blast.
WHAT”S WRONG WITH ME???

But I’m loving life so much, I’m so lucky, my life is perfect at the moment, it’s like, so hard to find something to wish for on a Santa :), which is awesome! But there is that very small part of me that is so scared, that this is the calm before the storm, because things are getting better everyday, people are telling me wonderful things for the future, and I don’t know how long life continues like this before it just hits rock bottom.

I know that this time last year, I was about to hit rock bottom, hating school, but hating home all the more, the school holidays were a drag, everything sucked. I’m scared that that’s going to happen to me again, and that this time; I won’t be able to stop it.

I once said that my greatest ambition in life is to be able to make myself happy, not rely on any one else, be able to make myself smile. I think that maybe that was a little unrealistic, other people’s joy brings me joy, and other people laughing makes me laugh, I will always rely on them. But maybe, it’s all about give and take; if my life continues so wonderfully, other people’s lives will start to suck. They’ll stop laughing, they won’t be happy. Then I’ll stop being happy, and other people’s lives will improve. Maybe we’re all just stuck in some sick, vicious circle.

Or maybe, we all have the ability to be joyful, and maybe, we know deep down that next year, we will miss this year, and so on for the rest of our lives. Maybe, if we figure out what part of this year we will miss next year, we can enjoy it, because we all know that we didn’t make the most of last year, or even the year before that. But if we stop dwelling on the past, and we appreciate the present, and look forward to the future, maybe we can finally be happy, maybe that’s the secret. Maybe it’s not about having the best friends ((which I do, so clearly you don’t)), maybe it’s not about the most money, or the most people in your class from last year. Maybe it’s not even about who we talk to, or who’s in our family. Maybe, if we appreciate every single day, and we live it as if it is our last ((and hey, let’s be realistic, it could be)), maybe we will be happy, joyous, blissful even! Maybe, that’s the only way to get the most out of life! Maybe if we realise what’s right there in front of us, we can love it!

So everybody who actually managed to get to the end of this blog, I would like you to comment on it. Comment with one thing about this year that you will miss when we get to year 10, and everytime you’re pissed of or annoyed, remember that one thing, and SMILE!! So that other people can smile too, and soon, we will all be smiling :)