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My second memoir account, Just another girl, is finally over.
(Yup, that's how cool I am)
(Or I just think too much :L)

ANYWAYS, in celebration (beause it's a big deal to me), I am going to share with you my VERY FAVOURITE memoirs =D (there's a lot. bear with it. or skip to the end.)

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Was a star. Fell. For you.

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It's okay, the voices talk back.
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I'll breathe every breath for you.
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Wish on stars that look happy
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Tripped, fell over, got up again.
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Living life as a hopeless romantic.
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Planted hope. Forgot to water it.
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I'm lonely. Nothing severe; just lonely.
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We're just the dreamers of tomorrow.
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This memoir will bring you luck.
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Even the best fall down sometimes.
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Hopeless romantic fell in love... again.
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Wanna sell my life on ebay.
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Maybe it shouldn't be about him...
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All in favour of murdering Monday?
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My life is on repeat. Again.
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Second best isn't so bad afterall.
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I am glass. Fragile, neglected, breaking.
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I'm fading out. No one's noticing.
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His smile puts stars to shame.
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I get lost in the crowd.
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I'm a dreamer because of him.
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Just another girl on a journey.
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They see ugly. I see beauty.
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Every single word it's own lullaby.
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Constantly questioning myself, never finding answers.
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Wrote his name in chocolate topping.
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The phone's never been for me.
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Dad doesn't wish me goodnight anymore.
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Getting in deeper all the time.
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I was overdue for a breakdown.
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I've never seen you without wings.
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Stumbled upon crosswords. chose dead end.
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Got into an arguement with fate.
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Love life, on a good day.
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I can feel myself falling again.
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Somehow, I'll forever be a dreamer.
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I think it's sort of beautiful.
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I'm hiding behind this loquacious disguise.
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More broken than their eyes see.
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Walk towards the edge and jump.
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Hold my hand and just run.
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Everything hurts. But hurts so nice.
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I should be grateful. I'm not.
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You smile. I cry. You laugh.
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You patch my holes by smiling.
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Writing it down. Letting it go.
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Acting like nothing happened; fooling nobody.
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Time runs out; but words prevail.
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Wished for him. Again. Still waiting.
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Fake smile to hide the pain.
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No on wants my hugs anymore.
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I am stronger than you think.
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Lost teddy. Now I hug air.
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"Theres nothing wrong with you." Thankyou
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Those stars shine just like you.
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Sold my soul to the moon.
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Salty raindrops falling down my face.
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Each star, another wish for him.
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Putting a pricetag on my soul.
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If I smile, I won't bleed.
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Only an echo of old emotions.
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Watching the clock tick to 11:11.
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You jump, I jump, got it?
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Love telling secrets. Nobody like listening.
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Up all night, rewriting my life.
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The bridge between cooties and kisses.
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Please be stars and not aeroplanes.
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Clouds block stars. No wishes tonight.
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If you get lost, find me.
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Today's horoscope: "Rethink something quite important."
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Saying plans aloud. Hearing God laugh.
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This hell that some call "home"
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Maybe you're bored. I'm nothing special.
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I'm the girl you forgot about.
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Something is missing. Maybe it's me.
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Put your umbrella away and dance.
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I'd wait forever just for you.
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Life brings frown. He returns smile.
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Still finding out who I am.
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I see beyond a pretty face.
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My life's crossroads has traffic lights.
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We over analysed each other together.
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Despite best efforts, still had fun.
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hopeless romantic searching for naive perfection.
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Genuine smiles in an artificial world.
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Rain falling from sky and eyes.
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Would the world jump for me?
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Maybe I'm beautiful on the inside.
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Maybe I just really... need him?
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Suddenly my mind is episdn umop.
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Subtle was never my strong point.
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Square one is getting awfully familiar.
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Tears became longing. Longing became heartache.
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All I know is you're beautiful.
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Smile at me. I'll smile back.
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Look at all the pretty people...
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August 12 2007. Somewhere around 7.
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Each tear. More beautiful than before.
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you didn't love me
I finally did.
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I couldn't; but I died trying.
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How can someone be so empty?
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I believe in better than reality.
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My superhero with a rusty cape.
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Notice: This soul is under construction.
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With broken hearts and shattered dreams.
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I believe in impossibilities and miracles.
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Just another girl hiding from life.
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Self destruciton is not an option.
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I'm learning to believe in myself.
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24 hours: successfully destroyed every friendship.
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The girl who finds life beautiful.
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Dear destiny,
I surrender. You win.
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I don't even like myself anymore.
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We exchanged secrets and song lyrics.
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Running far enough to be missed.
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I smiled, and was finally beautiful.
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11:05... I'll stay awake to wish.
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Flying away on their whispered words.
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I miss the girl I was.
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I talk to God a lot.
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You're my angel with broken wings.
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I cried.
I cry a lot...
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I'm drowning, but still ever silent.
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Finding my place, my voice, myself.
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I'm an artist without the art.
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One persn can't make a difference...
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I believe that you are amazing.
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With crumpled secrets in my pockets...
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Like everytime a rain drop falls...
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Things no one seems to notice.
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Failing to conserve even small secrets.
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There are voices in my head.
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Words change. Nothing else ever does.
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Dream catcher. Dream maker. Dream believer.
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I need hot chocolate and cookies.
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What if the shoe doesn't fit?
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The pain is not worth it.
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My hand has holes for yours.
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Deteriorating differenced between right and wrong.
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Now my feet are all cold.
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Living for him.
He's living for me.
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I want to be a sunflower.
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One day, I'll sparkkle for you.
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Both in love with other people.
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Don't make me look away again.
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It hurts to say "just friends"
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Exchanging secret whispers and silly smiles.
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And then my heart went crazy...
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Right there in front of me...
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Every smile sparkles like diamond nights.
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Forgot to sleep. Remembered to dream.
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I wonder what you keep hidden...
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Dear smile,
It's been a while.
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Everything comes down to this moment.
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I hurt you to save myself.

