Hello, I'm Ebony

Hello, I'm Ebony, and I know I'm still lying to myself, but I try to listen to my heart a little more, and she tries to tell me what the hell is going on.

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I really would have blogged over the past few days, but I've been really busy.
Sat - easter show
Sun - work, then joannies party
Mon - joannies party, then pick sis up from work, take her to friends house, watch footy with dad =)

speaking of; the dragons arent winning anymores =(
(no, i dont follow football. i just happydance with my dad when we are on top of the leader board. and cut out the exerpt from the newspaper to put on his wrk mate's desk to rub it in his face)

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Hello, I'm Ebony, and I'm happy for the first time in a long time. I'm doing everything I can to make it permanent, but I don't trust myself enough to.

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You don't hurt me anymore.

That is the best feeling in the world. That you don't hurt me, you have nothing to hold over my head anymore. I'm a better person than you. I win <33

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Hello, I'm Ebony, and I'm really lucky. I don't often remember how lucky I am, and usually that means I lose things that mean a lot to me. But I've decided to appreciate things more. It's all to keep now.

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I know I don't thank you enough. And sure, it probably gets really annoying. But everytime I'm about to, you say something that really annoys me. So, sure, you're a great friend. But you annoy me so often... thankyou. i don't know if i mean that

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Hello, I'm Ebony, and my favourite part of the day is being alone. Especially just before I go to sleep. Because no one tells me off for not doing stuff, and I get to just think. Think a lot.

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everyday is lifechanging, have you noticed that? when you wake up in the morning, you now that by nighttime everything will be different. every part of your life will have changed. some for the better, and some for the worse. but they'll all be different. 24 hours doesnt seem like that long a time, but it is... and when people say life is short... are they kidding?! if TODAY is long, then life is like.... infinite. i mean, imagine what you will go through before you die... imagine how much everything will change ...now tell me life is short (actually don't, i might get annoyed at you)

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Hello, I'm Ebony, and I'm scared of a lot of things in life. I'm scared of change, I'm scared of myself, I'm scared of the dark, I'm scared of death, I'm scared of life, I'm scared of being lonely.

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One- more thing before I go

Two- the one who loves me so

Three- don't make me count to three again

I think that is hilarious.
I am clearly very easily amused.

Stop pretending

That what you mean isn't what you say

Haha, but it isn't.

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Hello, I'm Ebony, and my blog has become a way that I figure out myself, but it's really just made me realise that I don't know myself at all. And more than that, I never want to know myself.
So I'll stop blogging now...