hmm, dunno why im writing any of this down, i mean like, i dont want anyone except you to be able to read my thoughts, and i know youll never see this page, so maybe that kinda defeats the purpose, but, later on, im sure ill let my people see this page too, or at least, ill tell them about it.
i just dont want them to know about you, or know how i feel about you, i mean like, every now and then i hint about you with some people, but someone always turns it into a joke, which is good, because i dont want to tell them, but i cant lie to them.
i guess i just want somewhere i can go, everyday if necessary to talk to you without you hearing, even though sometimes you hear, or see me moving my lips, but youve never said anything, youve never even acknowledged that you know that i think about you 24/7, which you must know, cuz you see me staring at you, before quickly looking away.
and you must notice that im always looking over or around someone at you, so that when you see me, i hide behind them, so i dont have to own up to the fact that ive just been staring at you.so, tell me, why is it that everytime you see me walking towards you, you tell me to go away, and everytime i walk past, you scream something at me that you know i hate, and yet everytime, i immediately walk away (which is rare for me, cuz ill usually put up a fight) or just look at you and smile, and roll my eyes, and, i know you know i hate it, because otherwise you wouldnt say it.
but... cant you tell that theres something extra in that smile? and something longer in that stare? and something hesitant about telling you you annoy me? although, you do annoy me, mainly because ive fallen for you when i know i shouldnt have, and i know i hate you, and i know you can be mean, and youre an idiot, and i know that that is exactly why i cant tell my friends, cuz they would tell me all of that, how im sooo stupid, and ur suuuuch a waste of time, but they wouldnt understand that I KNOW THAT, which makes it SO MUCH WORSE, because everytime another part of you annoys me, i cant do anything about it, i cant like you any less, because i already hate you, and i cant like you any more, because i already love you, an dthat makles me hate and love you even more
i just really wish you were here <33
Drew looks at me,
I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I need
Everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without
Drew talks to me,
I laugh cause it's just so funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night
[Chorus:]He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause
[Repeat Chorus]
So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..
Drew looks at me,
I fake a smile so he won't see.