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ANND!!! (I'm putting this here cuz I want it all here. I only found it yesterday.)

OK, this is a part of my book that I wrote back in January on my holiday, loosely based around two people. This is Elle and Luke's meet cute. The first person it's based around was someone I almost met in QLD :L, the second person is the one who gave Luke his mystery. Enjoy part one:

I was just walking through the class room as a shortcut, I didn't expect to see anyone in there. But as I walked in, I saw someone sitting on a chair in the corner, spinning around. He didn't seem to have a problem with me being there, so I kept moving, but I watched him. Each time he got to my direction he would lock eyes with me, until his face was out of view; constantly spinning, repeating the cycle each time. I can't say I noticed much of what he looked like.. just that he seemed sad, and a little surprised. But people didn't normally cut through classrooms, so that was to be expected. I didn't really think anything of it.

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Part two:

Weird that someone I had never seen before that day was suddenly everywhere I went. I guess it's that way with everything. Once you start looking for it, you find it. I don't think I was exactly looking for him, but I found him alright. The second time was in the office. I was walking through to get out of school, and he was hanging around looking at pictures on the wall. As I walked in, he looked up boredly, but then changed to… happy? It wasn't a startled change of expression either, just a gradual one, but there was definitely a change. We locked eyes again, for as long as his position would allow, before he refocused his attention on the pictures.

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The third time I say him was at sport. We were just minding our business playing a game of hockey when a basketball intruded on our game. Everyone looked up just in time to see him run in to grab it. He picked up the ball, looked at me, then walked back to his game with an apologetic nod to our teacher. I'd never before noticed how quiet he was. That even in his apology he didn't utter a single word.

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Part three: (Good things take time)

"You're quiet." I said to him. He looked up, but he didn't seem surprised, he just nodded. "Why?" I prompted.

"Nothin' to say" he said, and looked down again. I sat down next to him.

"But you must have thoughts, right?" he nodded again, "Why don't you voice them?"

"People don't wanna hear" he said, still not looking at me.

"Doesn't stop me" I laughed

He smiled and looed at me "Yeah, I noticed"

"Noticed? When?" It's not like I'd been very chatty when I saw him

"I've noticed you" he blushed and looked down again.

"In a creepy way?" I made a move to leave.

"No" he looked up to check that I was staying "It's just… you intrigue me" I looked at him questioningly "I admire your confidence" he clarified.

"As in my voicing my opinion no matter whether people want to hear it? That's not confidence, that's arrogance" I smiled

"Yeah" he looked reminiscent "Still wish I had it"

I moved my head around to look at him "If you ever need to voice your opinion, come find me, okay?"

He nodded "I will"

"Good" I stood up, and started to walk, then hesitated

"Luke" he said. I looked down to see him smiling at my confused look. "My name is Luke Moore." He clarified

"Elle" I said "How did you…?"

He simply shrugged, still smiling.

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Was it worth the three parts?

It so was!!

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Ok, well, that's all I really wanted to say today.

Smile! =D