Reflection

My family celebrated Chrstimas yesterday, so today is just another day to me.
But have a great Christmas guys, and come read this tomorrow.

Confession #44: I want to go back in time and do better. I want to make you happier. You were always so sad, and I didn't know what to do.

"I sat on my floor this evening and stared at myself. I have no idea who was looking back at me and it was the most terrifying thing I have ever encountered"

When I'm alone, I rarely smile. – palefacelace

The scary thing is, that quote is true.

Yesterday, I looked in the mirror,

and I didn't recognise the face looking back.

And it's not because I don't know who I am,

it is because I have spent so long afraid of mirrors, and cameras.

That I have no idea what I look like.

And that terrifies me.

You’re all tangled up in other people.

Their worries have become your worries.

Their expectations of you have become

the expectations you have for yourself.

Their dreams are slowly turning into your nightmares.

“I have this fear that one day you’ll finally get a good look at me and

I’m going to disappoint you, cause you’ll see that I’m not as strong or as good as you think I am,

and I’m afraid that it will change the way you think about me.”

I was always waiting...