“You don’t get it!” Now I was pissed, this was so obvious, how could he miss it? “You left me broken! Shattered into a million tiny little pieces.” Okay, it was a little overdramatic, but I was trying to make a point. “And then I found him! And he actually put an effort into piecing me back together again. I felt good again, I felt almost happy!” That was a bit of a stretch, than again, maybe it wasn’t, maybe there was a point where I crossed into happy. “But he was falling into the same trap you had me in, and I knew it was only a matter of time before I broke him too.” Only a matter of time before I lost my friend, my closest friend and my best friend.
Now I realise that maybe I let him get too close. Actually, no maybe, I let him get too close. I shouldn’t have. And in the end I didn’t break him, he broke me too. Maybe it’s something about me.
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You know what I realised??
I’d give it all up.
Everything.
My entire perfect life.
All of it.
Everything I’m thankful for everyday.
I’d let it go.
What for, Ebony??
For a storybook life.
You know the one, no friends, your parents split up, only child, barely getting by at school.
And him.
But the rest don’t matter, you’ve got him.
That’s what I want.
EVERYONE READING THIS!! I would give you up.
For true love.
I think this is an irrational feeling
And I’m sure in a few hours, I won’t feel the same.
I’ll touch back down to Earth.
Realise how good I’ve got it.
But until then…
As much as I love you guys…
I just want one person I can curl up next to, and tell everything, not have to keep secrets from. Someone who loves me, understands me. Someone who allows me to understand them, who lets me try, and succeed. I know that doesn’t make much sense, since none of you guys can see in my head. But I want that person so badly.
And although I spend a lot of my life running away from growing up, I think I’d like to grow up enough to meet that person.
So before I come to my sense and delte all of this, I'm going to post it. Maybe my perfect person will read it, and come find me :)
((Oh, and the stories at the top, I don't know what that's all about, but I like them, so I'll probably keep writing them))
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6 comments:
we all have that dream of having a perfect guy, but always in those stories that those girls who get lucky have a horrible life in the beginning.. does that mean if we have a good life now you'll never get a good guy :(
ROFL.
ebony, ebony darling.
youre a good girl. you know what you want. sometimes if you find something precious you would give up anything.
cause im the end, it all comes down to you being alone, right? there is only one you. some people don't even need friends.
so go ebony =)
... at maylyn above..
sry that was worded too weird for me...
personal confidante who din't care who you are...that would be nice.
lol judy ><;;
okay, what i meant was, if you find something precious, you have to hold onto it no matter what you would lose along the way. 'cause you can't blow your big shot, right? like if you found a pot of gold you wouldnt just leave it for someone else to find would you?
because we are all born alone after all. indipendence and all of that. anyway, i probably sound like a bitch now dont i.
anyway, tc xD
Life's a bitch. Cuz if it was a slut, it'd be easy.
I think I'm attempting to make myself laugh. It's not funny.
I still want to give it up, WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME???
And I dont even care about the guy anymore, I dont want my perfection, it can all go away.
lol... "EVERYONE READING THIS!! I would give you up. For true love."
slack!! hmph! LOL imma write a blog in referrence to this LOL hmm.. :P
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